A/N: This is my first story so please reveiw! Tell me if its horrible.
Disclaimer: I don't own 'Instant Star'. I also do not own the song 'Fallen Angel' by Poison.
Chapter 1-Fallen Angel
He saw her walking down the hall. She looked terrible. Actually she looked beautiful too. But something was wrong. She was upset, depressed. But, Why? Her hair was pulled loosely up in a messy bun. It was slowly falling down around her shoulders, but she didn't seem to notice. Or she just didn't care. She looked like she was going to fall at any moment. Her eyes were tired. She probably hadn't slept for days. But that was who she was. That was the same girl he had always known. Working herself to death. But still, something was off, wrong. She looked, sick almost. "Hey, girl," He said softly. She looked up. She'd been crying. Her eyeliner and mascara was running. She swallowed quickly and wiped her eyes. "Yeah?" she asked, as if nothing was wrong. But there was something wrong, he knew. He could read her like a book. "You okay?" he asked. She nodded her head quickly and gave me a huge fake grin. "You sure?" "YES," she said with an exasperated sigh. "Now stop pestering me, daddy." "Haha. C'mon," he said jerking his head in the direction of the studio. She sighed loudly and whined. He just stood there and smiled. He motioned for her to follow him. She grudgingly followed. "I thought we were done today," she said. "Well we were," he said, "but I wanted to make sure you liked your song, after all you have to like it, it's your song," he said making quotes in the air as he said 'your song'. She mumbled something that sounded like whatever. "You sure you don't need to talk?" he asked "Actually I have a new song," she said, "but it's different from the others, very different." He gave her a look and she read my mind. "I know change can be good," she said rolling her eyes. "It's about … suicide," she said quickly.
"Where'd the inspiration come from?" He asked slowly. She looked up into his eyes. "A dream," she said nonchalantly. He nodded. "Go ahead," he said. "It's called 'Empty Eyes'," She replied. She started to sing.
The sun is shining
But you shiver as goose bumps pop on your arms
You're a bitter girl with a cold heart
You're all alone
You never feel at home
You still dance, but don't give it your all
You care less with every fall
You let your hidden feelings out in a song
But soon that, too, will be gone
CHORUS:
When someone looks at you
What do you do
You stare back with a blank expression
Your face betraying no emotion
You know he didn't try, try to die
You know he would have never left,
Left you by yourself
But everyday a piece of you dies
And you see the world with empty eyes
You think how this could all end
And you could be with him again
Just one thing you have to do
But you're not sure how to
CHORUS
As you lay there bleeding
They're all screaming
You can hear them cry
You whisper 'goodbye'
No more empty eyes
"Well?" she asked. "Wow, that's deep," He whispered. She just looked at him. "It's a great song though." She sighed with relief. "Can I go now?" she asked. "Yeah, need a ride?" She nodded. He dropped her off at her house. "Goodnight, Tommy" she said. "Goodnight, Jude. See you tomorrow." She walked inside and went to the bathroom. She had a big lunch, well, it was in her opinion. She bent over the toilet and emptied her stomach's contents into it. She went to bed and immediately fell asleep. It had been a tiring day. It had been a very long and tiring day. She climbed into bed and fell into a troubled sleep.
Jude walked onto the stage. SME was already there and ready to go. She stepped over to the microphone. SME started playing. She had sung the first few lines when everyone started booing. She stopped abruptly. Everyone was jeering and yelling insults at her. "Pig! You're disgusting! Cow! We hate you! You suck! You stupid bitch!" The insults got worse and worse. Everyone was laughing now. She looked around helplessly for support. But everyone was laughing, everyone. Sadie, Jamie, Speiderman, Kyle, Wally, Darius, even Tommy was laughing at her. Suddenly a strange man appeared in the crowd. "What's the matter Jude? Huh? What is it, darling? Is everyone laughing at you? You poor thing. Well, it was only a matter of time. After all nobody likes you. Nobody cares about you. Everyone hates you. All your friends family, everyone. Even your precious, wonderful, perfect Tommy. Nobody wants you. All you do is screw up everyone else's lives. You're just a worthless, fat, ugly bitch. Why don't you just die? It would be a relief to everyone." Jude was crying so hard her entire body was shaking. "N-no, I-it-it's n-n-not tr-tr-true." He smirked. "Oh yes, it is. Face it Jude." Jude fell down and hugged her knees as she cried uncontrollably. "No it's not. It's not true," she repeated to her self over and over again.
