Chibi Legato here! I was reading the manga... yes I like reading mangas more than watching the actually anime... It's like reading the original script you know? well whatever... Anyways, I really thought Haku and Zabuza just were the cutest pairing... -Sobs- especially when they died together. This is going to be only two chapters long... the same story line in both except different commentary and different... perspective/opinions on why things happened of the situations. First one is for Haku. Second one will be Zabuza.

Summary: Haku talks about his feelings for Zabuza and vice versa. Zabuza in the second chapter muses about the same situations and memories... except, it's a different perspective. Like why he didn't do this, or he did this. you know? well yes I hope you enjoy.

Warnings: (Shounen-ai) Zabuza x Haku, Haku x Zabuza.

Disclaimer: I own NOTHING... -Cries-

Things to know:

Blah, blah - Memories

Blah, Blah - Musings. Haku talking, thinking.

"My Memories Are For You...Sir"

Zabuza, sir. My life with you was wonderful... I was so happy. You took me in and loved me even though you said you didn't need love. You told me once that I belonged to you, "Body, soul and blood." I know I belonged to you in more than one way. I will always be yours even in the after life. I remember you found me in the filthy gutter, I smiled and you took me in...

"You... you remind me of...me." Zabuza said, kneeling in front of the filthy looking boy. A small smile spread across the boy's feminine face. Zabuza sighed picking the boy up. "Why don't you come with me. I can teach you many things." Zabuza said as they walked away from the ghastly place the boy had been previously sitting in.

... You taught me and I learned. You trained and I followed. I smiled always though, because there I was acknowledged and cherished... even if it was only for what I was.

The small figure moved, hitting all targets quickly. The taller figure smirked as he watched.

"Heh. Good boy. Heh, heh," Zabuza chuckled out as he walked towards the young boy. Haku smiled as he wiped a few beads of sweat away from his forehead. The young boy looked up to the tall figure and held out his hand. Zabuza took it for a moment as they walked back, night falling, "Haku I have bad news, I am leaving this land tonight..." Though Zabuza couldn't see it the boy frowned slightly. "...Don't worry I will come back, when I am able to crush them all underneath my feet!..." Zabuza said as they continued walking the dusty road path, dusk covering the land. "That's why what I need from you is not love nor affection and support. What I need from you is" Haku understood, yes he understood perfectly the only way to be acknowledged and looked at with some sort of care was to be what Zabuza wanted and needed...

"I understand! I am your weapon and tool! Please... just keep me beside you and I shall strike where you tell me to strike, kill whom you tell me to kill!" Haku said with a smile plastered on his youthful face. I will be your anything!

Yes I would kill anyone for you, Zabuza. We kept training and I kept getting stronger. Something also grew, I could feel it in my weak lonely soul. Sir, I remember the first mission you took me on, we had to assassinate some local govern for a small profit, but you needed the money to raise an attack so we went. You seem so tough, and uncaring but you did get hurt... remember? I remember Zabuza, sir. You were limping when we left for home. The house was beautiful and I liked it so much. Do you know why I liked it so much? It was because of you, me and you together. I remember I helped you get ready for bed that day, there was a gash on your leg and even though I knew full well you would be healed in two to three hours I insisted on making sure you rested...

"Zabuza, sir?" Haku eyed the man worriedly as they walked towards the house that stood with the trees. A limping Zabuza snapped his head towards Haku.

"What, boy!" He spat out half angry at his leg and half annoyed at the pestering youth.

"Do you need help-"

"No I can walk fine by my self!" Zabuza retorted before the question even could be fully said. Haku sighed and nodded, continuing to walk behind Zabuza. After a while they finally made it to their home, and Zabuza slammed the door open, still furious about getting his leg cut open. Haku decided that he'd go and get a bowl of water and a washcloth to help clean Zabuza's wound since he had refused earlier. Haku smiled.

"Stubborn..." Haku giggled, yes his Zabuza was a stubborn 'Demon.' The thin framed boy walked slowly, balancing the water in one hand and holding a washcloth and bandages in another. He walked into a large room where Zabuza was already trying to sleep. Zabuza flickered his eyes open angrily.

