Chapter 1: Memory lapse.
Cat woke up with a strong headache, her muscles were sore and her bare body was tangled in her favorite Egyptian cotton sheets, her eyes went wide when she realized what that meant. She sat up in bed and quickly scanned the extension of her room, she was alone, so she jumped off bed and rushed to her bathroom with the bed sheet carefully wrapped around her body.
The blonde refreshed her face with cold water on the sink, it helped her to clear her numbed mind a little, but the headache remained and it was quite not enough for her aching body. She closed the door, jumped under the perfectly heated shower stream and tried her best to remember the night before.
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Last night her drinks count stopped somewhere after her five initial margaritas and the two Bourbon glasses she took after. Honestly by that time she was already holding in, her body's strong gains to get rid of all the alcohol in her system, in a not very proper way for the well known Queen of all media. Though few hours after that, she was still drinking, she had no particular reason for that, at least not one she was interested on accepting, much less analyzing and maybe that was indeed the reason to be drinking she was on Tuesday night. She was running from her own mind and alcohol was like her favorite pair of joggers when it came to escape her own imagination.
It was about midnight when she decided to call it a day. She spent about thirty minutes trying to dial her driver's number, her blood was flooded in alcohol, her senses were numbed and her stupid phone's lock pattern wasn't working with her, that of course until she realized her mobile was upside down.
"Where are you?" She asked the man with very bad mood printed on her voice.
"I'm still at Catco miss Grant, as you ordered, I'm waiting for miss Danvers to finish her reports to take her home."
"Perfect, pick me up in my favorite bar, I need to go to the office," she said hanging up.
And there went an incredibly big amount of alcohol to the drainage, you can never be fast enough to run from Kara Danvers or get far enough in any case. One year she distanced from her own company, one year it took her to stop day dreaming about the blonde, to completely forget her, one year that she had to banish herself from any contact with media, no news, no newspapers, just disappear, become an hermit, basically trapped in her own house, because no matter where she went there was someone or something that reminded her of her cute naive Kara who still thought she was clueless of her real identity. She let her think that, convinced her that she didn't know about Supergirl because she knew her job at Catco was something important for the girl and because she enjoyed watching how bad of a liar was the girl from an outside perspective. Kara was probably the worst liar she had ever meet and yet she still was confident enough to believe she could trick HER, the Queen of all media, for god's sake! But that clueless naive nature of the blonde was what she loved more. However it hurt to know Kara didn't trusted her enough to entrust her secret to her.
"For one year tossed to the trash, cheers!", she spoke to no one in particular downing another glass of bourbon.
She had spent a complete year hiding away and when she finally thought she was over that girl, that she had forgotten her completely, she went back to direct her company and her world went down the hill in only one blink. It only took one look from Kara to make her go back to the start.
Going back to business life felt great, not even the annoying music or the clear trace of somebody's cheap perfume in the air of her personal elevator could bother her, not that day, she felt refreshed and ready to whatever came.
Her return was kept secret as she wanted it, not even James Olsen knew she was back. She was perfectly sure that by this time Kara should have already noticed she was back with her super audition or any power of sort, but it was okay, Kara didn't do well with surprises so Cat had a high possibility to avoid her and any sort of welcoming organization she or anyone would plan for her if they had known of her return with anticipation.
The elevator doors opened and there she was. First thing she saw was Kara's bright blue eyes fixed on her. Cat's hearth skipped a beat.
"Cat! " Kara said practically jumping over her to hug her, Cat's back struck heavily against the elevator wall, Kara's enthusiasm made her lose the control of her strength for a moment, "I mean Miss Grant, is so nice to see you, you have no idea how much I have missed you," the blonde mumbled in her ear never letting go of the hug.
The elder woman was wordless and being there between Kara's strong arms made her realize that what she felt for the young heroine was irremediably inevitable.
"Put me another glass Steve," she ordered to the bartender.
"It's Stephan Miss Grant," the bartender corrected once again, he met her years ago when she first came to the bar and now he only corrected her out of habit, he knew it wouldn't change anything, "here you go," he said handing the drink to the blonde.
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"I'm okay! You don't have to hold me," Cat complained to her driver who was now walking her to Catco's front door, she forced him to let go of her arm, almost falling to the floor when she stumbled on a crack of the sidewalk with her high heels, "that will be all," she dismissed him with a gesture of her hand.
"Should I wait for miss Danvers?"
"I'll take care of her, you go home, thank you," she said finally entering the building.
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Kara sighed finishing the last report, it had been a very long day, she had to rewrite her last article about three times because Snapper wouldn't approve it, after that she tried to invite Cat to have lunch with her, because she missed her and the time they got to be together was not enough, instead of accepting, Miss grant gave her a big pile of reports, she needed in the morning on her desk. Cat lately did the same all the time, overload her with work, every time she tried to get close, if she tried to have a little normal conversation with her, she would just open the right drawer of her desk and hand her work to do or sent her to do something far away from her office, it was almost as if she had everything prepared in case Kara appeared at her office. It felt like she didn't endure her presence anymore and to be honest that hurt more than she was willing to admit out loud.
