Hello there, it's been a while since I've written any form of fiction, and I had a little bunny jumping around for a while now. I don't know completely how I'm going to go about this story, so reviews and tips would be gratefully appreciated.
This is going to be a multi chapter story, hopefully anyway, and will be completely AU. The story has its own timeline and ages, yes, I'm going to make Obi wan a lot younger than he is in order to make the story work. Anakin will be roughly the same age, Ahsoka a little older.
So without further adieu.
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Anakin Skywalker stood fuming at his former Master. He screwed his eyes shut, taking the deep breaths that were supposed to calm him down, but only succeeded in irritating him more. "This is all your fault, why couldn't you just stay out of way." Obi wan blinked in annoyance, folding his arms over his chest as Anakin prattled away in accusations over who was to blame in their recent loss. "How could it be my fault Anakin, it's not as if I knew what the Separatists were planning. If I had, this problem would not have occurred, would it?" Anakin snarled back his reply, eyes flashing with an intense rage Obi wan had rarely seen. "I wouldn't be surprised if you were on their side. You always screw up in battles, and personally, you've probably killed off more of your own men in stupid planning than the Separatists have. I bet you are with the separatists, everything you do has led to one defeat after the other, you are letting the Separatists win. It's your fault this entire operation has failed. If you had just listened to me…"
Obi wan blinked in surprise, "Anakin, don't you dare say anything like that again, I may have had a fault in the planning, I will admit that. But do not say I have aligned myself with the Separatist cause. I will never throw my allegiance to Republic away, regardless of what you may believe." Anakin smirked, then let out a sarcastic laugh. "I'm sure the Jedi Councils pet is loyal, the perfect Jedi would never so much as dream to think for himself, you are merely a puppet Master Kenobi." Anakin spat the last two words, a scowl settling itself over his features. Obi wan simply shook his head, too shocked with Anakin's outburst. "Anakin, do not test me. I understand you feel upset with the loss, but are you so ignorant and selfish as to think you are the only one hurt when it comes to the sacrifices of war. Are you so naive in thinking you are the only one affected by loss. "
Anakin glared at his former mentor. "You don't know anything about loss Obi wan; you don't have the ability to feel it. You are simply an empty shell doing what the council tells you. You have no emotions, you won't ever feel what I am feeling, so stop trying to act as if you do. You'll never understand, you were given every luxury of life and now you claim to know loss, you are the ignorant one Obi wan." "Enough. I won't stand here with you telling me what I can and cannot feel. I have fought in this war just as much as you, so don't believe everything you tell yourself. I had to negotiate with those people Anakin, conflict does not solve everything. Stop trying to force everything into going your way, it will never work." Anakin was practically vibrating with anger, his emotions roiling with every word Obi wan spoke.
"You know it's your fault this war started, if you hadn't got yourself captured as always, none of us would be fighting in this war. Does it make you feel happy when Jedi are sent back to the temple in bags and boxes, does it make you laugh when clones are shot down in the hundreds. This war would not have started if it weren't for you. Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like if you hadn't existed, I can picture the peace the order would be in without you. Why did you have to be the one who lived and not Qui Gon. He would never have allowed this war to go on. You disgrace him, and his very lineage."
Obi wan let the anger slowly melt from his face as he listened to Anakin ranting on, the words like a vibro shiv deep in his heart, twisting and turning with each new word. He let a slow, steady breath leave his mouth before speaking. "Regardless of what you might believe Anakin, you did not know Qui Gon well enough to dictate to me what he would or would not do. Your opinion of me is noted, and I'm sorry you feel that way. But I'm still a Jedi, and I was you Master. You can never change that" Anakin seemed short of breath, his body now visibly shaking from anger. He ground out the words in his mind. "I hate you Obi wan, and I wish with all my strength that you would simply disappear. Then again, why don't you save us and the Separatists the job and do away with yourself. You would make everyone a whole lot better."
