Claire's P.O.V:
It's all my fault. I should of told him but nooo...I had to obey Myrnin didn't I. I still remember last night clearly.
Flashback
"Mrynin I should start heading home soon it's getting late and I don't want Shane, Micheal and Eve to start panicking" I said to my crazy vamp boss Myrinin.
"Is it that late already?" Myrnin said and looked at his antique clock "Oh my so it is well I will see you tomorrow"
"Ok bye" Just as I went to pick up my backpack Frank Collins Shane's vampire,abusive,drunk,brain in a jar dad who Shane thinks is dead and buried but unfortunly no appeared infront of me.
"What?" I snapped.
"Nothing" Frank replied grinning he was seriously creeping me out.
"Have you told my son of what the crazy bloodsucker did with my brain?"
"Nope" I answered "and I hope it stays that way because if Shane finds out he...-" I started but suddenly stopped to a voice saying
"Because if Shane finds out what?" Oh no that's Shane's voice coming down the stairs, oh no Shane must of freaked out that I was home late and if he sees Frank...oh no...please no. But unfortunly Frank didn't make himself scarce as Shane appeared at the bottom of the stairs and the look on Shane's face made tears swell up in my eyes but I quickly blinked them away.
"D...DAD?!" Shane said.
"Hello son" Frank answered.
"Wha...what the hell?" Shane started.
"Your girl's crazy bloodsucking boss cut my brain out and stuck it in a jar so I could work the machine for the barries in Morganville."
"Did...did you know about this?" Shane asked as he turned to me. I gulped and swalloed hard deciding wether to lie to him or not but before I said anything Frank said
"Yes. Yes she did but I asked her not to say anything don't be mad at her I told her to keep it from you"
Shane didn't seem to listen to the last parts he just stared at me with a hurt/confused/anger look on his face and said
"you knew about this. you knew. you fucking knew about this and didn't bother to tell me!" he yelled at me. Frank and Myrinin decied to leave us alone. Tears spilled over my cheeks as I said
"Shane please...I'm sorry I know I should've told you but...-"
I was cut off by Shane shouting
"It's over. your a liar Claire I thought you were better than that I...I can't ...I can't be with someone like that we're done and don't think i'll come around in the morning cause I won't" He started back up the stairs I shouted up to him
"Where...where are you going?" I shouted after him
"Home. i'll see you there and if you get bitten by a vamp don't expect me to come running to the rescue because I just won't fucking care!" Shane shouted back. and after I here the door slam I collaposed to my knees and started crying with my head in my hands and I didn't notice Frank and Myrinin had come back into the room
"I'm so sorry Claire I should of made myseld scarce when Shane appeared" Frank said. I didn't amswer him and then I felt Myrinin's hand on my shoulder as he said "Would you like a lift home?" I didn't care if Myrinin was the worlds worst driver aslong as he drove me home so I nodded and Myrinin drove me home.
"CB! what's up?" Eve called to me.
"Nothing. I'm having an early night to night"
"Oh ok, when Shane comes back do you want me to send him to your room?" She asked me with a wink she obouvisly didn't know so I just sighed and just shook my head and as I headed towards the stairs Micheal flashed over to me
"Claire what's wrong? did you and Shane have a bust up?" Micheal said concerned.
I sighed and said "I dont know. He told me we were over and that's it"
" !?" Eve and Micheal shouted at me
"Why?" Eve asked.
"Cause I lied to him about his dad not being quite dead as he thought. Myrinin put Franks brain in a jar to replace Ada"
They both stared at me in disblieve
"He dosen't mean it CB" Eve said giving me a hug
"Ur...yeah he does he said he won't change his mind" at that moment Shane walked in he saw me and he gave me disgust look and said
"well I see you've not been drained what a pity" he said it with a nasty tone and edge to it I felt tears again and ran to my room to hear Micheal, Eve and Shane shouting downstairs Micheal and Eve were sticking up for me although I don't see why and Shane was going on about how his life will be better without a lying bitch and that he already text Laura to go out on a date with him tomorrow night so he has already moved on.
End of flashback
I had my ipod on it's dock (speakers) and it played random songs as I packed my bag I couldn't stay here no more so I was moving back in with my parents and hopefully out of this stupid mother fucking town. One song did make me stop I checked my ipod to see it was Kesha's song dancing with tears in my eyes and it described this situation I was in. I had just finshed writng my goodbye note for Micheal and Eve and if he wanted to read it Shane.
Here we go,
welcome to my funeral,
without you,
I don't even have a pulse,
without Shane I don't feel like living and this really feels the end of me.
all alone,
it's dark and cold,
with every move I die,
I have no one who loves me like Shane did my dark and empty cold room is where I belong every move I make feels like death
here I go,
this is my confessional,
a lost cause,
nobody can save my soul,
I am so delusional,
with every move I die.
I am a nobody always was and always will be I can't think straight.
(talking bit)
I have destroyed our love is gone,
payback is sick it's all my fault.
I have ruined mine and Shane's realtionship our love is gone because of me and if this is payback then I deserve it badly.
(Chrous)
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes,
just fighting to get through the night,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it),
with every move I die,
I'm faded,
i'm broken inside,
i've wasted the love of my life,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
with every move I die.
I started to wander round my room crying constently, I couldn't sleep last night, i'm losing my mind, I feel faded and broken inside I took Shane's love for granted.
When did I become such a hypocrite?,
double life,
lies that you caught me in,
trust me i'm paying for it,
with every move I die.
