It was dark
when he pulled up. Of course, the school was always quiet at one in the
morning. Logan pushed the bike into the dim garage and walked up the stairs
into the darkened school. Finding his way to the kitchen he opened the door and
walked in at the same time a woman did, but she didn't see him.
He kept
himself in the shadows and watched her. From the scant light coming in from the
full moon he could tell it was Ororo. What was she doing up at this hour,
coming from outside? She opened up the refrigerator and brought out a pizza.
Suddenly his stomach growled. He didn't know he was hungry.
"Hello
Logan." He blinked in surprise as he turned on the light and sat down at the
table.
"How'd you
know I was here?"
"I saw you
when I came in. I have very good night vision." Ororo smiled and he found
himself smiling back. "Did you find what you wanted in Canada?"
"I don't
even want to talk about it." Logan growled, the foul mood he had returning. He
watched her grab two plates and divided the pizza in half, giving him a share.
"Thanks." He said gruffly.
"No
problem. I hope you don't mind cold pizza. I love it this way."
"Nah, its
fine. So what's been going on while I've been gone?"
"You mean,
what's been going on with Rogue while you've been gone?" A soft smile played
her lips as he started to grin slightly.
"You get to
the point don't you?"
"Yes. She's
doing wonderfully. Her and Bobby have been involved since you've been gone." He
nodded like he expected it.
"Good. She
needs someone her own age. I'm not a pervert."
"I never
said you were." He looked up at her again and she looked away, taking a bite of
pizza.
"There's no
meat on this thing." Logan complained good naturedly, poking a finger around
the vegetables.
"It's a
vegetarian pizza."
"You're a
vegetarian?"
"Yes. I
guess you just never noticed." It was an offhand comment, but for some reason
it stung.
"Guess not.
So what else happened?" Ororo put down her pizza and steeped her hands, looking
at the ceiling and thinking. He noticed her hands were long and slender, the
skin a warm chocolate color.
"Well…
Scott and Jean are now married." Logan snorted and he shrugged. "You're not as
mad as I thought you'd be." It was a statement of slight surprise and he shrugged
again.
"Jean isn't
mine. She was just something to take my mind off of …crap." He stuffed the rest
of the pizza in his mouth and swallowed in record time, enjoying the look of
small disgust in the soft brown eyes of the woman across from him. "Well 'Ro.
I've told you something deep, it's your turn."
"My turn?"
She raised a cloud colored brow and laughed slightly. "I have nothing to say to
you." Ororo picked up her plate of almost untouched pizza and moved to the
door. He was up in a flash, blocking the door and her exit. "What are you
doing?" She asked, exasperated.
"Nothing. I
just don't think it's fair to tell you something, but you run out when it's
your turn." Ororo flipped her hair over her shoulder and he was distracted. She
slipped underneath one of his outstretched arms and was out the door. Logan
frowned as he watched the door swing back and forth. He could still smell her
perfume, sandalwood and female. He picked up his pack and walked out the way
she did, to his old room. All in all, not a bad welcome.
*
A knock on
his door woke him up from a deep sleep, the first night in seven months he was
able to be in a bed. Another couple of knocks had him growling. "What is it?"
He yelled, yawning and stretching. A clock beside him said seven a.m. Who woke
up at seven a.m.?
"Logan.
It's Scott. The professor wants to see you."
"Get away
from my door you dick."
"What?"
"You heard
me." Logan threw off the covers and quelled the urge to answer the door with
three claws through it. He took a quick shower and got dressed quickly, opening
up the door and seeing kids milling around. It must be between classes. Word
spread quickly he was here, because most kids didn't seem surprised to see him
back, but respectfully moved away from his path. Except one.
"Logan!"
The shriek could have been heard in Bangkok, but that didn't stop the smile
from spreading across his face as the young woman jumped into his arms. "Ah
thought they were wrong, but you're really are here." The southern accent he
remembered dulled slightly, but it was still there, just not as rough.
