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FIRST FIC – SO BARE WITH ME IF IT SUCKS

DISCLAIMER – I DO NOT OWN BTR OR ANY OF ITS MEMBERS

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Logan Mitchells' alarm clock sounded signaling the start of the first day at his new school.

Logan Mitchell had always been a quiet individual who could be found reading a book, studying for upcoming tests, or doing what he loved most, ice skating. Logan knew at an early age he was different from other guys in the sense he had always been attracted to men instead of women. It's not something he was proud or wanted anyone to know, but it was something he wasn't going to try and change since he had already lost so much to be who he was.

Logan didn't want to be attending a new school. However, he knew that after what happened at his old school there was no way he could stay, and even if he wanted to his mother wouldn't hear of it.

FLASHBACK

It was during Logan's freshman P.E. class when his life began to be turned upside down. He had just finished changing, when all of a sudden he was pinned up against the lockers. He winced as he opened his eyes to find Jett Stetson shirtless, and only inches away from his face.

Logan had always had a crush on Jett, his beautiful blue eyes, shiny brown hair, bright white smile, and the never ending muscles that seemed to extend from every part of his body. Logan knew that Jett was straight, and that his crush would always be that just a crush… or so he thought, but at the moment he was unsure of what was going on.

"Hey there sexy." Jett spoke slowly and in a deep sexual voice blowing out heat onto Logan's neck as he spoke.

"W-w-what are you doing?" Logan stuttered out as he slightly began shaking underneath of the muscled teen pinning him down.

"I just want to get to know you baby, you're just so cute." Jett continued to whisper getting closer and closer closing the space between the two.

"B-but you're dating Jo, your s-straight you have a g-g-girlfriend." Logan squeaked, squirming still trying to break free without any signs of escape.

"She doesn't mean anything Logan, I've always admired you. I know you've admired me too baby, don't you want me?"

Logan couldn't take it anymore. Having Jett there only inches in between their bodies, he could feel his body heating up, and he could feel his erection growing fast and making him uncomfortable. Logan closed his eyes, puckered his lips and began to lean forward to meet Jetts lips.

Not even seconds after closing his eyes he could hear the laughter coming from around the corner, and saw the flashes coming from the phones that all of Jett's friends were holding. He struggled but found that he could still not move as Jett held him down laughing himself and making kissy faces aimed at Logan.

"Get off me!" screamed Logan as he began to sob uncontrollably

"What's the matter baby, I thought you wanted me?" Jett said, laughing manically

All Logan could do was cry as his tormentors took pictures, and insulted him with a variety of names ranging from homo to fairy boy. When it was all over Logan just lay there crying … a broken mess. It was that moment in time when he vowed that he would not trust anyone ever again.

Everything had changed after that day. The videos and pictures that had been taken were everywhere on the internet. When he arrived home his parents were waiting in the living room as he walked through the front door. His mother was crying, while his father had the most disapproving angered look he had ever seen.

"YOU'RE FUCKING DISGUSTING YOU LITTLE FAG! "Seethed his father looking at his son like he amounted to nothing.

"D-dad" Logan began holding back tears.

But before he could get any further his father cut him off "DON'T CALL ME THAT, YOU DON'T HAVE A FATHER … I DIDN'T RAISE A FAG" his father continued to yell.

Logan felt as though time had stopped as tears began to fall, and he watched his father storm past him grabbing suitcases that Logan didn't even notice walking in before he stormed out the door. He could tell by the immense slam of the door that he would never see his father again.

Logan now already on the verge of complete and utter defeat slowly raised his head to look at the woman standing before him. "Mom?" Logan asked in voice cracking and almost coming out as a whisper.

"Oh baby come here." His mom cried.

Almost falling into his mother's embrace shattered, and broken Logan could barely speak that came between the sobs. "Please don't leave me." Was all the Logan could say repeating it over and over almost as if they were the only words he knew. "Never, never honey. I love you and am happy as long as you are. You are who you are and I wouldn't have you any other way. I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. We will get through this, we are going to get away and put all this behind us." His mother said with the most tender love and care knowing that anything less would be sure to break the tender boy that was in her arms.

END FLASH BACK

Logan groaned reaching over to hit the snooze button on his alarm clock not wanting to move or deal with the day ahead of him. The moment he started to drift back to sleep his bedroom door nudged open.

"Honey, you have to wake up. Don't want to miss your first day of school." Rang Logan's mother's voice from the hallway.

"Yes I do. " Logan grumbled into his pillow.

Just then Logan squinted his eyes at the sudden burst of light from inside the room. "Mom, why?" Logan complained after his mom turned on the light entering the room. "Honey, I know you don't want to go, but you don't have a choice. Just give this school a chance let them get to know you for you." After she spoke these words Logan sat up in his bed. "NO, I'm not going back to that, I don't want them to know who I really am. This new school is my chance to reinvent myself, and I don't intend on letting my old nerdy self ruin my chance at a new beginning." Knowing that she would not be able to sway Logan's mind all she could do was say "ok well just get dressed and come down for breakfast, but don't take too long you still have to go the school and check in at the office."

Rolling out of bed Logan took a shower then stood at his closet deciding on what to wear. At first he decided on a pair of khakis and a sweater vest, then after a look in the mirror he ran downstairs to find his mother.

"Mom do you still have the boxes of clothes that Tyler left here before leaving for college?" Logan asked with anticipation in his voice.

"Yes sweetie they are out in the garage, but what do you want with your brother's old clothes?" His mother answered looking at him quizzically.

"Thanks mom!" Logan said already exiting out the side door on his way to the garage.

As Logan found the boxes he was looking for he began rummaging through the boxes on a mission to find something suitable for the new image he was hoping to make. Finding what he was looking for he closed up the remaining boxes and entered the house heading back up to his room to change.

Moments later he looked into the mirror. Now dressed in skinny jeans and a white tee, he decided there was one more thing that he needed. Going back to the pile of clothes he had retrieved he put on a black leather jacket then returned to the mirror giving himself a full look over.

Deciding that his new outfit was a good start to his new life he grabbed his backpack and headed down stairs to start his day.

"Wow, you look completely different it's like you're not even the same Logan anymore." Logan's mother spoke as she caught a glimpse of her son coming down the stairs.

"That's because I don't want to be." He replied in a cold voice as he walked out the door.

As Logan approached the school he took a deep breath as he opened the door and stepped inside. As he made his way to the front desk he could feel eyes on him from everywhere, and whispers among the kids lingering the halls.

As he approached the lady sitting behind the desk he stopped and looked to his side to see what Logan could only describe as the most gorgeous human being he had ever seen. Blond hair that flowed like silk, a smile that could brighten the darkest room, and the most amazing green eyes he had ever seen.

"Young man, young man?" The lady behind the desk called out in an almost concerned voice.

"O-oh sorry." Logan said turning his attention back to the lady that was smiling at him.

"What can I do for you?" She asked.

"My name is Logan Mitchell I just moved here, and I was told to check in to get my schedule." He replied

"Just one second. Yes here you are. Let me print out your schedule and I will call a student up here to show you to your classes and help you with anything you need."

"Thanks" Logan replied still not enthused about being here.

Moments later the woman's voice could be heard over the intercom "Kendall Knight to the front desk, Kendall Knight to the front desk."

As he waited for his guide Logan closed his eyes and could only think of how much he wanted to be anywhere but back in a school.

As he heard the lady explaining to someone who he was and that they were to show him around Logan opened his eyes to see the same blond beauty which had caught his eye earlier.

The only thing he could think was that things were going to be harder than he expected.