My first Fanfic for Charlie & Miles

I have not written for a few years, and have been too scared to publish. But have finally decided, why not.

Authors Note: I do not own the characters or show (unfortunately) No gains of any kind, except to express my thoughts. Any mistakes are mine and I take full responsibility

Please Enjoy.

CHAPTER 1

2 months ago

Charlie heard Miles calling her name. She stood up and shouted "In here". She looked up into his eyes when he opened the cell door. She saw Miles looking at her arm as she subconsciously held it., and back into her eyes. Her heart jumped when she saw the look of concern in his eyes. "Its fine. lets get Peter" Charlie brushes past Miles. Not wanting to look at him any longer seeing the look in his eyes. She would say or do something she shouldn't.

Miles watched her walk away, he knew it had been a bad idea he should never of gave in and let her do this, she had been hurt, and this time he would be forever reminded of what had happened to his Charlie, and it was all his fault.

They found Peter in his cell and let him out, the lieutenant who has branded Charlie appeared, holding Peter's brother. Charlie was behind Miles, The next thing they saw was a bright light from the lighthouse. This was enough to distract Monroe's men. They grab their swords and started fighting and killing them. Miles took the lieutenant he was going to kill him for hurting his Charlie, he didn't know what happened, the next thing he knew Charlie had put the sword she was using through the lieutenant. They had a moment, looking into each other eyes. God he loved her.. Wait where did that come from she doesn't know. she is too young, these feelings are wrong.

Few weeks later...

Charlie & Miles were out hunting. When they heard the malitia coming.

"Down Charlie!"

Charlie crouched beside Miles.

Charlie whispered to Miles "They have ammunition Miles, maybe we could take it. If we.."

Miles gave her a look and cut her off before she could finish what she was going to say.

"Do you have a death wish or something kid! There is only you and I and over a dozen malitia. I know I am good, but wake up! I am not some miracle man you seem to think I am. Just because i started this doesn't mean i am invincible!"

"Right lets head back to camp and warn the others." Miles looked at Charlie to make sure she was coming and headed back to camp.

Charlie just mumbled "OK" and followed deep in her own thoughts, disheartened by what he had said. He was right about the militia there was too many for the two of them. But why does he keep treating me as a child! If he had let me finish what I wanted to say. I can't seem to do anything right. He has been pushing me away more and more lately. I really thought he was starting to like me, trust me. But he does not. He just thinks I am a pesky kid. Not letting me go hunting myself, like I need supervision. What did I do wrong?

Miles saw the hurt look on Charlie's face, he felt a heel. But he couldn't tell her the truth. But didn't realise how much keeping the truth from her was hurting and how bad it was going to get..

If only they talked.

Back at camp. Nora & Aaron had set up camp, waiting on Miles & Charlie to get back.

"They have been a while" commented Aaron.

Nora just smiled. "Hopefully they are talking! Reason I suggested they both go"

"Yeah, what's wrong there? Everything seemed to be going OK. Then Miles is back to being snappy, moody and distant."

"Charlie" was all Nora said with a knowing look.

Just at that Miles & Charlie returned. Nora looked at Miles questionable. He looked liked like thunder and Charlie, she just looked more lost and withdrawn than when she left. 'What the hell happened?' Nora thought to herself.

Aaron sensed didn't go well "hunting good?"

Miles looked at Aaron and then at Charlie "We'll if you count the kid here wanting to go after the Militia with a cart of weapons good, then No!"

Nora looked up at Miles. "Well we could do with the fire power" if looks could kill, then the one Miles threw her way was murderous!

"Yeah, the kid & I up against over a dozen militia. Why didn't I think of that!" Miles exasperated at them all. Just because I was the bloody general and helped start this bloody thing. They all think I can do anything.

"Ok. Didn't realise so many. Why not get us. The four of us could've done it" Nora replied.

"That's what I was going to suggest, before I was shot down by Mile" Charlie finally spoke up since returning to camp.

"See great minds think alike" Nora smiled a Charlie; trying to lighten the mood. Miles just gave her a look and grumbled and sat leaning against a tree nearby the fire opening his pack.

Charlie didn't even break a smile. Which was worrying; Charlie sat as far away from Miles as she could and just stared into the fire. Wishing she was with Danny. Someone who actually loved her; cared for her, and wanted to be with her. A tear slipped from her eye. She really wondered if she could take much more, what had she done wrong, she glanced at Miles she really thought he cared for her and trusted her, but lately it was the complete opposite, maybe I should just go it alone..

