A.N I think I might die inside writing this, but still gonna do it, I don't own Transformers, but I own the Oc.
The moment I said it
the moment I opened my mouth
lead in your eyelids
Bulldozed the life out of me
I know what you're thinking
But darling you're not thinking straight
Sadly things just happen... we can't... explain
~Imogen Heap 'The Moment I Said It'
The wind chilled my body as I walked, rubbing my hands on my upper arms to try and create some heat was failing miserably. It had been six months since the meetings stared, it was always in a run down motel. Some where no one would know. It was a secret, we were a secret.
I felt like I was breaking every time our eyes meet, the flare of lust in his, but love in mine. I was going mad. Falling deeper every time we meet, his warm hand against my cold cheek. This had to stop. Stopping at the peeling green door, I paused. This was the end.
The door opened without hesitation, but no light greeted me. Closing it behind me then leaning against it, his voice equal to the darkness.
"You came" I smiled knowing he would see it.
"I had too" The sound of movment to my right made me tense.
His skin so warm brushed off the cold wind from me. The touches were gentle, but dark. It was meaningless.
The soft touches went lower to grip my arms, pulling me in. I lost me mission, everything I was going to say vanished, with the kiss. He ment every thing to me, how could he not see this. I had falling so far.
The light fell through the tatted curtians as I woke. He slept soundly next me his body unguarded. Tracing the defind muscles he face twitched lightly. I smiled thinking back to last night, this was so perfect if you left out who we were and the background. Two people one in love, and one not.
I wonder know how I let this happen. Why I let him effect me so much, but I never have an awnser.
I wish he could tell me that he loved me, even if it's not true. I need to leave, but it was so hard, leaving him behind. We would continue this for how long I will never know, how long could we lie to everyone.
Both of us are destroying eachother, slowly with every meeting, every soft kiss before hand.
Make it stop.
The dam is over flowing with every lie.
"Sorry, Sam I can't help today, studing."
Please, make it stop.
I walk through the base laughing with Sam as he talks about the resent pranks pulled off by the twins. I meet your eyes and look away quickly, praying the feeling would go away. It never will go though.
"Tess, you ok?" Sam questions and I smile at him, saying "just hungry, lets go eat something that'll piss off Ratchet."
His warm hand brushes mine as Ironhide drives away from the base. We stop at my parents house and, He walks me to the door, Ironhide waiting. The Autobot can't see us from the road as we get to the door.
"Tess" His warm hand stopping mine from unlocking the door.
Our eyes meet and he leans in. Our lips meet, the kiss soft, no darkness in held in it as my arms wrap around his neck. Why does this hurt.
Parting my eyes closed, if I look, there would be no holding back anymore.
It's just the rainy season.