"Hey kid."
He said gruffly, putting her down on the floor. She had changed somewhat,
prettier than he remembered, probably because she was happier, still covered
from head to toe. "How's everything going?"
"Great!
Ah'm doing good in history and American Literature, but I suck in science and
Ah get by in math." A small chime breezed through the halls and kids
immediately scattered. Marie sighed and rolled her eyes. "Ah gotta go. First
period. Will you still be here when Ah have lunch?" A slight fear was evident
in her eyes.
"Yeah, I'm
not going anywhere." He reassured her as he watched Bobby walk up the stairs at
the end of the floor.
"Marie,
come on. We're going to be late."
"Ah'm
coming." She smiled at him and turned back to Logan. "That's me. See you
later." She gave a small wave and ran down the hall. He narrowed his eyes
slightly at the way Bobby grasped her gloved hand as they ran to class. Glad to
know that leaving her here was a good choice, he made his way to Xavier's
office on the first floor.
*
"Have you
thought about what we discussed before you left?" Professor Charles Xavier
asked as he sat behind his desk, his gaze steady as he looked back at Logan. He
nodded.
"I did. I'll
be an X-Man, but there will be a few conditions." Charles expected this and
smiled. At least he said yes.
"If I just
don't fit in I'm gone. No questions asked okay?"
"That's
fine."
"And I
can't teach one of those classes. Self defense maybe, if I have the patience,
but nothing else."
"Self
defense is something all of the children need to know. You're class will be a
valuable addition to the curriculum." Logan fingered the cigar in his hands,
half tempted to light it but didn't. "Did you find what you were looking for?"
"Shit
Chuck, already sticking your nose where it don't belong?" Charles blinked at
the name Chuck.
"If you
don't want to talk about it, it's fine, but there is no need to get rude." The
bald telepath reminded him, sensing the agitation strongly.
"I didn't
find anything. It was exactly like you said, abandoned."
"I'm
sorry." The older man said quietly.
"Don't
okay? What do you want me to do now?"
"Get
reacquainted with the school. We've built some new structures and shuffled
things around. I'll give you a guide." Xavier looked up and the door opened.
Logan turned and his stomach clinched slightly. It was Jean. She smiled at him
as he stood. "Jean will take you and make sure you know your way around." He
smiled as he motored from behind his desk. "If you'll excuse me, I'm almost
late for a meeting." They both watched him leave before they spoke.
"Logan,
it's good to see you back." She said, her voice still as soft as it was before
he left. Her hair was in a French braid, redder than he remembered. The green
shirt and matching skirt looked wonderful on her, and he could smell her
nervousness.
"Red. So,
married the dick huh?" Jean sighed with slight annoyance.
"His name
is Scott. And how did you know?"
" 'Ro told
me."
"Oh. Well let's
get started."
*
"We also
added a new dining room and expanded the gym." Jean said as they moved past the
old one.
"What's in
there now?" Logan asked as glanced back curiously.
"You'll see
later." They came to the edge of the hall, and stopped to look at each other.
"So, how was Canada?" She asked conversationally.
"Big, white
and cold." He stared at her with his arms crossed. "Is he treating you right?"
"Scott? Yes. As always. We
never had a problem until you arrived." It slipped out before she realized.
"Really
now. That's some news. Are we done?" Jean frowned.
"What's
with all of this new hostility towards me?"
"It's not
hostility Jeannie. Its just…things have changed. Let's just drop it." She
nodded quickly, bundling up her telepathy. Jean usually let it go, taking quick
glances into his mind, but that easy familiarity was gone. It was like they
were strangers again, without the benefit of attraction. She was still
attracted to him, and even though she was married, she liked the thought of
another man after her, to make sure she knew she still had it. Something in
Canada had changed him.
