Disclaimer- As Always Story is mine, but the characters sadly aren't, they are the property of the N.

Authors note- I was listening to the Lips of angel song by hinder, and this story just came to me, Its about that one person that you just can't let go, that you want to be with but for some reason you just can't be together. I always felt that if Spashley ever broke up,( lets hope not) they'd be that person for eachother, the person they just can't let go. Btw I will update my other story soon, Hope you guys like this one in the meantime.

Spencer's Pov

I pick up the phone, my dreams of another wasted day, without her by my side, another wasted night without her in my reach, wishing I could feel her in my sleep intterupted. I'm breathless as I mumble a slight "Hello", my voice is laced with sleep, It's three in the morning afterall. As breathless as I might of been, my breath still hitched in my throat when I heard the husky reply" Spence." She says my name, not as a question, she called me, Its as though she said it just for mere pleasure, I almost think she knows what her saying my name does to me, what its done for me before, what it still does.

Still, I can't understand why she does this to me, why she calls me in the dark of night, when it isn't her body thats keeping me warm or her lips I just kissed. What will it take to get over her, when will she not huant me in broad day light, the memories just won't fade, As far as she may be from me, I can feel her with me constantly.I Just close my eyes and the story of our life plays out in my head, like a movie you can't turn off a song that never ends.

"Yes... Is something wrong Ash?" I have to ask, I always do when she calls me seemingly out of nowhere, despite are past I would do anything for her help her in anyway, and she knows that.

" I just wanted to hear your voice" I can't help when my eyes shut close, trying to hold back the tear the bitter-sweet tenderness in her voice envokes.

" Why do you do this to me Ash?"

" What do I do?"

" You call me, I haven't spoken to you in a month, you call me in the middle of the night becuase you wanted to hear my voice..." I can't help but sound slightly bitter, I've missed her to much it seems.

She cuts me off " No I needed to hear you spence, not wanted, I needed it, I need you."

" You need me?"

" You know that I do, I always have".

"No I can't do this anymore" I shake my head even though I know she can't see me. " You have this effect on me, this hold and dammit you just won't let go."

" Do you want me to?" Her voice is low, tinged with confidence she knows the answer she always has

" No, Its just so unfair, to me, to you, to my girlfriend." I let that word hang in the air, almost wishing I wouldn't of said it, but knowing I had to.

" Fuck your girlfriend." I inwardly smile, ever the brash one, she never holds back her true feelings and in all truthfullness she hates my girlfriend.

"Shes the reailty Ash, you can't just ignore her, shes real and I love her..." The line went deadly silent for a moment, I couldn't even hear her breathe

" Do you love her like you love me?" I can't answer her, Its to painfull but she persists" Do you? Answer me, does she touch you like I do, do her lips feel like mine huh? Does she make love to you like I do?" She's being intrusive and I'm sure she knows, I know shes jealous, and somewhere in that part of me I hate it thrills me somehow.

I had to stop her " No" I whisper, and she sighs letting out a breath I didn't know she was holding." You want the truth, when you first said my name tonight, I felt more in that moment than I have for the last month with her." There it was the the raw truth, I had a habit of laying it all out for her, so I could watch her shatter my heart into a million pieces i guess.

" You don't know how happy that makes me." I can almost hear her, smiling over the phone.

" Happy? Your happy? well I'm glad for you, do you want to know how I am ashley do you?" I wait for the answer she never gives so i continue

" I'm fucking misearable Ashley, I can't even have a real realationship with anyone, she smiles I compare it to yours, she laughs, she sings, she moans and dammit I compare it to you, and everytime she loses...every damn time." I'm angry now, not as much at her as I am at myself, I have no control.

" I'm happy that she pales in comparsion to me but I'm not Happy,I haven't been... since well you know how long its been.You know I feel the same, God pales in comparsion to you spence, In my eyes, in my mind its you everytime." I'm sitting up on the bed, sleep long forgotten, I shove my hand in my hair.

" Why'd you really call me ashley?" I have to switch the path of this conversation, its going nowhere good fast.

" I already told you"

" No besides that"

" I'm coming into town tomorrow and I want... I want to see you"

" You know thats a bad Idea."

" What is baby?" I'm not sure if she let that slip, or if she meant to say it but none the less, it sent a tingling sensation right through me.

" Us seeing eachother, the same thing happens everytime." And it does, everytime, I see her from the moment where she first holds me close to her in a hug till she leaves again, I forget the past, the reality of our situation and most importantly I forget I have a girlfriend.

"Exactly" She laughs, and I can't help but let the warmth spread over me, I love her laugh, so full and throaty, its the second most beautiful sound in the world to me the other one involving her in a much less innocent way.

" Its not funny Ash" I chide her

" I don't care If its a bad Idea Spence, I'm going to be at that airport tomorrow and I hope your the first person I see when I step out of those gates, and If your a no show, You know I'll be knocking at your door... and if your not there..."

" Okay i get it, I'll be there." Could I refuse her of anything, apparently not.

" Looking forward to it spence." And the line went dead, and so did my heart.

TBC

Just laying the ground work for the story. R&R please thanks.