The blonde looked around her new office, the place was beautiful but closed and she missed her old desk right out of Cat's office, she missed watching her boss working, the little gestures she did when she tried to concentrate and her cocky smile when she was making a sassy yet clever comment to whoever dared to get in her office. She could just sit there in her old desk all day, watching the amazing Cat Grant being herself in an incredible stunning way. Now she could watch an incredible boring door instead. Kara lifted her gaze from the report she was checking for the last time but instead of the door she expected to find there, she found Cat leaning on the door frame.
"Did you finish Kiera?" She asked with a lifted eyebrow.
"Yes, Miss Grant I just finished the last report."
"Perfect, now come here I need to tell you something," the elder blonde said fixing her gaze on the other girl blue eyes and gesturing her to approach.
Kara approached the woman hypnotized by her powerful look, honestly she was Supergirl now, but just one look from that woman could make her feel like she was just a little girl back in Krypton. She stopped right in front of Cat, trapped between the opposite side of the door frame and the woman.
"Just a little bit closer Kiera," she whispered still leaning her back on the door frame.
"I think—," Kara started with her mouth dry and hoarse voice, "your driver is waiting for me down stairs, I don't want to make him wait more than necessary, if you excuse me." She finally said trying to leave the office quickly but Cat Stopped her trapping her between both of her arms now firmly pressed on the wood door frame.
The blonde swallowed audibly wishing she could melt into the wood and disappear, Cat's arms resting on the door frame at both sides of her face.
"That won't be possible because I already dismissed him some minutes ago, I guess you are trapped here with me, Kiera," she commented with a big cocky smile leaning closer to the younger blonde.
Kara held her purse tightly between her body and Cat's, she felt her knees about to give in under her weight.
"It's pretty late miss Grant, I really should get going..." She mumbled with difficulty, it was hard to think straight when she was around Cat and being so damn close was making things even harder.
"Ugh! How is that you always have to be so perfect, doing the right thing every time, why don't you ever take risks or jump into unknown situations? Why don't you live you life to the fullest?" Cat complained pulling away from Kara, she started walking down the hallway going to her own office, the younger blonde just watched her walk away, "oh wait, I already know the answer to that, you are a coward Kiera and you will always be," She said turning around the corner.
Cat managed to get to her office in one piece, she couldn't walk more than five meters without stumbling into something or trip over her own feet. She poured herself a glass of bourbon in he balcony and downed it all in one sip. She poured another and did the same. Then another.
"You now what Miss Grant—," Kara started bursting into the office and the balcony, "you know nothing about me! And you have no right to call me a coward, because we all know that the coward here is you!" the blonde face was red in anger and she gesticulated uncontrollably with every word she said.
"Oh dear but I do know a lot about you, the fact that you don't trust me enough to tell me, doesn't change the fact that I have eyes and a brain and believe me when I tell you, I know WHO you are Kara Danvers!" Cat yelled at her twirling around to face the blonde.
"I'm not—, you don't—, ugh! I'm not Supergirl!" she yelled back.
"Who said anything about her? You are the worst liar ever existed," Cat turned around to face the city view but she tripped over her own hills and lost balance almost falling of the edge of the balcony railing.
Cat closed her eyes and in one blink she was safely floating over the balcony in Kara's arms.
"Are you okay?" the younger blonde asked but her only answer were Cat's tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Why you never trusted me?" she asked tears still rolling down her face.
"It's not like that, I do trust you Cat, it's just, well—, you did threatened of firing me if I was Supergirl."
"I wouldn't fire you, not for real, I know how important is this job for you," Cat admitted pushing Kara back in an effort to take some distance from the blonde, but the girl didn't let go of her, they remained floating few inches over the balcony's floor.
"That's not all, you left, disappeared, you not only left the company you also vanished out of my life and then when you finally came back to the company, to me. You did nothing but ignoring me, avoiding me in every one of my attempts to get close and I can't stop asking myself why, because Cat, I don't conceive life without you."
Cat didn't answer she just wrapped both her arms around Kara's neck and kissed her, joy tears now replacing the sadness ones.
"You taste like bourbon Miss Grant," the blonde said smiling after they cut the kiss looking for air.
"Of course that's all you have to say Kiera," she rolled her eyes, "now could you please take me home." She asked Kara.
"Of course just let me grab my purse and yours," she answered putting Cat down on her feet, " and please keep your distance of the railing, I don't want to find you laying on the street when I'm back."
Cat poured another bourbon when Kara disappeared in her office and before she finished it Kara was back.
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Cat turned the shower knob, her jaw dropped and her eyes wide again, not only she found herself nude on her bed but the last thing she remembered was Kara flying her home. That was all, she had no more memories after that last glass of bourbon.
AN/: Let me know if you liked it, if I should continue, etc. I'm new to the fandom and this ship got me squealing every episode, I'm in love with Cat's character and I miss her terribly in the second season.