here is a short little something that I wrote for the storyline (or lack there of) that GH has goin on for our Liason at the moment….I'm not exactly sure whether or not to continue this or to just leave it as is, so please let me know what you think.
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Always and Forever (Jason's POV) Chapter 1 Can't get her out of my Mind
Riding my bike just isn't the same anymore without Elizabeth. The wind doesn't give me that same rush that I felt when I was with her. Going up the cliff road without her just isn't the same. I still feel exactly the same as I did before leaving the Penthouse.
Numb. That's how I feel. Nothing matters anymore, only she matters. But I can't ever be with her again. It wouldn't be safe. And I would do anything to make sure that her and our sons were safe, even if it did meant having to live with this lost feeling.
A piece of me is missing without her. Life didn't exist without her. She is my everything!
Shit. I need to pull over before I crash my bike.
I didn't even realize where I stopped my bike until I got off and looked straight ahead. A tear rolled down my cheek. It was our spot. Vista Point.
All of a sudden memories of him and Elizabeth rushed through his mind.
Their rides together, their time in her studio, the first time he kissed her, the night that they first made love, when she saw our son for the first time, the first time they said "I love you" to each other, their secret meetings last winter, her saying "yes" to marrying me, how excited she had been about going to Italy, all of their moments together.
It was too much to handle, my knees gave out and I was bent down on the ground crying about what I was never going to have. I was never going to be able to wake up next to her every morning, I was never going to be able to see my sons grow up first hand. I will miss it all. My family. I will never be able to be with my family.
Stupid Danger. Why did there always have to be danger. Damit. I'm still crying.
I shouted out loud, "Come on Morgan get it together, you are feared by most people. Stop crying and pull yourself together! Why the fuck can't I stop crying, why does it have to hurt so much? Why the fuck does there have to be danger?"
"I don't know, I was just asking the same questions." Her voice, it was her voice. She was here. His Elizabeth. Her voice was full of sadness and he looked up to see her eyes full sorrow and pain. He hated that it was because of him. Clearly she had noticed that I was crying to because she ran to me. She came to the ground with me and hugged me. We were crying together.
"Oh Jason...I've missed you so much" She was trying to talk between sobs, and I could barely make out what she was saying. "I love you…..I love you! Why can't we just be together….stupid danger….stupid Sonny….stupid mob…."
I lifted her face so that he could look right at her. God she was beautiful.
"Shhh…I know, I miss you too. And I hate this, not being able to be with you kills me! I just love you so much! And all I find myself doing is thinking of 'what ifs' and 'if only'. My life is nothing without you. I don't think I can go on without having you in my life"
I kissed her, her lips still tasted as sweet as ever. It was a kiss full of love, passion, desire, and need. We reluctantly broke our kiss out of need to breath.
"Jason, all I want is to be with you and have a life with you! That is all I have ever wanted. I want to wake up in your arms every morning, I want to raise the boys with you, I want to be your wife, I want to have more children with you….Only with you" Her eyes were full of hope and joy…and love. There was no way that he could walk away from this again. Elizabeth has his heart and soul always and forever.