"Jude. Jude. Jude!" Suddenly she bolted upright. She was in her bed, in her room. "You okay?" Sadie asked. "Yeah, I'm fine. What is it?" Sadie had been crouching at her bed. Now she was at her door. "It's 15 till 6. Time to get up." Jude groaned. "You sure you're okay?" "Yes, I'm fine." She nodded and walked out closing the door behind her. Jude groggily got out of bed and made her way to her bathroom. She brushed her teeth. Then she got dressed and did her hair and make up. By the time she was finished it was 6:20. She made her way down to the kitchen. She grabbed a pop tart and made herself a cup of coffee. "Oh, you're up already." Jude jumped at the sound. She thought she was alone. She turned around and came face to face with Tommy. "How did you get in? I didn't hear you knock." Tommy sat down at the table. "That's cause I didn't. Spare key." Jude glared at him. "How did you get a spare key?" "Sadie. She got tired of me waking her up by banging on the door when we had to be at the studio early, so she gave me a spare key." Jude turned back to her coffee. "Remind me to kill her later." Tommy chuckled. "Come on. We gotta be a G-Major at 7." Jude reached into the cabinet and grabbed a bowl and a box of cereal. Then, she grabbed the milk out of the refrigerator. She made a bowl of cereal and sat down at the table. "Dude, it takes twenty minutes to get there from here. We have forty minutes. Chill, we have a few minutes." So Tommy sat in silence as Jude ate her cereal. When she was finished they walked outside and got in Tommy's Viper. They drove to G-Major in a comfortable silence. When they got Tommy headed for Studio A while Jude searched the lobby for her Speiderman. She heard a commotion behind her. She turned to see Speed laughing like crazy. Suddenly her dream flashed through her head and what the guy had said. She realized how much she had eaten already today. She ran to the bathroom and into the first stall. Five minutes later she was standing in front of the mirror trying regain her composure. She slipped silently from the bathroom and headed toward Studio A. She walked into the small room where the producing was done. (Does anybody know what you call that room?) Tommy and Kwest were bobbing their heads to the song they had playing on the radio. Jude knew the song. She actually liked it. She quietly sang along with the band. "You go girl," Tommy chuckled. Jude rolled her eyes. "Shouldn't we be working?" she asked. Tommy cut the music off. "Yeah. So we gonna record 'Empty Eyes'?" Jude nodded. "Mmhmm. Let me go get SME and we can lay down the music." "Okay." Jude walked towards the door but was stopped at the sound of Tommy's voice. "Hey." Jude turned. "Are you okay?" Jude felt her stomach lurch. "Yeah, I'm fine." He turned back to the soundboard and Jude went back into the lobby. "Hey Speed!" "Yah?" He asked. "Get Kyle and Wally and get your asses in there! We have work to do!"
"Okay Jude, one more time, please?" Jude just glared and nodded. She obediently sang the song again. "Okay that's a wrap." Jude made her way out of the recording booth and somehow had made it behind Tommy at super speed. "Oh you're so funny." "SHIT! How the hell did you get there so fast?" "I don't know." Tommy shook his head and looked back down at the soundboard. "Well you're done for now. Go eat or something." Jude scoffed. "I'm not hungry." Tommy raised his eyebrows and quickly let them down. "What was that?" "OH, just an 'oh really', surprise surprise." "Huh?" "It seems like you're never hungry anymore that's all." "Come on, you saw me eat this morning, and I've already ate twice today after that." Jude was starting to panic. "Oh. I'm sorry I didn't know and I didn't mean to snap at you like that. I guess I'm just tired." Tommy turned to look at Jude. "It's okay dude, it happens." Jude sat down in the vacant chair beside Tommy and pulled her journal. She opened it and looked down at the page. The beginning of a song she had never finished. It was titled 'Frozen'.(And no, not the same Frozen from season 1.) She had begun writing it about a year ago. She read through the lyrics and instantly remembered what it was about. 'Tommy,' she thought. "This is pretty good, I oughta finish this," she mumbled. "What?" Tommy asked. Jude looked up. "Nothing just thinking out loud." Tommy looked back down at the soundboard and continued doing whatever he was doing. Jude didn't feel like writing the lyrics so she closed her journal and tossed it to the floor and it landed on her bag. She leaned her head back and closed her eyes. She spun around in the chair and began daydreaming. After about ten minutes, she was just twisting from side to side and she drifted off to sleep. Her previous dream replayed itself in her head and she was once again speaking out loud. Loud enough for Tommy to hear. She was whimpering. "N-no, I-it-it's n-n-not tr-tr-true." She paused for a minute and all you could hear was her sobs. "No it's not. It's not true." Tommy began shaking her softly. "Jude! Jude! Wake up!" Jude jumped and looked around at her surroundings. She was in the studio with Tommy. Tommy was looking at her questioningly. "Are you okay? You were talking in your sleep and you seemed really upset." Jude quickly nodded. "Yeah just a bad dream." Tommy seemed unsure but accepted her answer. "You've been working to hard if you're falling asleep in the studio. You should go home and rest." "What? Are you kidding? I just didn't sleep well last night. Besides, after my little nap, I feel quite energetic. Let's get to work!" Tommy chuckled. "Well, if you'd been in a conscious state earlier, you'd know that I'm finished and unless you have something new then there's not much left to do." "We could go show Darius the new single," Jude suggested. "Yes, that we can do. Let's go do that now." Jude nodded eagerly. She was anxious to forget her previous dream. They walked to Darius' office and let him hear the new single. He loved it. To put it in his words it was going to be a 'number one hit so fast they wouldn't know what happened'. "Hey Tommy, I 'm gonna walk home, okay?" Jude said as they headed towards the doors of G-Major. "You sure?" he asked. "Yeah." "Okay. Well, see ya tomorrow bright and early." Jude groaned. "Don't remind me." Tommy just laughed and walked towards his car. "Later!" Jude called out to him. He responded with a wave. She walked down the sidewalk humming the song she had heard on the radio earlier. She suddenly heard the words softly floating in the air. She turned to see Tommy's car pulling out of Galaxy with the radio blaring. She sang along with it and continued even when she couldn't hear it anymore, "Cause sometimes you can't choose. It's like heads they win. Tails you're gonna lose. Win big--Mama's fallen angel. Lose big--livin' out her lies. Wants it all--Mama's fallen angel. Lose it all, rollin' the dice of her life."
Okay well, there's the longer chapter one! Hope ya liked it!