It's been eighteen months since Yuri and Otabek got together. Now Yuri being seventeen years old and Otabek twenty, the Russian skater decided he wanted something more in their relationship. Of course he loved every kiss they'd exchange, every embrace, every stare, every moment of affection but Yuri wanted to take it to the next level. And that exactly was the problem. Otabek refused to do anything like that until Yuri turned eighteen, something the blonde didn't like. They had many arguements about this topic. Some of them ended well, some of them could end better...but one time things got completely out of hand.

"Why the hell not?!" The Russian yelled at his boyfriend

"Because you're still seventeen. How many times will we discuss this Yuri?"

"Until you make up your mind so we can fuck already! I'm not a child anymore Otabek!"

"Jeez Yuri, can't you wait six more months?"

"What will change in six months?!" Ineed, what would change? Yuri wasn't going to get any more mature or ready so what was Otabek so worried about? The Kazakh had lost his virginity when he was sixteen so he has no right to talk.

The raven haired man sighed. "It's just...it's an ideological thing. I want to feel it's right when it happens for both of us. And I don't want you to regret it!" He said, now running out of patience.

"Oh don't worry, I already have!" The blond spat back.

"What's that supposed to mean?!"

"It means I've had enough! You had your fucking chances Otabek and you blew it! So I'll make things easier for you and not make you feel insecure and shit!" Yuri said furiously before grabbing his backpack and jacket and storming off, slaming the door behind him and leaving Otabek alone in his appartment and to his thoughts.

It had been an hour already. No texts, no calls, no nothing. Otabek might put on a neutral mask but he had really strong feelings. Especially when it comes to Yuri. The soldier eyes he fell in love with when he was a kid and his love only grew stronger. The current situation was driving the man insane. Yuri was part of him after all. He had given him his heart and knowing that the Russian now (probably) hated him, he couldn't help but feeling a gap in his chest. Maybe Yuri was right. Maybe he was overworried and maybe he should be the first to make up.

Otabek was now standing outside of Yuri's appartment. Since the younger one didn't answer any texts or picked up his phone he figured he was still really pissed so in order to make things right he should visit him himself. The man knocked many times but to avail. In the end he took the spare key out of his pocket and unlocked. Of course he had a key to his appartment, just like Yuri had one to Otabek's. He walked in and closed the door behind him. The house was empty but Otabek knew the Russian was there. He had a feeling.

"Yuri?" He called. "Yuri look...I'm sorry...I should've taken you more seriously." He spoke as he walked through the house. "I promise if you really feel ready I'll do what you ask, just...please..."

He sighed now walking up to the bedroom he stood outside awkwardly knowing the other was in there. "I love you" he mutured "I don't want to lose you" He waited but the wait was killing him so he opened the bedroom door and froze at the sight. Yuri was there already but he was not alone. The blonde was lying on his stomach, another man kneeling behind him and...no, it couldn't be.

"Y-Yuri?" Otabek felt sick, in so many ways. He couldn't move and everything felt numb. Why? Why would Yuri do this? His eyes widened as he felt hot liquid running down his cheeks. Shit, now he was crying?! He had never cried before, for anyone, for anything. And there he was standing like an idiot with tearful eyes and an aching heart.

"Beka!" The blonde gasped at the sight. Not only Otabek caught him having sex with someone else but he was crying as well. The russian pushed the other away and got up, quickly throwing a robe around him and following his boyfriend -if he was still his boyfriend- was was making his way out. Yuri grabbed his wrist. "Beka wait! I'm sorry I-"

"You what?! Don't try to say anything because I'm not blind!"

"It was just sex dammit! You refused to so I-"

"so you let some randome guy fuck you! After everything we've been through!" The man was now feeling new tears run down his jawline over the old ones. "After everything we had Yura...did they mean nothing to you?!" He had now completely lose his cool, yelling the words while sobbing. "Why would you throw it all way like that?!"

"He gave me what I wanted! What did you give me?!" Yuri yelled back angrily.

A few seconds of silence that felt like an eternity passed. Otabek was now looking down trying to swallow the sobs that threatened to come out of his lips again as his yelling turned into a soft whisper

"...I gave you my heart."

Ok everyone that was the first part of this small story. I hope you like it until now. All I have to say is, if this made you feel sad wait till you see part two 3:)
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