"It may feel so real inside,
but don't forget -- enjoy the ride."
- Just a Ride by Jem
No one remembers their first date. They all say they do and reminisce and retell the story but it's all overdramatized. But everyone always remembers that moment, the moment. When everything wasn't there anymore (but it was, for when you're in love you resort to cliches) but the two of them. So she remembers.
He didn't have silver eyes and didn't have a good jaw and that was perfect. Her hair was mocha (not blond) and she bit her fingernails and that was perfect. He was a member of the crowd and she was the mainstay in the crowd, he had become one of the men upon his Slytherin graduation and she was always one of the boys.
Though they don't remember it, their first date was boring; in Hogs Head within 49 minutes without a goodnight kiss. But then there was their moment, in the park during the sunrise on wet grass. And they fell into love like 'Meda and Lucius had years before and 'Cissa and Marius MacNair had many more years before.
And sometimes over the course of their relationship, they would hit their lows. The lemonade was to sour and her kisses were too fleeting and his hair was too long. Their house was too cold and their family was too old and the nights were too long.
Every couple has their problems and anyone who believes that you get a moment and then there's a happily ever after is sickly dissillusioned. She always thinks that it's not a manner of how big your fight is to measure your strength, but rather how strong you are can be told by how you recover from the fight. She thinks deep things like this to keep herself going.
They've done horrible things. Bad, dirty things that make her feel wrong and sick and frightening all at the same time, which makes her feel weak. And to her, weak is the worst - the lowest of lows. It makes her like a teeny child before Mummy reached her claws into her bassionette and she learned how to be a big girl. So he comes and makes her feel strong once more and able and free-standing and reassures her lost belief that what they are doing is right.
So there is a difference between the two of them falling in love like MacNair and Malfoy and 'Cissa and 'Meda, cos they last.
Author's note: claps for GOOD bella/rudolphus. they're in lurrrve. credits: random cd number 290 for the song quotes, she's a star for the first name 'marius' to macnair. and... theyre not senseless killers! uh not much to say. ::ponders:: long life toast! and down with gibson! carpe diem! (claps! latin!) and if i use an excalamtion point one more time i'm checking if my allergy medication is prozac in disguise.
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