I was living a double life between my fantasy world with Shane and the realaity on with the awful truth and I am paying for it
on the floor,
i'm just a zombie,
who I am is not who I wanna be,
i'm such a tragedy,
with every move I die.
I curl up on the floor never wanting to get up and all I can think about is my happy memories with Shane which hurt even more. This is not the Claire I am and I reallly don't want to be this Claire but I can't help it.
(talking bit)
I have destroyed our love is gone,
payback is sick it's all my fault.
(Chrous)
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes,
just fighting to get through the night,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it),
with every move I die,
I'm faded,
i'm broken inside,
i've wasted the love of my life,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
with every move I die.
Woah oh oh,
this is it i'm rally gone this time,
woah oh oh,
never once thought i'd be in pieces left behind.
Me and Shane are over forever and not ever have I ever thought if us breaking up never.
(Chrous)
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes,
just fighting to get through the night,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it),
with every move I die,
I'm faded,
i'm broken inside,
i've wasted the love of my life,
i'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
with every move I die.
When I stopped crying I suddenly realised what I had to do I changed the note and I went into the bathroom and grabbed about 10 different pills and went back in to room and swalloed them all then to end the pain quicker I grabbed my pen knife and cut my wrists first the make a small slit in my neck and then I said
"Goodbye world i'll be up there soon. goodbye, Eve, Micheal and Shane and mum and dad i'm sorry but I have to it's the only way to live with it" and then I plunged the knife into me and I collaposed and everything went dark.
Eve P.O.V:
Shane's such a dumbass at times he'll regret this he really will he said he's going out with Laura and probley stay the night with her (way too much info but nevermind) Claire hasn't come out of her room all night so after Shane went on his date I left Micheal downstairs playing his guitar and go to check on Claire. I knocked on her door...no answer I try second and third time still no answer so I slowly turned the door knob.
"CB are you...-" I started and suddenly stopped as I saw her body curled up on the floor with a fucking pen knife stuck in her stomache. I screamed loudly
Micheal's P.O.V:
I can't believe Shane broke up with Claire I mean yeah she didn't tell him about Frank but come on he can't care about him after everything he did to him. I was playing my guitar and that's when I heared Eve scream I out down my guitar and raced upstairs at vamp speed, only to find Eve leaning over Claire's lifeless body that had a pen knife sticking out of her stomache. Oh no...no no no no no she killed herself. I went to Eve I gently moved her out the way and checked for a pulse...nothing she was gone I also notice that near her were 10 different pill bottle's oh god she must of taken these then stabbed herself.
"Eve." I said quietly." She gone"
"No." she said quietly "NO!" she then screamed I hug her and try to calm her down while she cryed heavely on my shoulder.
"shhh" I said after a few mintutes. "we need to call Shane" I said
"What?!" Eve said pulling away from me in shock
"Eve he has a right to know"
"No he fucking dosen't that's why she killed herself Micheal because he was over-reacting don't try and talk me out of this this is his fault he killed my Claire-bear and I will never forgive him for it"
As much as I hate to admit it she was right if Shane hadn't acted like a complete dick she would still be alive. but I still opened my cell and turning my back on Eve's daggers I speed dialled Shane.
Shane P.O.V.:
Claire lied to me. I had every right to know. I knew saying what a pity that a vamp didn't bite you was a lttile harsh but no i'm moving on with Laura we were at her house and we were getting really far all of our clothing off...well...all of her's anyway I still had my jeans on just as she was undoing them my phone started ringing.
"Leave it" Laura said agansit my lips
"I can't sorry" I reached over and it was Micheal I answered
"Hello" I snapped pretty mad at him but what he said completely knoked me off guard.
"Shane...Claire's dead she...she comitted sucide in her room by taking 10 different pills and also sticking a pen knife in her stomache."
My world came crashing down as I took in what he said
"I'll be right there" I said I shut my phone off and grab my black t-shit and socks and boots and put them on.
"Where are you going?" Laura asked
"Glass house emegency see you later"
"Why?" she started to whine which was getting on my nerves
"none of you fucking buisness" I snapped and left.
I ran all the way there and into Claire's room there she was curled up with a pen knife in her stomache and 10 differnent pill bottle's near her I gasped when I saw her body so still and not moving I slowly moved to her body and carefully picked her up.
Eve looked absouluty horrified to see me but she then found a piece of paper and as she read it her eyes widned "oh god" she said and passed it to Micheal who read it he was speechless
"What?" I asked Micheal passed the note to me I noticed it was from Claire and it read:
Dear Micheal, Eve and if you are reading this then you too Shane
I can't stay here anymore not after me and Shane broke up I was going to move out but this is a better way I can be free without pain. I couldn't cope without Shane I love him I still do and always will even after i'm gone I was going insane in my room I couldn't take it no more and I felt so alone I will take my own life after I finshed writing this letter I just finshed listening to a song by Kesha- dancing with tears in my eyes on my ipod and I realised I didn't deserve to live after lying to you three about Frank by the time you read this I will be dead.
Love Claire xxx
P.S. really gonna miss Eve's uneatable food hahaha xxx
I paused for a mintue she killed herself because of me. I pushed her too it without meaning to. This is my fault no wander Eve was giving me daggers I braced Claire's body against me as Micheal went to phone her parents and Eve phoned for an ambulance to take her away. I put her down and went to get her ipod and listend to the song she mentioned in her letter I held her while listening and as the song went on I realised she felt so guilty for no reason after the song finshed I held Claire close and whispered "I'm so sorry. I love you Claire forever and always"