Angst-ridden....

bitter, and cold

You never know just what to say....

until it's much too late.

Stress.

Stress takes over,

creating an even more bitter person.

But that's just the exterior...

If only they could see what's underneath...

The person within

The one you want to be

...the one you are.

They see you and think

'she's so rude'

'what a snob'

but they don't really know.

they don't even know your name

they know nothing, and yet...

they assume everything.

He smiles, says hi..

you do the same...and long to say so much more...

to touch his arm...wrap him in an embrace

feel his arms around you

yet you fidget, silently a moment, and walk away

You blew him off, again...

but that's not true!

You just don't know what to do,

what to say...

as always

he understands

says hi the next time you meet

he doesn't know what to say, either...

it's in his eyes

it's always in his eyes

you see compassion in his eyes

compassion, and warmth...

there's love hidden there

somewhere..

but there's so much more, too

so much you long to know...

Sitting alone, you think to ask...

but never do.

the words never make their way out

trapped in an internal pit

caught in a mine

they lay there for eternity

causing chocked sobs

and wonder of why they won't surface

Tears stream down your face

out of control

slowly they drip down your chin

staining your clothes

dark, tainted blotches

you realize what's happening

try to control it

these feelings...emotions

they override

overflow

boiling up within you...

pushing the last tears out

in a final, gasped breath,

anger follows

anger from these irrepresible tears

tears of love

tears of hate

tears of utter confusion

tears of unseen, unheard, unsung beauty

One day, another will see and hear this beauty

someone who needs no words

someone who understands

like he does...

or...you think he does...

hope he does...

something about his eyes

you see the same in him

that you feel in yourself

There's more than the surface exhibits

One day, you will know what it is to feel complete

to be complete

Until then

stay strong, my sweet

stay strong.