Hey Guys! This story contains spoilers from season 4 mid finale, so if you have not watched DO NOT READ! unless you want spoilers... Basically, I am so sad over the ending, And i am trying to come up with something to mend my wounds, and I thought I'd share it with you :D Enjoy
one year and 4 months ago:
She was trying not to break down as he sighed and turned around. Her heart had never hurted so much. She knew this was the end and she wanted to stop him, wanted to keep him here, to be selfish. But she couldn't. She wasn't that person anymore and she had to let him go. He had to be with his son Roland and his wife. And she had to be the hero. Agian.
She was confused When Robin suddenly stopped in his tracks. And only a second later his lips was on hers in a tender and desperate kiss. Their last kiss and she knew it. When he broke their kiss again he putted his forehead on hers. She could see the pain in his expression, she could feel how tightly he was holding her, like he was trying to capture her, memorize her. And for some reason it made this a little easier. It really shouldn't ease her heart that he was hurting as much as she was, but it did. Cause it meant she meant something.
Robin took a deep breath before he parted from her, their hands holding until the moment he had crossed the townline. He couldn't see her anymore, he kept searching for her, praying that in some way, he would find her. He would hold her again, he wouldn't have to leave her. The woman he loved, but storybrooke was gone. She was gone.
Regina stood there for a while her hand still in the air. She could see him, see them. But he looked right through her like Henry had all that time ago. And it hurt, it hurt that no matter how much she tried he'd never see her again. Not without her leaving storybroke herself and she couldn't do that. Couldn't leave Henry and everyone else behind. She belonged here, with all the people who she had hated all her life, but now was her family, even the annoying dwarfs who she sometimes considered going all evil queen on, was her family. And nothing could change that.
She watched as Robin turned around taking his son in one arm and Marian in the other. And even it this was the most horrible thing she had ever had to watch. Somewhere inside of her she was happy that at least he'd have his family. He might be in love with her, but he'd move on. He'd start loving Marian and they'd be happy and that was all she wanted for him. And maybe just maybe, she'd find happiness too.
After a little while she took up the piece of paper with her and Robin on it. She smiled slightly before ripping it. She had to forget him, had to move on and she knew even small things like this would keep her unhappy.
As she walked towards the car she let go of the paper and with it her past. She'd never be able to let go of her love towards him, but she'd have to let go of the past if she wanted a future.
Present time:
Regina smashed the alarm with a big sigh. She was way too tired for this. Maybe she shouldn't have gone to that bar with Emma and Ruby anyways. She should have stayed home, said no to their pleading and definitely not have let herself be talked into it by Henry. "Mom you know how much it means to me that you and Emma spend time together. And it'll be fun. We will be fine for one night at Snow's and we will stay there for a few days so you can relax okay?" He had said. And he was right, and if they had been in another universe and the sun had shined a little brighter this morning, she might even have admitted it too. She had been so stressed out lately. Had so much to do and she had enjoyed a little time off. She had fun with them. And sometimes having a little fun didn't harm. She hadn't had much time to have fun in forever.
After 5 more minutes of enjoying the warmth of the bed, she got up and took a quick shower. Throwing her hair in a towel. It was 8 in the morning and she absolutely hated that she had said yes to becoming mayor again at this hour in the morning. This might not have been her curse, but it was her town and she had created it. Created every building, every personality and she'd rather die than watch Snow fail her job.
When she heard a knock on the door she threw a dress over her head covering her bare body. She ran down the stairs and opened the door.
"Little John," She greeted with a smile stepping aside so the man could come in. He nodded and walked in like he was used to. "What can i do for you at this early hour my friend?" Regina asked walking into the kitchen starting the coffee machine.
"Nothing special, I just wanted to see how you were doing, haven't heard from you in a few days," He said walking into the kitchen too. Regina laughed. She loved how good friends her and little John had become in the last year. At first it was a good way for her to always have a little piece of Robin near her, but now she just enjoyed his company. And he hers.
