Angel by my side

In this life we all search for something. Something good and something so pure. I believe if you find that one thing you must fight. Then you will be sure. Could it be I have found angel? I can see heaven in your eyes. In my soul I never will be lonely. There will be an angel by my side.

Alice sat on the end of hers and Jasper's bed. Edward had just left to take Bella home. She sighed loudly Jasper still hadn't come back to the house yet. She wanted to follow him but restrained herself when she had a vision of him leaving if she tried to talk to him.

She lied down on the bed and tried to calm herself. She knew that Jasper blamed himself enough for attacking Bella tonight. He didn't need anymore guilt from her. She sat up slowly when she heard her husband's voice, "Alice…."

Alice heard the heartbreak in Jasper's voice and took his hand, "Come here Jasper."

Jasper shook his head, "I'll get the bed all wet."

Alice shook her head, "I don't care about the bed. Come here."

Jasper looked confused but complied. Alice wrapped her arms around his skinny form and rested her head on his chest. Jasper could feel the love coming off his wife in large waves. He smiled but it didn't reach his eyes, "Alice….."

Alice put a finger to her husband's lips, "Don't talk."

Jasper didn't argue. Eventually Alice said in a soft voice, "Jazz you need to get up."

Jasper rested his chin on top of Alice's head an reluctantly let her go, "I love you Alice."

Alice smiled, "I love you to. Now Grab yourself a pair of sleeping pants and shirt. I'm going to run you a warm bath. You'll feel better once you get the blood and dirt off you."

Jasper didn't say anything. He turned his back on his wife and sat on the bed. Alice dropped what she was doing and sat on the bed beside him, "Jasper? Jazz? Honey what's the matter?"

Jasper spoke in a soft voice, "I almost killed her. Once drop of blood and I lost control. I'm a monster."

Alice wrapped her arms around Jasper, "Stop right there. Jasper Whitlock you are not a monster. You are the strong, sensitive, caring vampire that I married. It was an accident. Bella understands that. She told me to let you know it wasn't your fault. She forgives you."

Jasper snuggled into his wife's arms breathing in her scent. Alice sighed contently, "Feel better love?"

Jasper nodded and pulled back from the hug slowly, "I think I'm going to take a bath. Will you wait for me?"

Alice stood up on her tiptoes and kissed her husband, "Of course. I just need to put clean sheets on the bed. I love you Jasper. You are my angel."

There were times I never I'd make it. Never dreamed I'd find someone like you. To be there when things are at the darkest. Watching over everything I do. Could it be that I have found an angel? I can see heaven in your eyes. In my soul I never will be lonely. There will be an angel by my side.

When Jasper exited the bathroom he was in a pair of soft pajama bottoms and a long sleeve checkered shirt. Alice sat up and just stared at him. Then she opened her arms to him, "Hey Jazz."

Jasper felt the love come off his wife as he snuggled into her arms, "I could stay like this forever. When I was with Maria… I thought what she and I had was love; now I understand that this is love. I never thought I'd be here. Don't ever let me go. I know I don't have the best control; please don't leave me."

Alice pulled her husband's shaking body into her arms, "Jasper look at me."

Jasper looked into his wife's golden eyes. Alice squeezed his hand softly, "I'm not going anywhere. Jasper I love you. I would never leave you ever."

Jasper took a deep breath even though he didn't need to, "Alice….."

Alice hugged Jasper's body closer to her own, "I'm here."

Jasper could see the tears his wife wanted to shed. He wanted to make her pain go away. He kissed her gently, "Did I make you sad Allie?"

Alice lifted her head from her husband's shoulders, "No. Edward did. He's going to want to leave Forks in the morning. I had a vision. Jasper this is going to break Bella's heart."

Jasper sighed, "Alice maybe this is for the best…."

Alice broke down sobbing, "Jasper you just spent five minutes begging me not to leave you. I want you to put your self in Bella's place for a minute. If I left you how would you feel? If I told you I didn't want you how would you feel? If I told you that you weren't good enough for me; how would you feel?"

Jasper kissed his wife's cheeks, "It would hurt the devil. Without you I would have no reason to be alive."

Alice nodded, "That is why we can't leave her Jasper. You and I need to stay so we can help lessen the pain."

Jasper sighed, "Allie you truly are my angel. Bella is lucky to have a friend like you. I love you so much. Would you like to go for a hunt with me?"

Alice nodded, "You'll need your strength for school and then helping me take care of Bella. Let me change and then we can go."