Luke sat on a bench overlooking the city, rereading the note she had given him, tears staining the page. He couldn't understand why he didn't stay with her that night, he wished he could just go back in time and stay with her, show her that he loved her. But he couldn't, he couldn't fix his mistake, he couldn't show her how much he loved her, it was too late. "God Penelope, I'm so fucking sorry... I'm so fucking sorry I left you... I'm so fucking sorry I hurt you..." His voice started to shake "I never meant to hurt you... I never meant for any of this to happen..." At that point, he just sounded completely broken, just an empty shell of the man he once was. He was that man because of Penelope, she brought out the best in him, even though they had only known each other for a short time.

He drew in a shaky breath, his eyes scanning over the page for the fifth time that night.

Luke, Newbie,

You don't deserve this pain, and I'm so sorry I'm doing this to you, but you'll understand why at the end of this letter. You see, this started when David Rossi spread the rumor about me being easy, he was my best friend, I had never expected him to hurt me like that, but he did. He was the first one to hurt me, and unfortunately for me, he wasn't the last or the worst. Soon Jennifer started spreading rumors that I was a boyfriend stealing slut, I mean, things were already bad enough with every guy in school trying to get in my pants, but now every girl wanted me dead. It was getting harder to get out of bed in the mornings because of it. Then Spencer Reid, someone I believed to be nice, asked me on a date, I was stupid enough to believe that genuinely liked me... All he wanted from me was sex.. He just wanted a quick fuck from the "sluttiest girl in the 10th grade." God, that hurt hearing that, especially from someone who seemed so nice... I'm getting off track, anyway Emily spread more and more rumors, Aaron Hotchner took away the last thing that brought me happiness. But the final straw happened last year at Derek Morgans party... I had gotten in the hot tub, and I'll admit that I had a few drinks, but I still remember the night clearly. Derek climbed into the hot tub with me after the party had died down, he moved towards me, not saying a word, and then... and then he raped me. He took the last shred of innocence I had. After all of this, I couldn't do it.. I couldn't take all the pain anymore. I am so sorry if I hurt you Luke, that was not my intention, it never was. I didn't mean to hurt you at Jennifers party, I was just scared, and I took it out on you. But I didn't deserve you, I would've ruined you, I was a hurricane that destroyed everything in my path, and I couldn't destroy you.

I'm so sorry

Sincerely yours, Penelope Garcia

Luke hated what those people did to Penelope, someone who was so kind and pure. She deserved the world, and all she got was heartache. He hated himself for not helping her, he hated Derek for breaking her, he hated them all. He hated this, he hated not being able to hold her, kiss her, tell her it was all going to be okay.. He hated it all.

"Penelope... I'm not leaving you. I'm staying right here. You need someone right now, you don't need to be alone." Luke said, his voice firm as he looked down at the crying blonde. He wasn't going to leave her side. not again.

"Luke.. please leave... I don't want you here! So leave, get out!"

"No Penelope! I am not leaving you again! I did it once, and it resulted in me losing you! I regretted that decision so damn much! I love you Penelope, and I refuse to leave you again!" He snapped, tears starting to roll down his cheeks

"Why couldn't you tell me this when I was alive?"

"Because I was afraid, I was afraid to love you.. I was so consumed by my own insecurities that I couldn't accept my feelings for you and that was the biggest mistake of my life." Luke muttered softly, crying into his hands.

"I'm so sorry Penelope."