Um, I wouldn't classify this as a poem as such, more a stream-of-consciousness thingy to test out Magnus' voice (from the prompt word 'mindful), but i'd be really curious for any feedback people have? ;)
Set between 'Next Tuesday' and 'Penance'
Broken Mirror
I try to be mindful. I would hope that I'm
The founder, the head, the heart
The kind of person who does not insult - knowingly or otherwise.
I would hope to be warm. A friend, a mentor
Not a shattered, cold, distant failure
Alienated from the world she swore to protect
Or am I protecting my gifts from the world?
That's how I think, sometimes, of them. Precious gifts
Each one rare, unique, free, hunted
By the same universe that created their genes.
Is it balance? Perhaps. A life for a life. But the fact remains
That you can replace a brainwashed agent of fear
Not so much a werewolf, or a sasquatch, a merperson, a symbiotic child.
I would try to be mindful of our differences
Sometimes, perhaps, it isn't the fear. They're jealous - just jealous
Of the gift they did not recieve.
My father gave me a gift once. Use it wisely, he said, Helen,
I know you will.
I was his daughter, after all. Still am.
The gift was a mirror, cyan with scarlet and poppy-field green surrounding
Sleek pale wood - the looking-glass, beyond the colours and plain
Was a perfect circle.
I looked into it every six o'clock of every birthday, because it seemed right
I counted the years and kidded myself I could see what I'd become
I thought I understood what he meant
I still don't know. Yes, he is always that cryptic.
I smashed it
Smashed it dead
It just slipped -
Father, I'm so sorry.
Do seven years of bad luck really count, out of
One hundred and fifty-seven?
They certainly do when the smashed pieces are still scattered over your black work-shoes and
you're staring, stricken, it's gone it's gone I killed it,
And you know those seven years will seem like infinity
Without the glass.
I really don't know if the superstition came true. It was so long ago now.
I was devastated inside, a whirlwind outside, but it faded
Out of sight, out of mind -
As they do.
I do know that after six years and eleven months, I gave birth to
My daughter.
Don't tell Will? He'll only worry. He doesn't sleep enough and I worry him too much already
But the loneliness gave way to the happiest day of my longevity.
I wouldn't've
Been able to feel
That good if I hadn't been lonely first, as I gazed down
On my rose-cheeked baby - asleep in my arms.
She was beautiful. Strange to think that she'd been an embyro hidden away
For so long, from her father, from my work, not living, just waiting.
Waiting for me? Or was I, for her?
I kissed her forehead. I cried.
I resolved to be mindful of her, always. I resolved never to think of her
Like that again.
Ashley? I'm afraid.
I could play mother to an entire network of fantastical creatures,
Was scared of being mommy to one little girl.