Obi wan's retort died on his lips, his mind registering what Anakin had said. His shoulders slumped slightly, and he gave a small nod. "You're right again Anakin, you're always the one that's right." Obi wan gave Anakin one last look before he turned and strode away from his former Padawan. Anakin shouted another obscenity at him, but he ignored it as he walked towards his quarters. Palming open the door half-heartedly, he stepped inside his room.
He immediately let himself slip down the door frame, bringing up his knees to his chest. He dragged a hand through his hair shakily; bring his head to rest on his knees. He let the conversation play out again, a simple mission going so wrong; he never knew it would lead to this. Blinking back the hot sting of tears, he pushed himself to his feet and walked over to his bed. He knew what he needed to do. He would make the order and Anakin happy, he would do what they want, he always did. Slowly, he let his fingers trail over his lightsaber, marveling how the weapon felt. He thumbed the striking blue blade to life, looking at it as if it was the first. He let a smile play out on his face as he remembered how he had gotten his blade, but let it slip away as the events caught up with him.
The blade powered down again, and Obi wan resigned himself to what lay before him. He may not be welcomed to where he was going, but then again, it was clear he was not welcome here either. He placed the hilt against his chest, feeling the vibrations as his heart pumped obliviously away. He whispered a small apology into the force for what he was about to do, then quickly thumbed the blades activation switch. He expected pain, but an odd sense of peace washed over him, shielding him from the agony he knew was there. As his mind stopped working and his body lay itself down on the mattress, he let a smile flutter onto his face before he felt the darkness descend on him. He opened his arms, embracing the feeling of peace before his eyes drifted shut to remain so.
Anakin was still angry when he felt the force stiffen, then plunge with the passing of a life force. He did not have long to wonder before the agonizing snapping of his bond with Obi wan brought him crashing down onto his knees. "No. No no no no, it can't. no." he pushed himself up, running down the corridors until he slammed into Ahsoka, Mace Windu running just behind her. "I felt a disturbance, from Obi wan." Ahsoka looked on the verge of panic as her master jumped to his feet. He didn't bother replying to Mace as he took off in the direction of Obi wan's quarters. He forced the door open with the force and looked frantically around the room. Mace Windu came in before Ahsoka, signaling for her to remain silent. Anakin slowly mad his way towards the bedroom, and choked back a cry as he saw what had happened.
He felt his knees buckle, and his chest tighten and squeeze from the sight. "no." Anakin Skywalker screamed then. He lunged up from his position on the floor and wrapped his arms around the prone form of hi Master. He shook the body, willing him to open his eyes. He screamed Obi wans name over and over again, his hands fumbling for a pulse he knew he would not find. Mace Windu had run into the room, almost falling over himself as he took in the scene before him. Ahsoka stumbled in, stopping dead when she caught sight of Obi wan. She took a tentative step forward, then fell onto her knees. Anakin tried everything to bring his Master back to him, but nothing worked. He stared at the lightsaber wound in his Masters chest and screamed again when the realization dawned on him. He had done this, he had driven Obi wan to this.
He cradled Obi wan's body, rocking it as if it were a delicate infant, whispering apologies in his unhearing ears. His tears streaked down his face and dripped onto Oni wan, slowly making the form damp from the crying. Mace Windu simply stood there, frozen in place by the scene. Obi wan Kenobi had taken his own life, for no apparent reason to him. Anakin kept on gently rocking the body, until Mace slowly walked up to him and tried to lead him away from the still form "It's all my fault, I , I did this, me, if I didn't, if I just." Mace closed his eyes, silently shoving his own grief aside. He let his eyes glance at Obi wan, and closed them again after the tears threatened to fall. Oh Obi wan, why would you resort to this.
However, it was not just them that grieved, in a silent world; the force itself cried for the one that she had just lost. She would make this right.
A/N: hope you enjoyed that, much more to come, please leave a review, I would love to see your opinions regarding this story, tips would be helpful too. Thank you for reading and may the Force be with you, always.