I Still Do
Disclaimer: Inspired by same titled song by the Cranberries. Great band, great song. So I'm feeding off it's creative push, sorry. I don't own it, I don't condone it. Just like the Marvel characters depicted as well. Oh and by the way, I'm new at this so if the plot's thin as ice and it sucks royal, don't worry, I get better as time wears on.
Rating: Fairly PG-13ish, give or take a few mild cuss words
Summary: Rogue leaves this time, Logan gets teary eyed. Quite a shocker there!
Time line: A good three years or so after the movie. Logan and Rogue have been together for just a few short months or so.
Feedback: Yes please.
The skies turned gray that day. Rain was coming down harder and harder as time wore on and you could faintly hear the thunder in the distance. A storm was coming. But it was nothing compared to the storm that Rogue was feeling right now as she stood in the room she shared with Jubilee and Kitty, shoving various pieces of clothing into a duffel bag. Jubilee was pacing as Rogue concentrated on fitting every thing she owned into that little bag.
"Are you CRAZY?!", Jubilee spat out. She couldn't believe what Rogue was doing. "You can't do this. Not now. You two have finally come together and you decide to thank him by ditching him like he's ditched you. Does this have something to do with you absorbing his powers way back when? Don't you get rid of them after awhile? Because this isn't like you". She put her hands on her hips, exaperated. "Ah don't care what ya think, Jubes", Rogue drawled, "and no Ah'm not doin' this to get back at him as you so implied. Ah'm doin' this because I have to right now. Ah really need sometime to think all this over and Ah need some time to mahself. That's why, and would ya turn that damn CD off. I hate that song", she muttered as she zipped up her duffel bag. The CD player that they all shared had been spinning wicked songs about lost love and bleeding hearts all day. Maybe it was the mood she was in from the music she was listening to that spurned her wander lust all of the sudden. She shook that thought from her head as she shouldered the duffel bag. "That's the last of it. Ah'm gone, Jubes. Take care of everythang for me", she said. Jubilee looked at her as if she were going to cry, but then the look on her face changed. She narrowed her eyes at Rogue. "You're not gonna be able to pull this off. He's gonna find you and you won't ever get passed him". "Watch me", she defiantly said. "Ah'll write. Ah promise. Bye", and with that, Rogue walked out of the room.
The walk to the front door was a painful one. All the thoughts of the past few years swirled inside her head.
I'm not ready for this
Though I thought I would be
I can't see the future that I thought I could see
I don't want to leave you
Even though I have to
I don't want to love you
Oh I still do
Need some time to find myself
Don't wanna live with this
She stopped dead in her tracks and rolled it over and over in her head. *Logan's too much for me to handle*, she assured herself. *Sure it's all good now, but Logan's not into anything long term. At the first chance he can run, he'll take it. Ah'm just beatin' him to that chance. Ah have to* She continued walking downstairs and to the door.
Can I go my own way
Can't I pray my own way
I don't want to leave you
Oh I need you
She stopped at the door, her hand poised, ready to turn the knob until she felt someone tap her on the shoulder. She turned around and looked up into Logan's eyes. "Where do you think you're going?", he asked her. She saw it in his eyes for the first time in all of the few years she's known him. It was fear. The fear of her leaving his side, the fear of him being alone. For once, he was scared. Just like she was when he took off for Canada some 3 odd years ago.
Am I ready for this
Did I think I would be
Can I see the future
Now I can see
"Ah'm leavin', Logan", she said calmly. She searched his eyes for the flash of anger that usually would follow but it didn't show. What showed was some thing that stunned her, she watched the tears well up in his eyes. Or at least that's what she thought she saw, she wasn't too sure as hers misted herself.
I don't want to leave you
Even though I have to
I don't want to love you
Oh I still do
She stood there and reached into her shirt and removed his dog tags from around her neck. She took his hand and gingerly placed them there and closed his hand and then reached up and kissed his cheek. "Ah'll be back for these", she said. And with that she was gone, leaving Logan behind. Just like that. She walked to the two lane road that came past the mansion, crying all the way. She wanted to stop and turn around and run right back to Logan. Or the least he could do was run after her and beg her not to go. But in her heart she knew that he did the right thing by staying and not stopping her and she did the right thing by walking on and not looking back.
THE END