Everyone noticed how withdrawn and sad Charlie looked and was getting worse. Even grumbling Miles. But he never said anything. Just felt even more of a heel, than earlier and closed his eyes and took a long swig of the whisky. Wishing he could just go back to Chicago. Nora and Aaron exchanged knowing looks but didn't say anything.

Nora, looked at Charlie. She hated seeing her like this. She didn't deserve to be here, she should be laughing spending times with friends. Not sitting withdrawn and worrying how to save her brother. She was young, and a bright intelligent woman, reminded her of her sister.

"Charlie?" Nora asked. She looked up.

"Fancy helping me get some wood and water?" Charlie glanced at Miles he looked like he was sleeping against the tree. She looked at Nora.

"Of course will help, if you think I can manage that" and headed towards the river. Aaron looked at Nora and they exchanged glances, then she followed Charlie.

While out with Charlie. Nora thought would try and find out what was wrong.

"So how are you doing?"

"Fine" replied Charlie. Ok this was not going to be easy. She was so like Miles it was sometimes scary.

"Charlie. Stop a minute. I want you to talk to me. What is going on? What was the comment as we left camp about?" Nora watched as Charlie then fell to a heap on the ground.

"I give up Nora. I keep trying and he throws it back in my face every time! I don't know if I am strong enough to carry on" Charlie started to cry and the tears and pent up emotion flowed out.

"Hey Charlie. It's going to be ok. You are one of the strongest young women I know. He is just an idiot, who is scared and loves you" Nora held Charlie as she sobbed.

"He doesn't love or care for me. He doesn't want to be here remember. He is only doing it because he feels guilt to his brother. Is only here for that reason; duty." Charlie said vehemently through the sobs and tears.

"He treats me like a kid all the time. And call me one. It hurts; i try to prove i am worthy of his loyalty, trust, even love.. I have lost so much and he keeps pushing me away, other than Danny he is all I have left and he doesn't want me!"

"Aw Charlie. You are so wrong about him. He has changed so much since meeting you. He would do anything for you to keep you safe. I see a big difference in him. He wasn't like this back when we first met. He cares so much for you he is confused and doesn't know what to do. So he lashes out. You have given him life again, meaning. Someone to care about, and look out for and not just himself." Charlie still didn't look like she believed her.

"If he didn't want to be here. He wouldn't be." Nora couldn't think of anything else to say to make Charlie see how much Miles does actually care for her. Hell she can hardly believe Mile had changed so much. God that man was infuriating.

"Why don't you freshen up and get some water and see you back at camp."

"You trust me to get the water myself?" Charlie asked

Nora was heartbroken, over the question. God that man is needing a good kick or some sort of wake up call. "Charlie I trust you with my life, we all do!"

"So getting some water is nothing, hell you went to kill a man to save my life. You risked your life for a kids brother you didn't know. All the other things you have done. You have proved yourself over and over to me and too Miles. He does see it, just give him time, he is fighting with his emotions. He does trust that you have his back hell you have saved his life on numerous occasions" Nora hoped she was getting through to her.

"Thank you. I do trust him, you and Aaron with my life." Charlie turned and headed to the water. Nora just heard Charlie whisper. "But Miles doesn't trust me"

Nora headed back to camp with the wood, thinking of a way to wake Miles up before he lost Charlie the only good thing in his life!

Back at camp, Aaron had wanted to talk to Miles while everyone was away find out what was going on. But he looked like he was sleeping so decided to let sleeping dogs lie as they say.

He was lost in thought, when he heard a noise. He was about to disturb Miles when he saw Nora.

'Hey. Got enough" when he noticed the bundle of wood she had.

He looked at her quizzically "eh where's Charlie?"

This brought Miles to open his eyes. "Yes where is the kid?" He was about to get up. When Nora dropped the wood.

"Enough!" Nora shouted. "No wonder she is struggling at the moment and ready to leave your sorry ass. Miles she is not a kid" Nora stepped towards Miles.

"Do you realise that Charlie is a beautiful, independent young woman?" Nora stood over Miles.

Miles just stared up at Nora. She was the only woman who stood up to him. Well other than Charlie...

"Do you even realise that Charlie, for some reason loves you so much and trusts you and would walk through fire for you. She is hurting, and thinks you don't love her; trust her or even want to be here?"

Miles knew everything Nora was saying is true, but was too much a coward to admit it out loud, because once he did...

Miles stood up and looked at Nora and looked straight into her eyes and replied slowly and steadily with conviction "I don't want to be here. I was happy in Chicago. I don't love or care for anybody and I certainly do not trust..."

Before Miles could finish, Nora slapped him and took a step back shocked at what he had just said and looked and sounded like he actually meant it.

All anyone heard next was a thud on the ground as the water container fell from Charlie's hands.