A/N: I'm sorry this is so bad, I just need to get back into the swing of things after not writing for so long. Also please review.
Fists and bodies fly as Fairy Tail battles the Magic Council for him, but Jellal can only keep his eyes on Erza, torn between the love for her guild, and her inexplicable fondness for him.
Natsu's voice cuts through the commotion, begging him to run and join Erza and Fairy Tail, begging him to join in on the warmth, laughter and booze that characterizes the guild, begging him to make Erza happy. It is a tempting thought, and had Jellal not known the consequences he might have accepted.
But he knows doesn't he? He knows that if he runs to Fairy Tail right now, the Magic Council would forever be after them, and even if they escape momentarily, there would come a time when one member wasn't careful enough, or didn't care enough, to cover their tracks and the guild would be found. Would Erza still be happy after her precious nakama died for him? At what point would the words "I only have you" turn into despair? At what point would love stop being enough?
Jellal did not wish that upon Erza. And so he stood his ground and gave her a look that said, "Choose your guild. Live for them, and make them happy because that makes you happy."
She stops the brawl, and informed the Magic Council she will take responsibility with her face on the verge of crumpling into sobbing, and her voice shaky, but she holds, because she is Erza and she endures.
Jellal falls in love with her again.
The scene tugs at some hidden corner of his subconscious, and he remembers. "Of course" he mumbles, "It was the color of your hair."
He turns back to stare at her sadly, his gaze full of what could've been but never was. And maybe somewhere in it, there is a promise - Let's get it right in another life.
"Farewell, Erza", he says, and disappears from her life, probably forever.
And on the road to prison, Jellal asks Lahar for a pen and paper to write a letter. The man's eyes and tone of voice were full of something, when he told Jellal he'd never see Fairy Tail again, and while it may not be kind enough to be sympathy, or strong enough to be pity, it still emboldens Jellal to ask such a request.
In the three days he has, he pours his soul into writing the letter. He goes through a hundred pages before he is done. He has so much he wants to say, but too much of it is either too late, or too sad, or too selfish.
In the end his letter is simple
Dear Erza Scarlet
I will keep you in my thoughts. Please keep me in yours.
Love Jellal
He at first wanted to beg her to love only him, or wait for him, but Jellal couldn't allow himself to be so selfish. And so he requested of her the only thing he felt he could ask - to remember him, because some part of Jellal's subconscious, probably the little slave boy that grew up in the Tower of Heaven, was deathly afraid that he'd die alone in an unmarked grave forgotten and unloved.