(A/N) So I got this idea from a television show I was watching last night and thought 'well I haven't written a story in a while so I'll do this'

-I know I have a story that still isn't finished but I have hit a writer's block on that one, but ill get back to it (eventually).

-I do not own Big Time Rush! Sadly.

-I will be rating this T just be on the safe side. Not really sure what this story may contain in the future. If there is even going to be a future. So we will have to see.

Chapter 1- Back Then

James and I have been together for a little while now. 1 year 4 months and 3 days to be exact, but who's counting. Anyway it hasn't been the easiest, it took quite sometime for the both of us to convince my brother that this was what we both wanted and that there wasn't anything he could do or say. We were going to be together with or with out his approval. Not that I felt I needed his approval but because I respected him, I wanted him to know. Then there was my mother. She really didn't like it at first either but her only reason was because we lived together and our rooms were only feet away from each other. So she had serious ground rules that she had set in place; no sleeping in each others rooms, when we were in a room the door had to be open, and then the obvious, no sex. Well duh Ma, I'm only 17 and he is 20 so as of now, that is illegal.

I have been in love with James since I was about ten. I always thought he was the cutest of the three other boys. He was always nice to me, not that the other guys weren't nice too but he was the nicest. He would try to include me in everything the guys did. And I liked that. I was very close to him, almost as close as I was with my brother. If I had a problem I went to him and if he had a problem he came to me. Then on my seventeenth birthday he came to me and told me exactly how he felt. And I knew I felt the same way. So it was pure bliss from then on. We were so in love with each other it was almost sickening. I thought I was going to be with him for the rest of my life... But that one unforgettable day happened and that's when everything changed. EVERYTHING!

Big Time Rush was on the rise and was getting bigger and bigger by the minute. They had two albums out and were set to go on their first headlining tour. They were doing great and I was beyond proud of all four of them, Their dreams were coming true and everything seems to be falling into place for them. For me, well for me it was always about getting my education and being the little sister of Kendall Knight. That never bothered me, not at all. I was happy for them and honestly, being famous was not my dream. I wanted no parts of that. I was perfectly happy living in the shadows. They knew exactly what they were going to be doing for the better part of there lives and there wasn't anything that anyone was going to do or say that was going to change that. They were living the life and were happy with that. And that's why I had to make the unforgettable decision to pack up everything and leave without a minute's pause and never look back.

~~The day before my life was turned upside down~~

I was sitting on my bed, not feeling that great. These last few days I have been so tired and I can't seem to keep anything down. I went into the bathroom to look for some tums or something to maybe settle my stomach. I opened the doors under the sink and that when I saw the box of tampons. When was my last period? I thought to myself. I ran back to my bedroom, went to my calendar. My period should have started 3 weeks ago! I brought my hand to my mouth. There is no way on Gods green earth that I am pregnant, we were always careful. ALWAYS. This has got be a mistake. I needed to go get a test and I needed to get it fast. I got a taxi to take me to a drug store an hour away so that no one would recognize me. I went back to 2J and went straight to the bathroom. Thank goodness no body was home. I took three tests. After a few minutes I went to them to see the results. "I'm pregnant" I almost screamed that. I had no clue what I was going to do. How was I going to tell James. His career was just now starting to take off. It would not be fair for me to bombard him with this. It would ruin everything. I can't get an abortion though. I could never and would never do that. I have no clue what Im going to do. I hear someone come into the apartment. "Katie! Are you in here?" It was my mother. I ran out of the bathroom and straight into her arms. "Honey, Whats wrong? Are you OK? Are you hurt? Katie talk to me! Your scaring me?" I just cried and cried in her arms when finally I could talk. I told her that I was pregnant and that I didn't want to tell anyone not even James because it would ruin his life and his career would be over and I couldn't do that to him. She tried to convince me that it would not be like that but I knew it would. I then asked her if maybe it would be a good idea if I just left and went back to Minnesota to live Grandma Gene? "Mom it would be ideal. I would not have to tell anyone anything. I can just leave and when they ask where I am you can just say that you don't know and that I just needed to get away. And hopefully James will move on and forget about me." My mom looked at me and said, "Honey I don't think that is a good idea. I think you should just sit down with James and tell him everything. It doesn't have to be like this. And as far as moving on and forgetting about you, it wont happen. You are only going to break that boy's heart into a million pieces. And what about your brother and the other guys. You can't just walk out of their lives. And what about me, I don't want you to go. Honey I think you should sleep on it and think about this before you make any rational decision. OK?" "OK!" I said to her knowing that I wasn't going to think about it. I was leaving LA and was moving in with my grandmother. I was going back to Minnesota.

The next morning when everyone woke up I was gone.