It's my turn on watch at the "Sunny Thousand" but I actually can't see anything as I start to stare the dark sky above my head with all the little sparkles of light that are stars.
My thoughts start to wonder around and finally reach that topic I can't stand thinking about.
I'm the captain of this amusing ship, I have my dream of becoming the pirate king, I have a wonderful crew with a lot of different dreams, and I surely love them all, they are important to me, even though I know that, lately I have been feeling different around my first mate, swordsman and best friend, I have deep feelings for him, I know what it is, but I can't accept them!
It's not possible I can't be in love with him, he's a guy, and I'm as well, he'll hate me if he founds out, I'll disgust him and he'll leave, I don't want him to leave me or the crew! He's important; he's part of this strange family!
One single tear starts to fall, I soon dry it away but as soon as I do that another appears, and then another follows, and soon enough I turn into a mess of tears and sobs.
I realize I'm crying for Zoro and the fact that I can't have him the way I want to have him.
I suddenly realize I actually have deep feelings and thoughts, and they are towards Zoro, a male, and a really masculine one.
-Why? – I sob and whisper quietly –why do I have to love him? – I continue my question
I actually hope no one can hears me, I don't want anyone knowing I'm gay or something similar, I don't want anyone to be disgusted by me.
I hear some quit steps approaching me, but I can't stop my thoughts or my crying. Then the steps stop, and no one says anything, I guess it was just my imagination, but after some more minutes, I hear his voice, not any voice, Zoro's voice, and I jump a little.
-Luffy, is there something wrong? - I shook my head, but continue to cry. Why of all the people in this ship, why does he have to come and see me like this?
I was in a total shock; this is so fantastic. Screw sarcasm.