AN~ Hey minna! Jeez, I have got to get off this killing
off Yamato hype I seem to be on. I think hes died in
every story Ive written. Well, what can I say? He's my
favorite character and I love angst! Anyway, here's
another piece of mind candy for you. :)
Its staring at me! God dammit! Its staring at me... The
smell of smoke drifts into my nose and I wave my free
hand in front of my face to clear the air. My eyes seem
to focus and I see where that smoke is coming from...
The table next to me, it looks evil... Slowly
the smell drifts away, but my own high has not. Maybe I
shouldn't have packed it that much. Oh well... too late
now. The silver surrounded by dark blue is glaring up at
me. It captures my attention once again. Sighing and
shaking my head, I pick up the bottle of aspirin to my
left. Swallowing 6 of the small tablets, I begin my
examination of the object in my hands.
Sharp... That's the only word I can use to
describe it with. Sharp... and pain. Yes, pain, but pain
is good. I learned to enjoy it because I can feel pain.
Seems I have been raped of happiness. No use crying over
it though...? They told me to get help. Why? Why should
I get help? Because of this?
No... Taichi said he cared, but what happened?
He left, along with all the others. They left me here.
LEFT ME! My best friend died... All because they LEFT!
Of course what else is new? My mother left when I was
only 6... 6 fucking years old, a boy with no mother. My
father? Well, hes still around in body, but his mind is
somewhere else. Do we talk? No. Does he act like a father
should? No. Everybody is gone... Im alone.
GOD DAMMIT! IT HURTS! My eyes squeeze shut so
tightly. My life did this to me. Made me become who I am. I
tried to escape it... I tried so hard. Tears are
spilling down my face I think. I dont know... Maybe its
just my imagination. King of the world. It was a game
I used to play as a kid. I would command everything in
my room, stuffed animals and TV and the like, to bow
down before me. Why? Because I wanted to be King of the
world. Didn't work out though.
The past can scar you. I have the cuts to prove
it. Fuck! Red is everywhere! RED. RED. Damn it still hurts...
Everyone will be better off... I am, was, just a bother.
Wasted space right? I believe it, but at the same time I
dont. People sacrifice themselves for the greater cause.
I am trying to make the earth a better place. I have
done so many terrible things in my life.
I let my best friend be killed, I trusted the
person that killed him, I didn't try hard enough. If it
had been left up to me, the dirty, gringy apartment Im
sitting in right now would be in ruins, along with the
rest of the world. My 'friends' recognized this, thats
why Im alone and they're not.
Illusion... My life has been an illusion... My
vision is RED! BLACK! RED! BLACK! BLACK! BLACK! Darkness
swallowed me up and no one shed a tear.
THE END
AN~ There you have it. PLEASE REVIEW! And go read all
of PsycoGarurugirls fics! They're awesome! Sayanara...
Manda