Disclaimer - noting owned just random play with the characters from arrow

Note: I am unsure of this story, i kind of wrote it on a whim when trying to finish my other 8 stories on this site that i have neglected for ages. trying to write again after a few years break is actually really hard. You lose flow and well everything. I am really sorry if this is terrible or like other stuff out there. I have another four chapters written but will wait and see if this seems worth putting up to post them... feedback welcome constructive and not so constructive is fine. I really dont mind. if you want to rant , rant! The concept for this one is a little outside what i normally do, i love felicity's character in the tv show and wanted to write something for her where she is centerfold. anyways read if you want and thankyou for your time :)

'Felicity wait' Oliver asked

Felicity paused; she had been in the process of gathering her bag and jacket to head home after an extremely long few days. Everything had gone down with Slade so fast , it all felt like a blur, she was tired so so tied and just wanted to go home have a hot shower and go to bed, maybe for weeks, before tackling the major task of rebuilding the city. The last thing she wanted to do right now was rehash the last few days and she had a sinking feeling this was what Oliver wanted to do.

She turned around and faced Oliver trying to hide the weariness she was feeling inside "What is it' she asked

Oliver took a step towards her 'can we talk'

Felicity took a deep breath that somehow turned into a sigh "Right now? Oliver I'm worn out'

Oliver nodded slightly "it won't take long, I just wanted to make sure you are, that we are ok'

Felicity resisted the urge to rub her hand over her very tired eyes, but instead looked Oliver in eye hoping to end this conversation before it got awkward "of course we are, Oliver we all survived it's over, we won'

Oliver nodded again but still didn't seem satisfied "yes and that's great but I meant between me and you, I know I didn't tell you what was happening I know I put you in harm's way, it was actually you that gave me the idea, I just, I'm sorry for putting you in danger'

Felicity smiled softly at him and took a step towards him and laid a hand on his arm "were partners remember, I'm fine Oliver, your fine, it worked that's all that matters' Felicity gave his arm a soft squeeze then turned to leave again "goodnight Oliver' she said and gathered her coat and bag and started for the stairs. It was only when she was halfway up the stairs that she stopped and turned to look at Oliver again something occurred to her that she hadn't considered.

"Are you ok?' she asked catching his attention from the spot he had been intently staring at on the floor.

Oliver raised his head and looked at her a worried expression on his face "I don't want to lose you' he blurted out seeming to surprise himself as much as did her

Felicity felt her stomach flip at the vulnerable look on his face so she made her way down the stairs and walked to Oliver and hugged him "you won't lose me, why would you think that'

Oliver hugged her back and sighed into her hair, he help her close for a moment, then pulled out of the hug so her could see her face. "What I did last night, using you to trick Slade I knew it could have ramifications to the team, to our friendship I know you…. I needed to do it but well… for what it's worth I'm sorry'

Felicity reached up and placed her hand on his face "Oliver its ok, I understand why you did it, I understood then and I understand now, there is nothing to apologise for, if anything I'm proud of you and happy you trust me that much'

Oliver scanned her face for another moment then nodded and stepped away 'thankyou I'm glad you understand'

Felicity wanted to ask why he was so worried. She wanted to find out what was going on in that brain of his, but she didn't, their relationship was based on trust and she knew he would tell her what was really going on when he was ready. She again made her way to the stairs calling out goodnight as she exited their new lair.

Oliver watched her go feeling slightly less anxious than he had before their conversation; he knew she had feelings for him and that she pushed them aside in favour of their working relationship and their friendship. In fact he had counted on the fact that she had feelings for him for the Slade trick to work, he had risked everything he had built with her to beat Slade and had been amazed when it worked, and she had handled it perfectly and seemed unaffected by it afterwards. In a strange way the idea that she was so unaffected scared him more than the idea she was upset with him. He was worried about her, had the experience changed her and if so how much, he needed her as she was , the compass, the light and the one who could see outside the box of darkness he, Diggle and Sara had a tendency to fall into. He watched her leave and turned and got his own things. He would keep an eye on her just to make sure she was ok. He had lost too many people to let her go too.