"Well, the
grounds have changed as well. Ororo's class has moved outside, and we have a
new green house." Jean pushed open the doors into the bright sunshine. Logan
winced slightly as his vision adjusted, and inhaled. The air was thick with the
smell of vegetation, and a large glass house stood gleaming in the sun. The
door was open, and two large bags of soil were sitting beside it. Logan caught
Jean glancing at her watch. "I forgot Ororo changed schedules with Scott. She
must be in there working." That piqued his curiosity and he found himself
walking over.
"She's in
there now?"
"Should be.
The door's open, and although the Professor said that he bought it for the
enjoyment of everyone, we all know it was for her." Jean smiled as they reached
the entrance. " 'Ro, you in here?"
"Back here
Jean." A cheerful voice filtered out from the back. They walked in and the air immediately
changed. It was humid and tropical, reminding Logan of a jungle. Which it was.
Thick greenery everywhere, a dirt path straight to the back, veering off from
itself repeatedly, going everywhere.
"She did
this?" He asked, slight awe in his voice as he realized all of the work it took
to grow the lush surroundings he was in.
"Yep. She
was feeling down, so Charles purchased it." Jean fingered a large violet bloom.
They continued down the path until Logan started to wonder how large the glass
house was when they reached the end. " 'Ro, looks good." She smiled as Ororo
looked back.
"Thanks
Jean. I'm potting new plants. They came this morning and I was too excited to
wait until tonight." She stood and brushed her hands off on the large blue
shirt she wore over a tank top and shorts.
"Aren't you
hot in here?" Logan asked, already sweating hard.
"No. My
body compensates for the temperature around me, so I don't get hot…or cold."
Ororo stopped as she saw Jean's face. It had a faraway look on it, and then she
snapped out of it.
"Guys, I've
got to go. Professor needs me. Ororo, I'll be back before your next class." She
waved and left quickly, fanning her face.
"I guess
it's just you and me." Logan smiled at Ororo as she placed a fern on a hook
hanging from a beam.
"So it is.
So how has your first day been?"
"Alright.
Not much has changed. I still want to kill Scott."
"And Jean?"
He blinked at that question.
"What about
her?" She looked at him with vague amusement in her eyes.
"Are you
still in pursuit of her?"
"And why is
that any of your business." Logan asked her as she bent over to pack dirt down
more firmly. His head inclined slightly as the khaki she wore rode up slightly,
exposing the tops of her thighs.
"Because
she is like a sister to me, Scott like a brother. I don't want them to have
problems so soon into their marriage." She didn't look at him as she walked
around him and took a pair of pruning shears and snipped a dying branch from a
sprouting sapling.
"So you
want to know if I'm going to leave her alone." Ororo finally looked him in the
eye.
"Yes I do."
"I thought
I already told you I didn't want Jean. I never really did. She was just a
distraction." She nodded and walked to the entrance.
"That is true, but things could
have changed. You didn't see her last night, you didn't know if the feelings
were still there." Logan frowned and walked after her.
"You know, you still haven't told me a secret of
yours. Everyone thinks they have me figured out, when I don't even know half
the shit that's in my own head. How screwed up is that?"
"Very, but
you're not the only one with problems, or are unhappy with their situation."
They stopped right at the large bags of potting soil. Ororo hefted one in her
arms and reached for the other until Logan picked it up.
"Really.
What could you possibly have to be unhappy about? You have a place to live,
friends, and a life you could remember." He put the bag down on the worktable
beside hers and looked at her. She shook her head.
"There is
other things that can keep a person awake Logan besides loss of memory." Ororo
sat down on a bench and he sat down beside her.
"Like
what?" He was interested in her. He never knew this human side when he was last
here, just the slightly aloof woman who had everyone's respect.
"Loneliness
is one."
"How can
someone as good-looking as you be lonely?" Her long white hair was in a messy
ponytail, a small smudge of dirt on her temple, but she still was beautiful.
"Is that a pick
up line?" Ororo laughed a bit, and Logan joined her.
