You are my friends
You are my allies
You are my brothers
One who i fought with
Laughed with
Cried
Ran
Perished
All as one
But now
After a fall thought to have killed
I look upon pictures with a blank stare
20 years I fought
50 years I forgot
Hidden behind a mask
Lost in the electricity
Wisps of memory
Never enough to remember
I know I knew him
I knew that face
I knew that line
Even as we fell
Down farther and farther
into the waiting depths below
Even as I dragged you onto shore
I couldn't help but feel
Feel as though I knew you
That smile
Of a punk with a heart too big for his body
But now
Now I don't think I'm worthy
Tainted so dark
where no light can pierce my blackened armor
I try so hard to remember you
Who we were before
And I know now that you want him
The man I was before
But can't you understand
I can't be him
Not anymore
I don't want the world to see me
For all they see would be a monster
I forgot what it was to be human
I bled just to remember I was alive
I am broken beyond repair
Yet you
You saw me
You ran after me
You knew who I was
You who fought against all odds just to help me
To go against your allies
Against the people you fought with
For me
I may not be your Bucky
I may not be the man you expected
But for you I can try
To remember
To once again be
James Buchanan Barns