Eternal Dusk

Chapter 1

"Bella!" he screamed. "Bella! Don't leave me!!!" he yelled, pain flickering across his face in sudden flashes. I looked back wanting to return. "Jake…Jake… I can't. I" Edward pulled me along, away from my best friend, the one I had left behind to be with Edward.

"Bella?" asked a questioning voice. "Bella?" I looked up into the angelic topaz eyes of my beloved Edward. He was my sun, my moon, my sky, my stars. But something about it wasn't right… he was wary, upset, disturbed… His face was twisted in a frown. Oh no! I thought. I'd done it again. For nights I had had the same nightmare. Leaving Jacob when he needed me most. Was it really true that I had left him for Edward? Well that was obvious…I had become a horrible friend. I had deserted him when he had helped me in my time of need. Really, he had become my safe harbor, my crutch, my substitute drug when the real thing was gone. I had learned to use him at my advantage. And now he didn't have someone to depend on.

"Edward I…" my voice faltered. For I knew what he must be thinking. He looked away into the distance. Sleeping is the worst time for me. I reveal deep secrets. Those that are only meant for my soul, and my heart, and not Edward. Who knew what I could have been saying tonight. Something having to do with Jacob evidently. I sighed. "I can't control.." "I know Bella. I know never mind." I looked into his eyes, a never ending tunnel. Pain burned in them and this took a stab at my heart. "I'm really, really sorry." His cold stony look stayed the way it was. He had never been this open about his feelings. There was no change in his actions, the flicker in his eyes had passed. Edward became a marble-like statue. My salty tears stung the corners of my eyes. I felt like he would leave me again and go back on all his promises. Just thinking of this made me want to curl up into a ball again and cry my heart out.

As my sudden, unexpected sobs erupted from my chest Edward's eyes softened. "Bella honey, don't cry. I didn't mean to hurt you. He came over and gently put me in his lap. "Don't blame this on yourself." "Bella." He rocked me softly. Back and forth, back and forth. Humming my lullaby. "Sorry Edward." I sniffled. " He was my best friend…you can't expect… For me... to forget." "I know…I know." He whispered. "It's just hard." His voice cracked. "Bella, don't cry, today's graduation!" he said brightly trying to cheer me up. I sprang out of his lap. "You mean.. today is…today is the day??" I asked breathlessly. I felt like jumping up and down for joy. I was so close to victory…so close." Yes" he nodded grimly.

"Are you sure you haven't changed your mind? There's always another option." He hinted toward the other option. Marrying him. I was not so enthusiastic about this one. As much as I loved him marrying would give Charlie and Renee a heart attack. I raised my eyebrows. "What do you think Edward?" "No you haven't changed by the looks of it."

"Um, I need to tell you something." I hesitated. I knew that this one could cause an uproar. But he was in a good enough mood, sort of. "What?" asked Edward skeptically looking up.

"Well…I wanted to go visit.." "No!" he roared. "Absolutly not. I refuse to let you hang out with that that mut!" his words came out harsh, harsher than Jacob's.

"Edward, listen." I begged. "After today, I'll never get a chance. It will be over, I'll be with you forever. I need to at least to say goodbye. He helped me when you weren't hear. Give him that much credit." i said quietly, crawling back into his lap. I had spent hours repeating these words in my head. Then they had seemed childish but now they seemed powerful and deadly. My inner volcano was about to explode and now wasn't exactly the time to contradict me. "He's uncontrollable and young. What if you get hurt? We can't start a war!" he paced the room. "Edward. Give me five minutes. Then it'll be over." I screamed as loud as was permited with Charlie sleeping in the room next door.

Edward POV

I looked into her pleading chocolate brown eyes. They were my weakness my personal heaven on earth. I exhaled deeply. "Five minutes Bella and no more. Only five minutes and we leave." "Really?" she gasped. "Really," I nodded. "Let's go." Bella grinned excitedly. I knew she would get hurt but I let her go.

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