"Oh well I am doing fine, a little bit of a hangover, you?" She asked and poured some coffee up in two cups, giving one of them to him.
"Mm, heard you were at the bar last night. How did that go? And I'm doing fine. The men and I found a clue," He said. Regina listened closely at mention of a clue. "I was helping Belle out with something and I found some kind of box thing. It was round and had some sort of start on it. I don't know if it had anything to do with the writer of your book, but it is for sure magical," He said.
"Hmm. I'll look up on that when I am off from work. And the bar thing. Went better than i expected. Thought I must warn you drinking with a werewolf... very bad idea." she joked lighting the mood a little.
"Could imagine that." He said. "I was actually wondering what you are doing later? the men and I are having a small get together at camp and we'd love for you to join." He said. "You don't have to drink if you are not up for a second round," He teased with a wink that made her chuckle.
"I'd love to," She said with a smile and took a sip of her coffee.
The rest of the day went by slowly. It felt like the hours were taking twice the time to go. And the paperwork kept coming in. And it was ridiculous what people were complaining about. Wanting hotter water, bigger supermarkets or cheaper prices at granny's witch Regina could do nothing about. She had already spent hours trying to come up with a good budget that kept them from more taxes and would still let the town be as good as it was.
Finally when the clock reached 8:00 pm. Regina left the office, she hurried home and hoped she'd have time enough to take a nice bath before she had to go to the merry men camp. But at the time she reached her house it was 8:45 pm.
damn traffic and damn stupid people blocking the road. She murmured to herself as she changed into something nicer. She was wearing a red dress that clutched to her body. And over it a black long cardigan, cause even though they were in the summer time it was cold outside at night and she couldn't afford to become sick now. She had too much work and Henry had a big soccer balls game coming up that she didn't want to miss for the world. She had been so proud when he had told her he wanted to start going to a sport. Those things had never interested him, but it seemed he was having fun and she liked to think he had just a bit of normality in his life. Apart from having two mothers with magic and a grandmother WHO are Snow White herself.
"Regina come to the diner it's very important," Emma said as soon as Regina picked up.
"Okay, I'll be there in a moment," she said and hung up. She did not have time for this at all. But she knew that Emma wouldn't call her and demand something like that unless it was important, and it could be about Henry or magic or the town and she needed to do this. She'd just have to be a little late for the get together.
"Hallo Little John?" Regina said as she called him up trying to concentrate on the road in front of her.
"Regina hey, when are you coming?" John asked. She could hear some music in the background and people talking and laughing having all the fun she desperately wanted to have too.
"Emma just called, I need to go to the dinner, it is important. I'll call you as soon as I am on my way okay?" She said as she parked the car in front of Granny's.
"Sure, I'll see you later. Hope everything is okay," He was sounding a bit concerned.
"I'm sure it is, I'll call you," She said and hung up while entering the dinner with a little smile that faded as soon as she caught the tension in the atmosphere. She looked around quickly finding Emma's worried eyes.
"What's wrong? Are they alright? Did something happen?" Regina asked so fast that her mouth went dry and her nerves started to bubble up. Had she been a bad mother? She shouldn't have gone out drinking. Shouldn't have listened to Henry.
"You should probably see for yourself," Emma said. And started walking towards the hall to the apartments. Regina followed her without hesitating.
When they got out to the hallway Regina gasped. In front of her was Robin Hood, the man she had said goodbye to, the man she had been hurting over so many times. He was sitting on a chair holding an ice pack to his face. Regina didn't know how to react. It wasn't possible for him to be there. He couldn't come back once leaving the town.
"Robin…" Regina whispered not sure if to believe this or not. Robin looked up at her and her heart sank in her chest, she could see he was confused. He looked terrible. Defeated, sad, tired and pretty beat up. "What happened?" She asked looking at Emma now.
"He came into the dinner. He doesn't remember coming here, or leaving either. The only thing he remember is that he lived in California with his wife and son," Emma said. And Regina nodded. Of course he didn't remember, that was what the curse did. Why did she even think so in the first place?
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