What Dreams May Come

Prologue

Princess Osiris
Nothing really belongs to me, sorry. I don't work. I can't get my work permit for another (counts on fingers...)four months and I can't get my learners permit for a long time.


The cool water brushed against Lily's soft skin after a long first day of exams. She sighed as she leaned up against the wall, only a few drops hitting her creamy skin now. He hands were cupped underneath her chin as he body slid down the damp tiles until she sat on the tile on the ground. Her lips moved as her voice box began to make words that really didn't make all that much sense. Her eyes closed as she brought her knees up to rest her head against them. Water still trickled on her eyelids, washing off the little make-up that she did wear. She shook her head lightly as her eyes watered and mixed with the warm water of the showerhead. She hugged her knees and cried. Cried for the first time in two years. Two years since her parents were murdered, two years since she started a new life, four years to old. She shook her head some more as tears ran freely way beyond her nose.

No one would know that Lily Evans was old twelve years old. For when her parents were murdered by a mysterious person wanting to rob them, she had to live with her grandparents who were well past 80. She took care of them and worked hard at a local art school to pay for their heath care. Her sister left and moved into the city with her new husband and left them all alone. Lily had so much weight on her shoulders, so much unseen weight. During the school year she had to place them in a retirement home because she could no longer take care of them, she needed to pursue her education to take care of them even better than before. And then there was what she had to live up to. Her mom and dad were surgeons and two of the best in the United Kingdoms. Her grandparents got on her back about not being able to do 'proper' work. They hated her artwork that she used to show them. It had come to a point where she would barely paint anymore. A few watercolors a year.

And then this year had changed her so much in so many ways. She had fallen in love so hard. She loved him so much, more than her grandparent and her late parents who had their own thing to do when they were still around. But she was afraid. To afraid to pursue her relationship further. And that's why she cried in the shower. She had broken his heart. Lily couldn't believe what she had just did. Sweet Lily, top marks, never anything less, and the one who was a friend to anyone, young or old. Yes, she had done it. Hurt someone beyond repair. And all because she was afraid. She wiped her eyes and got up from the tile floor. She turned the water off and got out. She wrapped her pink bathrobe around her warm body and went to the mirror where she washed her face and brushed her soft red hair.

With her pajamas on, she walked out of the bathroom and sat on her bed and looked down at her feet. She had done wrong and this time she had no idea how to make it right. She closed her eyes in a slow blink to get rid of the tears still wanting to come out of her eyes. She un tucked her covers from her bed and got under them, hoping that she would forget all about what had happened by day break. Sleep did come willingly to Lily's surprise with all the commotion in the common room because the 'it' couple broke up.

"Holy crap! Why did she do that!" Arabella Fig nearly screamed when her friend had told her what had happened. The common room went into a standstill when hey heard Arabella swear. She had to have a pretty good reason to swear. The sixteen year old in front of her lowered his head hoping to avoid embarrassment. "Wh-? Did you do something to make her mad?" She asked as everyone turned their ears to listen in on their private conversation. James Potter lifted his head slowly to reveal his blood shot eyes and pale complexion. He rubbed his eyes so no one would notice that he had tears in his blue eyes. He thought about what her would say.

"No." He said almost whispering. "That would make sense. She said we were over and that she couldn't love me anymore than she could love her parents." James looked down and wondered what Lily was doing right now. His voice trembled as he tried to speak again, but he couldn't. No words could form to make sense of his heart break. He looked up and saw everyone staring at him, as if her were about to do something no one wanted to miss. "Why are you all staring?" He asked firmly, words now forming. He stood up, very angry that his life had become very public since he and Lily got together. "I've had enough," He said to his five friends and went up to his dormitory, every set of eyes was on his back until he slammed his dorm room door behind him.

"I feel so bad that I can't do anything." Arabella said as she laid back in the char she was sitting in. She looked around at her friends who were just as stunned as her. Sirius was still dumbfounded that James actually cared about Lily so much as to cry at his loss of her in his life. Remus was deep in though, looking up at the door that had been slammed by an upset James. Peter was looking down at his feet, words to had failed him. "He loved her so much. And I know that Lily loved him too. Why would she do something like this. I bet something's wrong. That's the only explanation," Arabella sat up in her chair and looked around the common room at all the people gossiping and making up rumors to tell their friends in other houses about the big break up.

"Fate brought them together. Fate brings them apart. You just have to let things take it's own path. You can't shape it to be what you want it to be. If it was meant to be, then it will happen. Maybe not tonight or in the morning, but if they truly are in love, their hearts will come back together," Remus mumbled looking at the only friends he'd ever had. He got up from his chair. "I think I'm going to go to bed." were the last words heard from his tiered mouth as he left the circle with two empty chairs.

