Please, let me die.."

Said with a smile on his face the person I' ve ever cared the most. I was standing at the edge of 700m high skyscraper and tightly holding a hand of my older brother who was hanging there like a bag with old garlic which countryside people used against vampires in Middle Age. My tears were falling on my arm flowing down to my borther's hand.

,,This is the best for everyone. This song never lies."

He stabbed a little dagger in my hand and pushed me back. It hurt and by that shock I opened my hand. My last and only family was falling down where you cannot see the bottom. I heard only that violin melody which has been killing him for a long time.

I was just standing there wearing the black scarf which my brother gave and was dancing around me. I let it, I let it fly away, the same direction as my brother has fallen. When I couldn't see the scarf anymore I started to cry and scream, went down to my knees and covered my face with my hands.

Even my butler couldn't save him. My glorious best-friend and servant. But we can't have fun. In our world we must fight to survive and be the pride of our families which will be written in the history and deamon family records.

,,My lady, you will bleed out…"

I heard the voice of my butler and then I woke up.

Again, what kind of dream is this? Why do I have such feelings? I have no idea…I have never seen these people before. But I do remind the melody of the violin. It is strange. I used to hear this melody maybe when I was a little child. It is so beautiful but painful. More you listen to it, more your heart will open and show your true-yourself. Maybe that is why that guy couldn't take it and wanted to die.

,,This means that if you have a pure heart and mind, you cannot see your heart!"

I felt kind of happy that I found such important discovery about the pure or bad heart or soul or whatever this is. I was about to pass my mid-20s and still I was totally lost in my life. Everything's so messed up without any solution or trying to reach any personal target. I've been there and I've seen that…I am just a working person with no dreams. Of course my love life is also messed up so I try to make myself busy with reading, sleeping, cooking or meeting my friends.

I was just lying in my bed and hoping that I could fall asleep one more time but instead of getting more sleepy I had all those complicated thoughts in my mind and that started me to be depressed.

Deep breathe in, long breathe out..one..two..OK. Now I feel little relieved and try to sleep again. I think that it might have taken me 10 minutes to fall asleep again.

I have some strong feelings with my partner, Miki. But not as a lover, but partner which I have strong bond with. We are more like team to kill the bad guys and protect the innocent. Well mostly we just protect the pride of the family. He studies all night long or reads some records. He cannot and he doesn't have to sleep. Only when is full-moon, he disappears and comes back in the early morning. Still I don' t know what kind of deamon he is. He said that he used to have very beautiful fiancé, but he killed her because he didn't know what kind of power he had. Since that time he has been a lonely pilgrim like me. He must be very old but still looks totally fabulous! Well, he says I am quite old too just lost memory, but that's a total bullshit…I think that those dreams have some meanings but that doesn't mean that I am 1000 years old or something like that. He is very cold and strict with everybody. He never smiles and he sucked me in by his dark brown eyes. His hair is silk but strong. He is different from me and I am different from him. Rinrara says that he cares about me a lot that is why he is so cold. I am not sure he never opens to me so I really don't know who he is. I wanna know…

From other royal deamon family, her name is Lilithasha, she says that her father arranged a marriage with Miki. Miki never accepted, but she sometimes acts like they are a couple and that freaks me out. Sometimes we must go for a dinner to her house because her father invites us. She always sits next to him and I am as farther as it can be. She touches him, feeds him, hugs him. He doesn't resist. But he ever let me hug him or he never hugged me. I have been in this household for more than one year now.

,,I cannot accept her! Get rid of her, Miki sama!"

she always blames any of my movement. I am always kind to her and she makes her servant from me.

,,You should shut your cute mouth. Airi is one of the most royal family ever!"

protects me Rinrara all the time.

,,It's fine. I want to finish the book you gave me anyway, Rinrin."

I smiled at my little buddy, took book lying on the table in the right corner of the room and left upstairs for our balcony with view to an old graveyard. I know maybe it sounds creepy, but only there I can calm down and relax.

,,MIKI!"

Rinrara was jumping around him full of anger.

,,Good, she knows her place. In our world everybody hates her kind anyway. Miki sama, let's go for a date. If you would be a good boy, I' ll give you myself."

Lilithasha wanted to kiss him on the cheek but she missed.

,,Lilithasha, please finally understand that I will never accept this marriage. I am nice to you because of your father. Please don't take it wrong. It is getting late I will escort you to your mansion."

He said calmly with no feelings or expression and offered his arm to the young beautiful lady in white. She didn't say anything. Just a sigh and hang on his arm.

