A/N Hey guys! This is my first story, it is Jasper/Bella so please give it a chance. I'm putting a song at the end of every chapter that relates so check out the song if you like or just read the lyrics(: Please review, it really means a lot!

Disclaimer- I do not own Twilight, or any characters and I do not own any song artists and/or song lyrics.

Bella POV

I thought we were ok. I thought we were happy. I thought we were in love. But all happiness and love flew out the window when he told me.

"Bella, we need to talk." Edward said, motioning for me to sit down.

"What is it?" I asked after I got myself situated.

He looked at me, his golden eyes, fading to black ever so slightly. I shivered.

"Bella…" He held my hands tightly and his mouth was set in a tight grimace. "Bella, please remember I will always love you."

"This is about Jacob isn't it?" I blurted out. A flash of confusion went through Edward's face before he looked down. "Well I don't chose him. I chose you! I don't care if Jake is better for me, because I love you Edward, I chose you!"

"Well, I don't chose you…" He whispered.

"What?" I couldn't have heard the words he just said…I couldn't have had…

"Bella…" he looked back at me, "I don't choose you, I choose…" He trailed off, not leaving my eyes.

"Who?" I asked, barely audible to my own ears.

"Alice." He said, still looking at me, as I took in what he said. The absolute love of my life, loved not me, but my best friend in the whole world.

I took my hand away from his, and stood quickly, maybe a little too quickly, because the room was suddenly spinning, and then Edward had pulled me back on my couch.

I began to hyperventilate.

"When?" I asked in between breaths.

"A little bit after you came to Italy."

My eyes bulged. "That was over 3 months ago!"

"Bella, I'm sorry, I—" I cut him off while standing and backing away from him.

"You proposed to me! I said yes!"

"I know Bella, I thought that if marriage came sooner, my feelings for Alice would go away, but they didn't. She told me that if I didn't break it off with you soon, that she would leave, and Alice just can't leave me, so I-"I didn't hear the rest that he had said. I just thought about the one sentence…

Alice just can't leave me…

I turned from the living room and left out the front door. I went down the driveway, suddenly grateful that Charlie had gone out fishing with Billy. I expected Edward to stop me but he didn't. I got in my ancient truck and started it, leaving the driveway. I had no idea where I was planning on going, so maybe it was better that way. I'll just drive.

I was surprised I hadn't started crying yet, but maybe it was because of the shock of it all. How could Edward do this to me? How could Alice do this to me?

I focused on the road I was mindlessly driving on, and my breath caught in my chest. I took two hollow breaths before traveling down the all-too-familiar road.

Esme and Carlisle were already at the front with worried faces when I pulled in.

"Bella? Sweetie, are you alright?" Esme asked as I got out.

"Where is Edward?" Carlisle asked.

"Uhh, he's….I'm….we're just…" I didn't know how to explain the situation and the pain I felt right then.

We went inside, and right after we did, Alice came rushing in, Jasper in her tow. In vampire speed, she came to me.

"Bella? What are you doing here? I thought you were with Edward." She asked innocently.

I blinked, and thought quickly about the way she entered. She was pulling Jasper, and Jasper looked…annoyed? Come to think of it, every time I saw Alice and Jasper together, Alice was always leading, and Jasper was always in the shadows. I felt sorry for the pain Jasper was about to receive when he found out, because I was ready to tell Carlisle and Esme why I was here, and what Edward had told me.

Then, I saw Alice get a far off look in her eye, and Jasper came over to her side, obviously, giving her calm with his empathy. When Alice came back to reality, she smiled apologetically at Jasper and then looked at me.

"Please don't tell…" She whispered, so only I could hear her. Her eyes said sincerity, but the true feeling was hidden in lies. What lies, I wasn't sure.

"Why shouldn't I?" My voice shook.

Edward came in just then and I could feel the tension rise.

"Fine, I won't tell. You will." I was starting to feel dizzy.

Alice stared at me in disbelief and Edward looked at the floor, ashamed. Rosalie and Emmett entered from upstairs and everything started to happen in slow motion.

Alice looking at Jasper.

Alice kissing his cheek, with no feeling.

Alice going over to Edward.

Them holding each other.

And then they said the words.

"We're together and in love."

Out of nowhere, a sharp pain, like a knife being stabbed through my stomach, came. It felt like it was eating me alive, and I felt like I couldn't stand anymore. I leaned on the table next to me for balance, and grabbed my stomach as to hold myself together.

I looked up towards Jasper, to see his reaction, when out of nowhere he picked me up, and in a blink carried me upstairs to a room I had never been in before.

"Bella, darlin' would you like to stay here for the time being? Charlie would no doubt be scared out of his mind if he saw any reaction out of you because of this…situation."

I nodded my head numbly and he smiled a very weak smile before he left. I lay down on the bed, and cried myself to sleep.

"Bella? Bella darlin' wake up." My tear stained eyes fluttered open and I saw Jasper over me.

"Esme made you some food, if you wanted some."

I shook my head no. "Tell her thank you though. I'm just not hungry."

He smiled weakly again, "Will do darlin'"

"How are you?" I asked.

"I've been better. But to tell you the truth, I saw this coming."

I was going to ask what he meant by that but then, involuntarily I yawned, and Jasper looked at me.

"Go to sleep darlin'."

"Where are…they?" I couldn't say their names.

"In Denali." He barely whispered it. "Your stuff is right over there." And with that, he left.

I shakily stood up, got some pajamas, and got in the shower, trying to take my time, but the hot water burned my shoulders and the steam was suffocating me. I got out and dried myself numbly with a towel before putting on a worn tee and shorts. Then I started digging through the bag Jasper brought and realized he had gotten my iPod. I cherished my music, and sometime when he wasn't there to sing to me, I listened to music.

I lay down, put the earphones in my ears, and hit shuffle. The song that came on was one of my favorites but after listening to the lyrics, I realized how close it was to what was happening to me. I hit replay, and began to cry, beginning my night of sorrow.

Lesley Roy Unbeautiful

Don't hang up,
Can we talk?
So confused
it's like I'm lost.
What went wrong?
What made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
this is me
I'm unchangeable.

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
from the start?
When you said
It's only you
I was blind
such a fool
Thinking we
were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
and you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I got to know
What made me unbeautiful.

I've been told
What's done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
I'm stuck in time
I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I got to know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
and you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cause I got to know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?

Cause I got to know
What made me unbeautiful
Made me unbeautiful...