"Not
really. Why don't you date?"
"Oh, so now
you know so much about me you know what I do and don't do?" It was asked as
just a question, but he could detect a tightness in her voice, her posture had
become rigid.
"Look 'Ro.
I don't want to go anywhere you don't want to go. I just asked a question."
Logan crossed his arms and looked elsewhere. He saw her hesitate out the corner
of his eye and he turned back to her.
"I'm sorry.
You are not the person I should take my frustrations out on."
"Damn
straight." He said. Ororo laughed.
"Logan,
you're so uninhibited."
"Is that
the same as sexy?" She laughed again, and he found he enjoyed making her laugh.
Leaning back, he sighed easily as a cool breeze came in and ruffled the leaves
of the plants, caressing his body and lowering his temperature. "You did that?"
"Every once
in a while I do it. Just to bring the air in to move the hot around. It's good
for the plants." Ororo looked at him and stretched, standing in front of him.
"Well, I've paid you back."
"For what?"
He asked.
"You gave
me a secret, and I gave you one. I, Ororo Munroe, am lonely. Welcome back
Logan." With that she walked out of the green house, leaving him confused.
*
Two weeks had
past since he came back, and he slipped into the routine, and he felt as if he
had never left. He taught four periods of self defense, two in the morning and
two in the afternoon, on the side lawn where the grass was thick and springy.
The students learned quickly that Mr. Logan wasn't an easy teacher, but his
class quickly became one of the favorites after the first week.
In the beginning everyone was too
sore to think anything, but afterwards when they could move again they would
try out what they learned on their roommates. Jean was busy with injuries that
resulted from a body throw onto a bunk bed or down the stairs. No matter what
Logan just laughed at it.
Lunch he would usually have by
himself or with Marie, and with her help he didn't want to threaten Bobby
whenever he saw him. Bobby made her happy in a way he couldn't, and he did want
her happy.
Scott was on edge on first, wary of
what Logan would do, but he didn't do anything. Their relationship still left
much to be desired, but it no longer included daily threats of bodily harm
since he left Jean alone.
Jean. She was confused when there
was no more flirting between them, but she didn't let it show much. He focused
on what he did, and when they went on missions he was more controlled, less
animalistic, more efficient. He just got through the day.
But he started to enjoy his talks
with Ororo in the green house in the early morning and sometimes late night.
She would be out there and he'd help her lug something around or lift a large
plant for her, and they would talk for hours. He could find himself counting
the hours until he could relax in the glass structure around tropical nature
and be himself.
That's what time it was, ten
o'clock at night. All the children were in their rooms, the Professor in his
study and the newlyweds in bed. Logan walked out of the kitchen door like he
had for the past week and a half and went to the greenhouse. The air was thick
with moisture, and from the rumbling clouds he saw overhead it was going to
rain.
" 'Ro, hey. It's going to rain."
She laughed as she watered some plants, holding her hands over them, a small
rain cloud underneath her hands.
"I know. I could tell when I woke
up."
"Oh yeah."
"So how was
your day?" Ororo turned and walked around him as he sat down on the bench, and
she closed the door. Immediately the soft patter of water drummed on the roof,
giving the place an isolated feel.
"Nothing
much. Marie threw St. John today."
"I bet you
were proud."
"I had to
keep from clapping." She laughed. "So how was yours?"
"Strenuous.
Bobby made a mistake of freezing his homework. When I picked it up it broke
into pieces. He promised it was homework, and I gave him the benefit of the
doubt."
"You're too
soft." Ororo sputtered and gave a quick laugh.
"I am not."
"Yeah you
are."
"Maybe I
am, a little." She consented. He looked at her for a moment, and she looked
back at him, tilting her head slightly. Hair fell like a fog waterfall down the
side of her face. "What is it?"
"Why are
you lonely?" Ororo blinked.
"What?"
"You told
me you were lonely when I first got here. Remember?" She looked away and
clasped her hands together.