I just opened the glass door of our balcony. The fresh air is very nice every time. Doesn't matter if it's cold or hot. Well, I don't like hot weather at all, so I prefer to go out in the evening during summer season. I took a seat in the right corner of the balcony and started to read my book. It was kind of old and forbidden. The human world has changed a lot again. Well, I mean our rules within the human world. I am human but THEY, those weirdos downstairs, say that I am not human.

If I am not human, why there is no butler for me like in my dreams. I wish I had one..he would be nice and kind to me. Stay by my side till the very end…

These things telling me that in my dream I might have been in love with him. I remember that I always had to make over his tie, he was very skillful but regarding his tie…that reminds me that those moments….

,,Sorry about that stupid kid…." Miki appeared all of sudden in the opened glass doors with tea set looking somewhere else but not at me.

,,I don't mind…she does this for you because she…" I wanted to finish my sentence but he put loudly the tea set on the table in the middle of balcony and I looked at him.

Tie?! He is wearing? I've never noticed…! And it is wrong..why does he have a tie when he is unable to….I don't care and continued reading.

,,You don't have to tell me…I am more than aware of what is going on. It's a pain in ass…really sorry, Airi.." said Miki still looking somewhere else than me. I was so surprised, he doesn't call me by my name a lot still I didn't say anything.

,,Just for the record, why did you stare on my tie so much?"

,,No, I didn't …well, it is messed up. Is it on purpose?" finally I looked into his eyes.

,,Hmmm, it is a habit. My lady used to make it over for me. I know actually how to do, but I did it on purpose because she came so close to me always and I could feel her warm and fragrance. Once she is back, she will do for me and I can give myself to her. There are no rules anymore so I am not her servant anymore…" he said while he was also reading a book but in his case some history.

His lady? Did for him? On purpose? To get closer? All these things couldn't leave my mind to concentrate. Then it happened…

I stood up and went to him, I bent down and took his tie into my hands started to make it over. It was so natural and I felt like I've done this so many times. I liked it and I was so close to him. I felt the weak wind of his breath on my hair. When I finished it I put my hands on his chest and looked up. He had so surprised eyes, I had tears in my eyes.

,,I don't know why I…" I started to explain my selfish behavior but he pushed me to his way and hugged me very tight. This was the first time. I cried so many times but he never saw me.

,,Why did you make me wait so long time?..." he whispered into my ears.

,,I have no idea what are you doing or what are you saying." I pushed him aside and ran to my seat again. My heart was beating really fast and strong pressure started to gather in my head.

"やっぱりお前だ。ずっと待ってたけど、お前は嬉しくじゃないみたい。どうした？(So it is you. I have been waiting so long time..what's up? You don't seem to be happy?)"he started to speak in language I' ve never heard but I understood him.

"これはなんなの？誰！？(What is going on and who are you!?)"I started to feel fear but I did my best not to show and just followed him.

"記憶がまだ戻ってないかあ。これで分かると思ったけど。じゃあ、これで絶対分かる。(Still your memory is not back? I thought you would finally understand. So you will understand by this .)"he said and I was getting excited more and more. He came to me and I started to pucker my lips. Just like a little girl waiting for her first kiss. Then I noticed that he was taking off my right shoe! Is he going to..a lot of thoughts on my mind and I loved it more and more! He took off my sock.

"Aah.." I sighed little loud out. He looked at me with a creepy smile and then he started to lightly tickle my feet. I bit my lower lip and my fingers formed into wrist. I really cannot resist. It tickles as hell but I like it so much. All the excitement goes through my feet to my head. I know it might sound kind of disgusting but each of us has one spot which makes you fly on a little white cloud.

"気持ちいい？(Do you like it?)"he asked and changed to my other leg. I couldn't say a word because if I did I would jump on him…I just enjoyed the moment till he stopped. When he stopped I opened my eyes watching him putting on my socks and shoes.

,,No change at all, just your little ugly feet but I like it. I always did…" he went back to his seat wanting to continue reading. I was still kind of shocked.

,,Something is wrong?" I could hear his voice behind the book he was holding in front of his face.

,,No…no! I am fine…thanks." I replied and tried to concentrate on my book too. After 10 minutes I gave up and started to stare at the graveyard.

,,It is so quiet, isn't it? It makes me calm. OK, so I am going to take shower and to bed." I took my stuff and was about to leave but Miki stood up and got in my way.

,,Can I come today?"he whispered again.

,,What do you mean? We are living here. You can go wherever you want. I am hungry so good night." I ignored his eyes and closed the glass doors behind me.

What is this all about? Why does he want to come to my room? Does he want to tell me something more? I will lock and sleep.

So I decided.