Title: Feeling -Drabble
Rating: PG
Author: Me, Of course
Pairing: Refers to SasuNaru
Fandom: Naruto
Beta: MoonShadow (Aka: Troubled Spirit, Soul of Despair, and my Loving Twin.)
Dedication: My Twin and beta. I wuvs you twin!
Author Note: This is a depressing and kind of bad Drabble that I decided to write while I'm also in pain, Physically. I pulled both my calf muscles while working out with my trainer, not very fun to deal with. Also, Today is my Birthday! The 25th of Oct. So Go me! Anywho, Hope you all enjoy and feel free to leave a review.
Disclaimer: By the By, My inspiration on this story is both Pain and I hate everything about you By Three days grace. Of course, Me does not own them what so ever. Nor to I own Naruto, cause if I did there would be a lot of SasuNaru and not suitable for children.
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Pain.
It's what I feel, see, and breathe each and everyday of my life. Hurting, breaking, screaming fills my body; tearing me from the inside out. Slowly; It hurts, it aches. You left, and this is what happened to me. Yet you never seemed to care, you never took the time to consider me.
Anger.
It's what I experience; hurting myself and my loved ones because of your stupid mistake. You weren't strong enough to handle it, so you threw it on me like I was able too. But I'm not; I'm not stronger, I'm not better then you. Anger is what I feel toward you. Anger is the only thing keeping me alive, so that someday I might be able to repay you.
Revenge.
I want to avenge myself. My pride and dignity that was taken from you. I want to be able to see again, yet when I open my eyes there's nothing but darkness. Nothing. I want revenge for what you did to me, I want to rip you apart from the inside like you so causally did to me. I want my life back.
Suffering.
Since that day, I suffer every moment of my life. I see your face every instant, dream about you every night. I think about you all the time, but not with love like I use too. Not since you took everything from me. My heart, My sight, my life, and my very soul. I tolerate this empty feeling; deal with it the best I can in my condition, but nothing can take it from me.
Bleeding.
You Sasuke, You took everything from me in the end. You left me to die; To perish in my own anguish. You caused my endless pain and took my sight from me. You broke me to many times. You kept me alive with my hate for you, you used me as a tool in your own plans. You took my revenge from me by killing yourself, and you caused my suffering.
In the end, I was left bleeding on my bathroom floor, one razor in my right hand, matching marks on each wrist. I can't see the crimson blood pouring from my body, yet if I could, it would probably remind me of you. Everything reminds me of you.
I don't notice the darkness taken over, because it's normal for it to be there. I don't notice my body and mind slipping from each other, but the only thing I can think before it is completely gone is:
I hate you.
So why do I love you?