A/N: Just a songfic one-shot I felt like writing late at night while bored. This song is called Monsters by Hurricane Bells. I was looking over some songs with my friend Sean and this song really stuck out about how we both feel at the moment. I hope you enjoy and I suggest listening to it on YouTube while reading this. Reviews make me happy.
Monsters
wolfgal97
Situation's all critical
You've got to look first before you go
If you wasn't too sure then now you know
The situation is all critical
I have made a huge mistake. I have blooded a child. An innocent being who will now be thrust into a world of darkness. A vampire child who refuses to drink blood of all things! I do believe this is one of the worst things that can happen. I did not even think about what I was doing when I changed him. It was as if my mind was taken over by an unknown force controlling my body. Sometimes I even wonder if it was Destiny...
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
Deep into the darkness where I hide
The monsters are buried down deep inside
You never know when they're satisfied
Buried down deep where the sun don't shine
The monsters are buried down deep inside
I knew what Darren thought about me. Thought about our kind, but me most was who he thought was a monster. When he first called me this, I acted unfazed. Yes, I am a vampire who humans call monsters, but they are wrong. Vampires are noble creatures that look like humans but have a more animalistic nature. Vampires are just another form of life. But me, being judged by my own actions, maybe I was a monster. I had taken a child from his family. He is dead to the world. To his mother, father, sister, and even his insane friend! His friend is a monster. I will not back down from that, but had I stooped to his level by what I did to Darren? And then, because of me, he was put through the trials and his life has been risked because of me. It should have been me. I should have fought harder to put the punishment on myself. And I will always hate a part of myself for it.
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
You're wasting away
OK you've got to look before you go
Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness where I hide
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
You're wasting away
OK you've got to look before you go
Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness
And now, I have grown attached to him. He is like my son. I do not know if he thinks of me in that way, or if he still thinks me a monster, but for his sake, I will hide my feelings. He already had a father that I took him from. I had no right to want that title. I had learned my lesson to not be rash, and in doing so looking out for the boy's feelings first. I will hide my emotions in the darkest places of a monster who learned to love's heart.