"This is not life threatening, it's only a damn scratch." Zabuza hissed as he turned around in the bed. "Wait until I'm half dead to worry about me," Haku wouldn't allow that to happen, he couldn't! He couldn't risk losing the only person in his life, the only love in his life. Haku frowned slightly but still placed the bowl of water near the large bed and slowly moved a chair towards the edge of the bed.

"Sir, I think we should clean the wound anyway. We wouldn't want your beautiful body to be marred," Haku stated, the 9-year-old boy acting motherly.

Zabuza grunted letting the boy uncover his body. Haku smiled slightly and moved the blankets aside, then bended over dumping and rinsing the washcloth in the bowl of water. He left the washcloth in the bowl as he looked at Zabuza awkwardly.

"Zabuza, sir... Your legs?" Haku pointed at his Master's pants. Zabuza finally realized what the boy meant and cursed himself mentally, well of course the boy wasn't going to take off his pants. Zabuza grunted again and quickly sat up, and awkwardly began pulling off his pants but stopped.

"Boy." Haku quickly looked away from Zabuza's lower half and towards his face.

"Yes, sir?"

"Get out." Haku seemed mildly shocked and then disappointed some, yet... the boy got up to leave.

"Would you like some soup, sir?" Haku asked, smile on his face. Zabuza sighed and nodded curtly, bending over the edge of the bed to get the damp washcloth. Haku smiled even more and quickly exited the room. Zabuza looked up, relaxing for a moment as he finally took off his pants.

You were always so awkward, sir. Yet I knew you harbored the same type of feelings towards me, it ... was just hidden under your act. I remember the time you distanced yourself completely away. Was it my fault, no. It was yours and yet it wasn't. We both shared it. It was so precious to me I couldn't comprehend it at first and finally I knew I needed it. That love of yours that flickered like a dying candle, if you don't grab another candle quickly and use the dull flames from the dying candle, the other candle will never light up. Your love needed to help keep me alive and I knew it, I just wonder if you knew it too? You were mad the day you scared yourself away from me, as for me I did what any teenaged boy would do... fantasize about it, want it, crave it. That day though, you had been gone for a while, told me to stay. Something happened about a plan that failed and you came home so mad, frustrated, and needed something to release it...

Zabuza slammed the door shut and fell into a chair, heaving his chest with deep breaths. Haku peeked out of his room at the fuming man. Haku knew he had to be on his best behavior for Zabuza. Now what was wrong with sir? Haku moved towards the open room where Zabuza sat in the wooden chair.

"Zabuza, s-sir?" Haku whispered out quietly as he tiptoed his way towards Zabuza. Zabuza snapped his head towards the boy and his eyes flamed with a certain fire... but which emotions were raging in that fire, Haku couldn't place a finger on it, that's what frightened him the most at this particular moment.

"What the hell do you want!" Zabuza snapped out, the bandages wrapped around his mouth were torn slightly and sagged around his chin and neck. Blood specked his face lightly and his eyes were narrowed.

"I wanted to... know what happened." Haku said softly, kneeling next Zabuza.

"You want to know? ... Failure!" Zabuza spat out angrily as he turned to almost hit the boy. Haku never saw such actions from Zabuza and flinched slightly. Zabuza stopped suddenly and yanked the boy up by the collar of his kimono. Haku stared, bewildered slightly by the man's rage.

Zabuza held the boy in the same position for a moment before the fire in his eyes changed a different hue, a very different emotion. Zabuza's bandages kept falling away from his mouth and pooling around his neck as he leaned in closer to the boy. So close, Haku shifted his eyes quickly, trying to analyze Zabuza's moves. Haku shut his eyes slightly, suddenly wanting to feel what was to come... it never did. He felt himself being pushed away, and landed on the floor with a soft thud. Zabuza was shaking his head rapidly.

"Get away!" Zabuza yelled. Haku gazed at Zabuza, never moving from his spot.

"Z-Zabuza, sir. What's wrong?" Haku asked, concerned, and scared.

"What's wrong? You can never give me that kind of satisfaction Haku. I can't do that with you! Can't even think to do it with you!" Zabuza said harshly. Haku winced, what did Master Zabuza want to do with him? Haku crawled towards Zabuza and laid his head on Zabuza's lap.

"Sir. I will do anything you want. I told you I am your tool"

"You are just a small child, nothing more, you don't even know what I'm talking about!" Zabuza hissed out angrily.

