This is a one shot for RobotIancornattack's Birthday!
HOPEFULLY THIS WONT MAKE YOU SAD ON YOUR B-DAY!
Because it can be pretty sad I guess,
But it's what I felt like writing.
Hopefully you enjoy!
I can never figure out my feelings.
One moment I'm in love, and the next I give up.
My mind is bursting with emotions that I myself cannot lable.
My life is littered with secrets that no one knows,
Even not Anthony.
He is my best friend and yet he has no clue,
That I'm Gay.
Filming has gotten more complicated lately, with all my emotions flying around,
I try to stay focused on the video game, but the guy next to me makes that near to impossible.
David.
He confuses me so much that I stay up thinking about him all night.
His smile,
His beautiful big brown eyes,
I can stare in them forever, well, till he notices me, then I look away.
I don't want him to know, yet I want him to be mine.
But he can't be.
He is married happily, he is going to have a kid soon, his life is happy and perfect,
if he knew, his life would be flipped, dug up from the ground and buried again.
If his relationship got ruined he will have a hard time,
and what I want most is for him to be happy.
He is happy.
And that's what I care about.
So I guess that means,
I will give up,
Because I want him to be happy,
Even if I'm not.
Hopefully this is not too sad!
It's just what I feel like Ian is thinking lately.
Sorry if that was really short!
-Time-