Just a oneshot I watched after watching Rogue One again. I'm trying to write a bit more, and this just came to me. Give me any feedback, and tell me if I captured all the emotions. I tried, but honestly? We'll never know how it actually feels unless it happens to us. PM me if you have any questions, and I'll be sure to respond.
She and Cassian sat on the beach, watching the horizon. It was so strange; instead of orange dirt she saw a beautiful planet made of light. And it was that -absolutely beautiful. Because one day, one day soon, it would never happen again.
She'd saved the world. Just a little girl, a little bit of dust among the stars had saved the world. Soon she'd be a little bit of dust in the stars. So would her friends. Chirrut and Baze. She hoped they'd make it. But somehow, she knew they were at peace. One with the force.
She could feel Bodhi dead. He'd died believing. Being brave enough to follow his heart. Maybe Chirrut was right -she was becoming one with the force in the end. Trust the Force. She did now.
Because she, Jyn Erso would die. But she wouldn't be alone. This strange man, Cassian who had given her a purpose. He'd believed in her, even if others hadn't. She'd changed that killer's heart. Given him a purpose.
Tired arms shaking, they wrapped their arms around each other. I love you. I love you. The lines began to blur. She felt his warmth, treasured it. It the last thing she'd ever feel. Fear began to overwhelm her.
Because she, Jyn Erso would die. In fire. Her friends were dead. She'd found friends, for the first time. And they were all dead. Gone. For hope. Rebellions are built on hope. She knew the rebellion would be okay. The galaxy would be okay.
But she'd be gone. Just dust in the end. Among the stars. Tears poured down her cheeks, and for some unknown reason she felt sadness. All the tears poured out. All the tears she'd held in. What was the point in hiding them now? She'd be dead. Tears for her mother's death, for Saw. For her father, who'd seen her. He'd done it for her. For Chirrut and Baze, who had just believed her. For the pilot, who came with a heart. And for all those who believed in hope.
And for Cassian Andor. She wrapped her arms tighter, and they clutched each other's shirts. His touch was her last. The last embrace, last breath.
Somewhere up there, she felt darkness. She felt someone evil. Fear. Hatred. She knew they were watching her. Did any of them regret it? They were monsters. But now, Jyn had hope for the monsters. She wondered who it was. But she knew.
Did it matter? She'd die anyway.
She knelt by Cassian, back to his arms. The sand on the beach, the roughness. The tears on their cheeks. His arms around her. His rough shirt. The endless blue water, colored with the fire of the sun. No, not the sun. The planet. The Death Star. The strongest stars have hearts of kyber.
Thank you, Father she thought. Otherwise, we wouldn't have a chance. And she missed him. And them. But soon she'd join them. Be one with the force. I am one with the Force, the Force is with me.
And she saw it coming closer. The light. Beautiful. But she concentrated on Cassian. Because he was all she had left. A friend. And it was an honor, dieing among friend with hope for something she believed in. And for the first time, she relaxed in his embrace and knew it was going to be alright.
The light took them, the spy and rebel. And they were one with the force.