"Zabuza, sir I am fourteen and I do know what it is you want... Maybe not from me, but I will give it to you. I am at your disposal, use me as you wish." Haku said, anger flaring slightly as he stood up, hovering over Zabuza. Haku finally made up his mind and slowly sat on Zabuza's lap. It was now Zabuza's turn to look bewildered as he felt Haku climb on top of him and lay his head on a stiffening shoulder.

"What are you doing?" Zabuza asked harshly.

"D-Didn't you want this?" Haku asked, shuddering slightly at the face of rejection.

Zabuza stared at the boy long and hard before pulling the boy into a force filled kiss. Haku yelped slightly in surprise as he felt a tongue slide into his mouth. Haku sighed, wrapping his arms around Zabuza tightly. the boy moaned silently, Zabuza's lips were cold yet made Haku burn for more. Haku felt the heat grow, almost to an uncomfortable stage and yet, he wanted the feeling. After a few minutes of exploration, Zabuza started moving one large hand, groping Haku's slim body. A loud moan escaped Haku's pink lips. Zabuza's eyes widened slightly and Haku found himself being flung away. Haku skidded across the floor slightly, tears trickling down pale cheeks. Zabuza stood up, knocking the chair over and stalked out the room.

"Master Zabuza! Come back!" Haku pleaded, voice dying down to above a soft whisper. "please, please, please." Haku wanted to wail out, scream for Zabuza, the heat still washing over his body, almost drowning him with a want for Zabuza's touch...

That night, Haku tip toed across the hall to Zabuza's room. His head was swimming with desires he had never known he could harbor for Zabuza. He creaked open the door of Zabuza's room and saw the man tossing around in his sheets. Haku frowned and kneeled next to the bed.

"Sir..." Haku whispered quietly as he looked at Zabuza's face. Bandages were taken off his face, letting all his face visible for the boy to see. Zabuza wore a frown as he twisted again, sweat drops falling down his forehead. Haku thought Zabuza might be having a fever. His slim hand covered Zabuza's forehead so he could check, well yes Zabuza's temperature was high. Haku sighed planting a soft kiss on Zabuza's forehead, lips slowly trailing down, kissing a flushed cheek and finally brushing his lips against Zabuza's in a ghostly fashion. Haku got up quickly and left the room to find some water for Zabuza...

The next morning, they didn't say anything... actually Zabuza didn't say anything, didn't even dare look at Haku's eyes. Haku on the other hand, kept asking, kept pleading for Zabuza to talk to him... but the damage had been dealt. Haku couldn't deal with it, he now knew what love really was and what being rejected felt like. No, but no... he would still stand by Zabuza to show him that he was a worthy person to love...

...Zabuza, sir. I never had happy dreams before, always sad memories I would dream, but after that I couldn't stop dreaming... I could not stop remembering that one small moment we shared. It ended too soon, we could have had at least one night, I wished that we could. Now Zabuza sir... I die for you... here and now. This pain through my chest... it's a mixture of heart ache and physical pain...

"Zabuza s-sir..." I can feel my self slipping already, I grab that man's arm, Kakashi wasn't it, except... I hear something come from your lips.

"That was brilliant, Haku..." You say to me. Thank you sir. I love you too. I love you so much. I smile, I can feel death pull my soul away and yet I go willingly, I made you happy sir. Do ... do you think... you could come with me to the other side sir? I want to tell you, show you how much I love you. I'd kiss you so many times and I'd hug you so much... just promise me you'll come with me to the other side that I could share my memories with you. They were for you, everything I wanted was for you... The only thing I never really got to tell you Zabuza, sir, was ... I love you.

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I just thought this pairing was not done too much and it makes me sad... I came out of my comfort zone for this pairing! be happy! I think I'll only have the courage to really do this pairing. XD Other than that I stick with Trigun but yeah I just thought I would do poor Haku a favor. Well next is Zabuza. and I think that'll be the end. I was listening to a mixture of Aerosmith and AFI when I wrote this... -laughs- Maybe that's why it's so screwed up -falls on the floor laughing-

Aerosmith - I don't want to miss a thing

AFI - Hidden track. I forget the name for the moment. I just love it.

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