Letter: A
Pairing: Roxas/Xion
Title: Admirer
As I sit on the couch, I can't help but notice him. He's so...different. I can't help but think of him differently than I do of all the other members. Sure we don't have hearts, but that's not stopping me and some of the other members. Apparently, it's wrong for us Nobodies to show emotions, but I don't care. Emotions are a wonderful thing to have. They make me feel so, so.....great.
'I wish I could just get the nerve up to talk to him.' I think to myself.
In fact, I hadn't talked to anyone. No one knew what I sounded like or really much about me. They new me as Xion, Number XIV, female, age fifteen. The reason is because I really have nothing to say. I like to keep to myself, because I don't want to get hurt or have anything else bad happen to me. I just want to stay safe and sound in my own personal world. I look up to see Roxas laughing with Axel for one last time. I wonder what it is like to have friends to laugh with? It looks like fun, but what exactly is fun? And that's when he came in. Saix. He walked in all high and mighty, looking down on everyone, even members who were higher than him. He looks at me and gives me a sly smile. He was so menacing, I hated him for it.
"Roxas. Xion. Today you will start to work together. Now, you will be sent on heart collection. Do I make myself clear?" Saix tells us sternly.
"Got it. Come on, Xion." Roxas tells me.
I nod and follow him, as I start to begin my mission. And that's what I did for the next few days. It was just me and Roxas going on mission after mission. Fighting and collecting data. I didn't mind it so much, sense I got to be with Roxas, but I didn't like all this hard work. It was really wearing on me. And after awhile of going from place to place with Roxas, I opened up. I started to talk to him and become 'friends' with him. It was nice knowing that the boy I admired so much, was now my so called 'friend'.
After completing our mission, Roxas took me to the clock tower for the day. He always got us ice cream, telling me that was what him and Axel used to do, but sense Axel had been sent to C.O. he was sitting up here by himself for awhile. A few days ago I actually sat on this clock tower with him, but we never talked. I figured that sense we had become friends, I could really enjoy spending my time up here. It did have a nice view, and it was a perfect spot for friends to just hang out. Though I did kinda like Roxas more than a friend, but that thought lingered on me.
"Xion..." Roxas says.
"Yes." I say looking at him.
"How come you don't talk much? I mean, before we started hanging out, you usually sat by yourself, not talking. Why?" Roxas explains as he takes a bite of his creamy treat.
I look away from Roxas and I look down at my ice cream. It was starting to melt because I wasn't eating it. A drop of it fell from my ice cream to the floor miles below us. I then look up at the sunset and let out a deep breath.
"It's because I was afraid to talk to people." I finally say.
"Afraid to? How can you be afraid to talk to people?"
"I was afraid that they would make fun of me, or hurt me. A silly thought, I know, but I couldn't help it."
"Well, I can understand that with all of the other members, but not with me and Axel."
"I wanted to talk to you both, but I..."
I didn't finish my sentence. I was to nervous to tell him. I don't think I even could tell him. I was to afraid to. What if he didn't like me back? What if it ruined are so called 'friendship'? What if, what if...
"Xion? You okay?" He asks me.
"Yeah." I simply reply.
"Now, as you were saying."
"The reason I didn't talk to you is because.....I...I....Sigh. I thought you wouldn't want to talk to me." I lied.
"Of course we would want to talk to you. We're not heartless. No pun intended."
"Haha! You always make me laugh."
"R-Really? Thanks!" Roxas said as he turned his head away from me.
What was wrong with Roxas? He seemed to be red in the face. And when he replied back to me, his voice seemed to crack. I don't know what I did to make him do that, but im afraid that I might have offended him.
"Im sorry, Roxas!" I cry out.
"It's okay. I don't know what's wrong with me, but it's probably because im sick or something."
"Oh, okay."
We sit in silence for a few more minutes before Roxas gets up. While standing on the ledge, he looks up at the sunset and smiles. He then looks down at me and smiles, with a tint of red on his cheeks. He looked quite handsome standing there, and before I knew it, he was gone. While I was dazed he must have walked off. I stay there and continue to watch the sunset, still holding my ice cream. Today, I just didn't feel like finishing my ice cream quickly. I look down to see him heading towards the portal, and I close my eyes and say to myself.
"I've always liked you Roxas. At least, I think that's what this feeling is. From the moment I saw you in the training grounds, I admired you. I loved the way you fought, the way you cast spells, the way you helped your teammate. I admired everything about you. But soon, I started to take a stronger liking to you." I look up to watch the sunset. Tired of watching the now empty space below me. "I soon started to notice how bright your eyes were and how soft your hair looked. I soon wanted to talk to you and become close friends. But now that all that has happened, I don't think I can tell you that I like you. So I guess I'll always be your admirer."
I look down to see my ice cream falling. Oh well. Maybe the birds can eat it or something. Or maybe a Heartless will take a liking to it and clean it up. I walk down to the portal to find Roxas standing inside the dark corridor that lead us from place to place. He smiles at me and I smile at him. I walk over and we start to walk side by side to get home. But I can't help but think to myself this one thing.
'Roxas, no matter where you will be, I will always be your admirer.'
First chapter done and one less pairing to do in 26 Ways to Love. I know what you're thinking, why make this one-shot kind of sad? Well, if you think about it, Xion had a sad life, so I had to hint it in there. I know, it's a sad thing, but it's what I had to do. But don't worry, she's happy! Anyway, this chapter is to all the Roxas/Xion fans. So to fans of the pairing and to readers who are waiting for other pairings, I hope you enjoyed!