"It's
complicated."
"Not
really. You're lonely for a reason." Logan said simply.
"That is
true. Why do we have to talk about this?"
"Because I
want to know."
"That's not
a good enough reason."
"This
coming from the woman who makes me open up when I don't want to. How do you do
that anyway?"
"It's a
gift." Ororo shrugged. "I'm a very private person." She began.
"Yeah…"
"And it's
kind of hard for me to initiate a relationship with someone I'm interested in.
So they kind of drift elsewhere without me trying, or telling them how I feel
about them." Logan frowned.
"So you
like someone and you don't tell them?" She shrugged her shoulders.
"I wasn't
always like that. Two years after I came back to this country I met this man
named Forge. He was amazing, or so he seemed to me. We were in a relationship
and he hurt me badly. He wanted me to leave the X-Men and become his wife. I
couldn't just abandon the Professor."
"So the
asshole left you?"
"Yes. It
took a while, but I decided to try again. A guy I met in a café. His name was
Roger, and we hit it off. But he was emotionally abusive. Scott helped me break
it off. He couldn't accept the fact I didn't want to see him ever again." Logan
nodded and was glad Scott stepped in. Maybe he wasn't such a dick. Or maybe he
still was.
"You've
only dated twice since you've been here?" He asked incredulously.
"No. I've
had a lot of first dates. Most guys just want sex, or leave if they find out
I'm a mutant. Like the hair wasn't a dead giveaway." Ororo smiled. "But each
time I let the man come to me. If he doesn't, then nothing happens."
"That's
kind of stupid. 'Ro, sometimes the guy needs to know the woman is interested.
We can't do everything."
"I know.
It's hard to let my guard down, because the weather will react to my slightest
whim. If I don't set myself up to get upset it makes my job easier."
"You can't
go through life like that." She blinked.
"And you
want to run from everything, including your past." Logan got angry.
"No, I went
looking for my past. It's running from me. As for everything else, I cause a
problem where I go. I usually leave to not cause anymore pain. At least I'm
trying. I'm here, aren't I?" He challenged her. "I'd like to see you do that.
Have some courage and just tell whoever it is that you like them. Damn 'Ro. Or
you'll end up a beautiful spinster." She glared at him.
"So you
want me to just walk up to the person and tell him I like him."
"Shit, why
not?"
"What if he doesn't like me
back?"
"That
happens. But the world will go on. Or I'll just beat him up for you." She
laughed and thought for a moment. Logan looked up as he realized it had stopped
raining, the water sheeting off of the glass panels as the moon came out from
behind the clouds, casting a silver glow on the leaves around them.
"Fine.
Logan?"
"Yeah?"
"I have
come to like you a lot, and I was very disappointed when you left without saying
goodbye. Would you like to go out with me?" Logan looked at her, actually
shocked. He could hear her heartbeat rising every second he was silent, and
closed his mouth.
" 'Ro. I-"
Ororo held up her hand.
"Forget it.
I knew I shouldn't have done this. Excuse me." She jumped up and ran out,
leaving Logan feeling like shit.
*
Two hours
he stayed out there, thinking and wondering about things that just flitted
across his mind. Logan was attracted to Ororo, a lot. He liked talking to her,
being near her, and helping her with the garden. He liked wondering what she
would be wearing while working. He liked staring at her legs and ass when she
bent over to plant something in the ground.
He loved
her laugh, the light in her eyes as she thought something was funny and the way
she didn't mind getting dirty. He knew he started falling for her, but what
good could he be for someone like her? She deserved someone who could give her
jewelry, someone who could remember his childhood, someone who doesn't have nightmares
every night. Shit. He was scared.
*
'I knew it
was a bad idea.' Ororo shook her head as she opened the door of her attic loft.
The post rain breeze blew through the balcony's beams and into the room,
ruffling the robe on the chair of her desk. Sniffing, she became angry with
herself as she prepared for a shower.
