I Tried so Hard

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from the Sons of Anarchy. Only any OC's are mine.

Summary: Opie comes to terms with being bi and how he met Juice.

A/N: This is a reposting of the original story that I had on this site until recently when it was deleted. I will try to keep as much of the original story in it but the sex scenes will not be included. Hints of them will be but not actual scenes.

WARNING: This story will have some adult themes running through it, if you are under 18 DO NOT read. There will be SLASH! if you do not like slash then please do not read.

Opie had been out of prison now for a total of two weeks and he was trying to come to terms dealing with outside life again, being a good father and a loyal husband to Donna whom he had loved since school. However he was also fighting to forget the feelings that had overwhelmed him in prison, he tried telling himself that it had been because there were no women around that he had found himself having inappropiate feelings for some of the other inmates but deep down he knew this was not the case. No matter how much he tried to deny it, he liked men and had always liked men. He found it hard to get rid of those thoughts, he had always been taught by his father and the other adults that had helped to raise him that such thoughts were bad and wrong but despite all the times he had tried to deny it he couldn't.

He knew he loved Donna, that he knew without hesitation and it distressed him that he could not stop thinking about some of the men that he found attractive. First off, growing up there had been Jax, they were much more than best friends, they were also as close as siblings but Opie had never been able to tell Jax how he really felt, he just knew that jax would not understand despite how close they were and his dad, his dad would have gone mad and thrown him out, that he knew for sure. In high school he had felt stirrings for one of the football coaches and that had been the reason why he had taken up football but he had done nothing more than stare at the guy lovingly when he thought that no one noticed. In prison there had been one guy in particular that he had started seeing when he had been in there for about a year and they had been close for a few years but it had only been sex, a way of easing both their fustrations and nothing else. Which was why he was now sat at a bar in Stockton, he would never have entered a bar like this in Charming. Hell he couldn't even see the local town council allowing a bar like this to open in Charming, it was a gay bar and Opie had been sitting here now for about an hour trying to decide whether or not to leave or find a guy for the night when someone caught his eye. It was someone he had never seen before but someone who took his breathe away.

A small latino had just entered the bar, he was dressed in black combats and had a black hoodie on and a baseball cap covering his head and he looked downright sexy as hell with skin the colour of pale caramel. He looked as though he took care of himself, even though the hoodie was a little baggy it was possible to see that the guy had a small waist and what looked like a nice set of muscles underneath. Opie was salivating as he looked across the bar at the guy as he went to the bar and ordered a drink, he noticed that he was not the only one eyeing up the guy and felt himself get angry when he noticed an older guy at the bar siddle up to the latino and start a conversation with him. He saw the latino smiling back at the guy and words were exchanged and then the latino shook his head, 'no', before the guy backed off looking angry. Opie gave a sigh of relief, he returned to his drink and took a mouthful before looking back to where the latino sex god was standing and noticed that he was gone. Looking around the crowded bar Opie couldn't see him and sighed to himself that he had been a fool and should have gone up and talked to him when he had a chance.

"You waiting for someone?"

Opie turned to look at the owner of the sexy voice next to him and felt himself smiling.

"Yeah...You."

xXx

A few weeks later Opie arrived at Teller Morrow and hugged his brother Jax. He had not been to the clubhouse since leaving prison and nothing seemed to be going his way and everything seemed to be going down the pan. The only thing he had enjoyed since leaving prison was the few hours he had spent a few weeks back with a sexy latino who he had met at a bar in Stockton but he had not seen him since and he had tried so hard to forget about him. He had gone back to the bar a couple of times and asked the guy behind the bar if Jaun Carlos had been in but he had said "No." and so Opie had tried to put that amazing night behind him and tried to get on with his life but it had been so hard, he still yearned to meet Jaun Carlos again but he had now got to the stage where he knew he had to get on with his life.

"Hey Opie...Earth to Opie...You're not daydreaming are you?"

Jax was standing in front of him, snapping his fingers and Opie realised he had not heard a word his best friend had said.

"Uhhhh...Sorry man. I was thinking of someone."

"What...Donna?" Jax laughed.

"Yeah." Opie grinned back at him. "What was it you were saying anyway?"

Jax shook his head. "You are impossible you know that mate. I said that we will get Juice to look at the website you want to see if anything can be done."

"Juice?...Whose Juice?"

"Our tech guy, you wouldn't know him he joined as a prospect a few months after you went inside and got patched in as a new member almost four years ago now. Bloody useless at most things but put the guy in front of a computer and he is a bloody genius. I think he is in the clubhouse...Come on, lets go and see."

Opie followed Jax into the clubhouse, he noted that nothing had changed it still looked the same on the whole but there was one thing that was different. Over in the corner on the far side of the room was what looked like a small office space set up and a load of computers and electronic gear and sat at the table hunched over a piece of equipment was a guy, wearing safety goggles who looked like he was soldering a small piece of equipment . As Opie looked closer at the guy he realised one thing about him despite the fact the guy had his back to him he looked familiar and as he raised his head to look at the pair of them when Jax called to him, Opie noticed that he had two tattoos on his head that looked just like the ones that Jaun Carlos had had on his head, two triabal lightning bolts. The tech guy had turned around to face them and as he removed the goggles, Opie found himself looking straight into the eyes of Jaun Carlos.