Damn... How long has it been since I've wrote a story? It's been awhile... Well anyway, I made a new one. So here it is... Enjoy everyone.

DISCLAIMER- I do NOT own Evangelion nor am I affiated with it. I am just a normal average boy with his own complex problems. :/

Lost

Ch. 1- Lost Love On a Lonely Highway

Shinji Ikari was walking in the dark streets of Tokyo-3. He had his head down and his shoulders slouched.

"What is my purpose in life?" he thought bitterly, "I mean... Why am I still here?"

A tear slid down his face.

"I'm always suffering all the time by Asuka and Misato doesn't even seem to care about me," he thought about it even more as he stopped in the street and clenched his fists.

"Nobody doesn't care about me. Not even my dad. All I want is to be loved but I just get shitted on."

He fell down on his knees and he cried silently, "All I am is a damn tool. A tool that's suppose to save humanity from the Angels. Why am I still doing this anyway? Nobody never gives me any damn appreciation. Everybody's selfish..."

Then he started to think about a certain someone, "Rei..."

He loved her. He loved every single fiber of the young teenager girl. Her milky pale skin, her light blue cropped hair, her deep crimson eyes...

"I'm still here because of her..." he realized suddenly, "She's the only reason why I'm still in this fight. I want to protect her with all my power. I want to see that smile of her that makes me melt. I want to hold her hold her tiny body in my arms and never let go. I want to kiss those sweet gentle lips of hers. She's my only reason why I'm still here... So that one day, we can find happiness... Together."

He wiped the remaining tears from his eyes and stood up. He decided what to do.

"Even though I'm scared, I want to tell her my true feelings for her. No matter what," he thought with determination.

He stood at her apartment door. His heart was beating fast and his breath became unsteady. His hand slowly went towards the door to knock on it but it pulled away quickly.

"I will not run away. I will not run away..." he chanted in his mind.

He knocked.

Silence...

"U-um... I-It's me. S-Sh-Shinji," he called out, "I-I need t-to talk to you."

The door slowly opened and Shinji's heart was beating at a faster pace.

Rei was wearing her usual school uniform. She stared at him.

"Come in," Rei said in her usual monotone voice.

She walked back to her bed and sat there. Shinji took of his shoes at the entrance and walked towards the bed as well. He looked around her house. There were a bunch of books in one corner, a desk nearby her bed, some bloody old bandages in a trash can, and there were some grime and dust on the walls. He sighed.

"How can she live in a place like this?" he thought.

He sat on her bed and looked at her.

"So what is it you want to talk about, Pilot Ikari?" Rei asked.

"Please call me Shinji," he responded back.

"Okay, Shinji. ," Rei said uneasily. She wasn't comfortable saying people's first names.

"Then you can call me Rei instead of using my last name," Rei started again, "But only in private conversations."

"Sure," he smiled.

She was warming up to him.

"So what did you want to talk about, Shinji?" she asked again.

"It's now or never," he thought as his heartbeat started to quicken.

"Rei..." he took a deep breath, "I've been thinking about you a lot."

She looked at him in wonder, "What do you mean?"

"I mean that... Whenever I see you, I feel a lot more happier. When I talk to you, it makes my day feel brighter. It feels..."

He gulped.

"Shinji?" Rei asked in interest.

"I feels like you're the only reason why I'm still here fighting the Angels. You're a very special person to me. I want to protect you and make you happy. Rei... I love you."

He said it. He confessed his true feelings to her. He looked at her...

But she only had a blank stare.

"Shinji. I do not feel these feelings towards you. I have never felt anything related to love whenever it comes to you. The only person that is truly special to me is your father."

He felt his heart break slowly when he heard these words from her mouth. It felt like she was stabbed his heart and was twisting it as she talked.

"Shinji," she looked at him with no emotion, "I don't love you."

It felt like a bullet tore through his chest.

"I-I un-understand," his voice became shaky as he stood up, "I-I'm sorry for bothering you."

He quickly walked out her apartment and closed her door loudly.

"Shinji..." Rei murmured softly.

When Shinji got out, he ran as quickly as possible to anywhere. He didn't want to stay at Rei's apartment anymore. He didn't even want to go back to his home. He kept running and running. He didn't care anymore. He just wanted to go away. Away from everything.

"She never cared. She never cared. She never cared," he kept on repeating it in his mind.

The hot tears went down his face as he ran. His eyes were shut tightly. He wanted to die. The events were playing in his mind like a film.

He finally stopped to catch his breath and found himself in the countryside. The tears were still running down. He fell on his knees again and gripped the dirt ground.

"My life is worthless. I just lost the only reason staying," he cried out loud.

Love is a two way street... Shinji Ikari lost his on a lonely highway....

TO BE CONTINUED

Damn... That was depressing. Oh well... Love has its pains. Anyway... I was watching "Evangelion 1.0: You Are (Not) Alone" and my was blown. That movie was awesome. I love it how it shows more about Shinji's and Rei's romantic relationship. That's cool since I'm a ShinjixRei kind of guy. :P

Anyway, I'll be working on my other stories pretty soon. Espcially the one about Custom Robo... (Damn I need to start that shit up again.)

I hope you enjoyed the chapter! Thank you for reading! I'm sorry if there were any mistakes! LATER!