'Why did I
get my hopes up?' Because he didn't seem to be after Jean, like he said.
Because he gave her hope that maybe they could go out on a date, and he would
smile and she would laugh, and perhaps she could feel as pretty as Jean for a
while. Guess it wasn't meant to be. Ororo angrily wiped away tears again as she
closed her bathroom door.
*
He didn't
feel like going in the house, so he climbed it. He remembered Ororo had the
room at the top, the renovated attic with large spacious ceilings. Digging his
claws into the grooves of the stones he climbed quickly, standing on the eaves
of the windows until he reached the third floor roof.
It was
reasonably flat, something he could definitely stand on. The last roof was the
fourth floor roof, the roof of the attic, standing above the rest of the roof,
a balcony with plants sitting on the ledge. Yep, he was in the right place. He
ran up a spire and jumped clear over the potted plants, landing silently on the
wooden floor.
The doors
were wide open, sheer curtains fluttered in the breeze as he watched her. She
was already sleeping, under the sliver silk sheets that adorned her bed. The
moon shone down from her large skylight, it taking up half of the ceiling.
Stepping
in, many smells assaulted his sensitive nose. Ozone, like the smell before
lightning struck. Sandalwood, more concentrated. The bottle was probably around
somewhere. Vanilla bubble bath came at him from the bathroom, the door cracked
slightly. And tears. That's what hit him the hardest, although it wasn't the
loudest smell. She cried, and he made that happen.
Logan sat
down softly on the edge of her bed and took her out flung hand in his,
caressing her soft skin. Her beautiful eyes fluttered open and she looked at
him. "What do you want?" She asked softly.
"Woman, why
did you run out before I could answer the question?" Logan smiled as she sat
up.
"I
thought…"
"You didn't
even let me finish. What I was going to say was 'I thought you'd never ask.'"
She laughed slightly.
"I'm sorry
Logan. I've just been hurt so much, I tend to expect this."
"Not all
men are the same."
"No, you
are not like other men." Ororo laughed again, a happier sound. "This feels
weird."
"What
does?"
"Happiness."
He looked serious as they stared at each other. The distance closed between
them, and Logan finally kissed her. She tasted of mint leaves and cinnamon, her
lips soft and lush against his. She was like a drug, he couldn't get enough of
her, and finally he had to pull away to breath. Her eyes flickered open and she
smiled.
"I'm glad
you asked me Ororo. I didn't know you'd be interested in me. When I got back
you were the only one I was totally comfortable around. I didn't feel the need
to be the badass every second of the day when I was with you." She smiled.
"I'm glad I
asked you too. Besides, you're my badass." Logan smiled smugly and Ororo
laughed again.
*
Logan laid there,
eyes still half closed with sleep, but his mind was wide awake. Ororo was in
his arms, sleeping contentedly, her white hair spread out on his chest. They
had talked most of the night away, until they had ceased into slight murmuring.
She fit him like no one else did, her body conforming to his as they slept.
He still
couldn't believe it. She was so beautiful, and now that she was sleep, he could
study her easier. Her serenely gorgeous face had slightly almond shaped eyes, a
nose that fit her face perfectly, and lips that begged to be kissed. Sitting
atop a slender neck that sloped into feminine shoulders that spread into
beautiful arms, all a generous coffee.
Logan's
large hand rested against the flat plane of her stomach, and he could feel the
rise and fall of her stomach muscles as she breathed evenly, deeply. His arm
felt the weight of the large swell of her breast, and he smiled slightly.
Everything together made him feel good. The curve of her soft body against his,
the early morning air that smelled of dew, the pinkness of the sky and the
closeness of everything made him feel at peace.
That was
the first night he didn't have nightmares. The first night he had a deep sleep
without his demons coming out to haunt him. He buried his nose in Ororo's hair
and enjoyed the scent, and drifted off to sleep.