"We should get to bed. Maybe this is just a dream that we'll all wake up from when morning comes." Arabella got up and looked at the remaining two people in the circle. "And don't badger James. He has enough to deal with. And don't ask him questions in his sleep." Arabella scolded as she began to walk up to her dormitory. Peter and Sirius soon went up to their own, questions that were still unanswered floating in their minds. When they were out of sight, the common room erupted with frantic telling of what had happened and their own theories flying every which way about it.

Lily tossed as she thought about the heart break that she had caused herself. Even in her deep sleep, tears came down her cheeks. Her friends all sat on one bed as they watched her toss in her sleep with such distress (Lily forgot to close her hangings.). It was just yesterday that they had caught her and James on her bed sharing a deep kiss. How could things go wrong so fast? Mina sighed as she rested her head on Kimmy's shoulder. "How depressing to see her like this. How could she hurt him and herself?" She asked no one in particular.

"The saying goes that you only hurt the one's that you love," Kimmy answered. As she watched Lily toss again frantically. The four girls nodded their heads. "And she must love him so much to do that. But Lily is intelligent. She must have had a good reason to do what she did because she never does things frantically and spontaneous like this."

"Yeah, okay, you're right, but could you watch her from someone else's' bed? I mean, we still have exams tomorrow and I want to be fresh in the morning," Emi said looking at the three girls all sitting on her bed. They rolled their eyes and went over to Kimmy's bed, they could still see her pretty good from there.

After another ten minutes of Lily watching, the three of them fell asleep together, mumbling that they didn't want to get up for fear of disrupting Lily.

James couldn't say that his first couple of hours of sleep were his best. He too tossed in his sleep, but he didn't have anyone watching him like he was a television show. He had a dream that Lily ripped his heart out and stomped on it and then kissed another guy with him still watching her. He woke up in a cold sweat and he was breathing harder than he should have been. He rubbed his forehead as it all came back to him, the dream and the breakup. He looked down at his rumpled bed sheets and then towards the door. Down at his sheets, then the door again. Impulse was going to take over. No self control. No more questions, the had to be answered, now, not later. Screw fate, it could wait, but Lily couldn't.

One foot over the bed, two feet now on the ground. He took a breath as he looked at his trunk where a silver cloak laid. It had been a while since he had used it all by himself. So he went into his trunk to get it out and threw it over himself. Newly invisible, he opened the door and walked out. he went down the stairs and into the common room. It was still lit, but not well. Two people were on a windowsill on the other side of the room looking as if they didn't want to be bothered. He walked up the girls dormitory stairs and found the familiar door that he visited so many time at night this year.

His hand turned the door knob and it opened with a slight creak. That always happened. He looked at the room and smiled as he saw all of her friends curled up on one bed all facing Lily. He couldn't blame any of them. He took a breath as he tore she blankets off her and pulled her out of bed. She awoke with a start as she looked around and found her self being carried away from her bed. Her eyes got wide as she tried to find a body. None to be accounted for. "James Potter let me go!" She yelled as she was taken through the common room.

"Sorry Lily," He wrapped the cloak around her, with her kicking and trying to get out of his strong grip. Two portraits, a handful of staircases later, James stopped in a moonlit room. He placed her on the ground and threw the cloak to the side.

"What the hell do you think you're doing!" She asked, avoiding his eyes. They were hurt. She could tell that he to had probably had problems sleeping.

"WHy Lily? Do you know that you were the only one who made me get up in the morning. Why did you do this?" James asked as Lily stood before him with her arms crossed. A tear fell onto her cheek as she looked to her right.

"I can't love you. I'm not supposed to." She said. Her hands fell to her sides as she looked at him, her body wanting to throw herself on him right then and there.

"Yeah, well, I wasn't supposed to fall in love either. I was supposed to sleep with as many people as I possibly could like my friends. Well, minus Peter," He added.

"That is exactly what makes me upset," She pointed out. "I'm afraid. I'm only twelve and you're sixteen. I've heard of people like you and your reputation. Last year you had a girl one after another. My friends told me that I'd be the same. I didn't listen to them though. I saw something in you." She looked down and the up again. "Too much is happening now. I can't love you at this time."

"Lily, I admit that things that I regret happened, but I'd rather die than do anything with you." His words were sincere as he looked down into her pale green eyes.

"But what if I'm scared of myself. I want you James. It's a very scary thing for me, wanting you like this. Do you have any idea how many hours I've spent in a cold shower?" Lily asked firmly.

"Yeah, I know what you mean but you should know that I could never do anything with you, I love you. I couldn't spend my life without you."

"James, I just don't want to hurt you," Lily's voice faded as she leaned forward into James. her arms pressed hard against his chest. James held Lily's waist as he comforted her. She looked up at James, her eyes consumed by tears. "I need you," were her last words as she looked up at him.

"Me too," He pushed his lips softly against her lips in a delicate kiss.


A/N: This is just the first in a series. Just the beginning. It'll be sad, okay? It won't be break-up sad, but like a romance movie sad. (Hope I didn't give to much information!)
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