I DO NOT OWN DEATH NOTE OR ITS CHARACTERS SADLY
Mello's pov
He's gone. The only one I cared about that was still alive. I loved him even if I didn't show it. He meant everything to me, he didn't know it but he was my whole world. Now he's gone and it make's me want to give up and cry. I don't cry for anything or anyone. I guess my entire world crumbling around me is enough to cry over. I can't think straight, everything is going through my mind all at once. I can't concentrate on a single thought there are just too many of them. I just want to see him, I want to hold on to him forever. Tears start to roll down my face and I snap my eyes shut. I guess my heart has finally given up, I'm surprised it held out this long. Everything has happened so fast and I don't think I can hold onto my sanity much longer. I don't know what to do. I just want him back no, I need him back. "This is your own damn fault!" I scream at myself "I should have never let him help." I guess I really have lost all my sanity. That might be why it doesn't surprise me when my eyes go to my gun o the table. I can't believe I'm considering taking my own life just to see him. Its not like I have much left to live for, everyone who cared about me died. I pick up the gun and just stare at it as if it will tell me what I should do. Even if I do find Matt when I die what would he say about this? What would he say about the way I reacted to his death. Well I guess there's only one way to find out for sure. As I raise the gun to my head a picture of all of us back at Wammy's house flashes into my head. Matt, Near, Beyond, L and then there's me. I was smiling I was actually happy. It just hurts me more to remember those smiles. I whisper "I'm sorry" I don't know why or to whom I'm apologizing to but I say it anyway. I feel the tears start falling again. I pull the trigger before the tears could hit the floor and in an instant everything id gone.
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Its so cold and everything is dark well of course its dark your eyes are closed stupid. I crack my eyes open expecting to see no one and nothing. When I sit up I see a familiar face. "Great if everything wasn't already bad enough now I'm hallucinating.'. Then I hear it, that wonderful laugh I've always loved. " Sorry but I'm not a hallucination Mells.". That voice, his voice it's the most wonderful sound I've ever heard and its saying my name. "I love you Matty." Since when do things like that come out of my mouth? "I love you too Mells." Before I can even comprehend what's going on his lips are on mine. I can't believe this is really Hell. I may be dark and desolate but its by far the most wonderful place I have ever been.