A/N Just a quick thank you to every one has ever reviewed any of my fics, I wouldn't be here with a knew one if it wasn't for you, so thanks. Secondly, this is a Ron/Harry fic.. and a few other pairings but I'm not going to spoil it for you, and as always it is rated M because knowing me.. there will be raunchy stuff. Please Review and I will Post more.

Chapter 1

We've never really spoken about things, we always just knew what each other were thinking but now he is like a book, a riddle he is a mystery and I'm determined to break it Harry thought as he stared at his best friend, who was picking sheepishly at the corner of one of his text books, Harry knew this was because he was nervous, but why was he nervous, the two young boys were alone in the common room every one else was in class or every one else sharing the free period were out side enjoying the unusually good weather for December.

"Ron, is everything okay?" Harry asked, breaking the silence that had become awkward, he's probably just thinking about Hermione or something Harry assumed as he watched his best friend closely, he opened his mouth then closed it again, as if what ever he was about to say was stuck in his throat, "Can't be that bad can it?" Harry said in an almost laugh.

"Its nothing." Ron finally said with out looking at his black haired best friend, Harry didn't press matters further, he didn't have to, "Harry, have you ever thought that you were living life through some one else's eyes?" Harry blinked a couple of times as if that would help him comprehend the question that was just asked.

"What do you mean?" Harry asked after two minutes of his head hurting as he thought of a decent answer to that question, frustrated Ron sighed loudly and continued to talk

"Like have you ever done or felt something your whole life and thought it was right but then one day wake up to find you've been asleep and the person you thought you were was gone and your left with all these feelings that you don't understand, but all you know is you shouldn't have these feelings, because you were raised to believe that they were wrong?" Ron took a long breath and stared at his best friend who was staring blankly at him.

"Ron, what are you talking about?" Harry asked feeling it best just to get to the point.

"Nothing, forget I said anything." Ron sighed and leant back in his chair.

"But you haven't said anything," Harry said, "You've just asked some weird questions that has got me seriously freaked out."

"I said forget it." Ron said sharply, "I'm going to the library." Ron said before getting up of his chair and walking out, Okay now something is definitely up with him Harry thought as he stared as the portrait hole closed, leaving him alone in the common room.

0x0x0

Ron walked along the corridor to the library enjoying the peace of being alone, how could I be so stupid he thought as he slammed his wrist into the wall, I was seriously about to tell him the truth, slamming his fists harder against the wall he let out a small moan of pain before walking into the library.

He sat at the back of the library, where no one would see him unless they were looking for him, it was near the muggle books that were only interesting to a few students so were put to the back, Ron had found them fascinating only he had sworn not to ever tell Hermione that, he picked up a book he hadn't seen before it had a pale blue cover with darker writing on reading; Boys, Hormones and Homosexuality. Ron looked at it for a second before picking it up, he knew that homosexuality was the word muggle used for boy on boy relationships, but he had never read anything about their views on it.

He looked at the contents page, reading titles named; Coming out, How to see if the boy you like, likes you back, and Admitting your gay to yourself. Ron turned to the first couple of pages, briefly reading about the author before turning to chapter; Coming out.

'Coming out' or admitting to loved ones that you are gay, is one of the hardest things for a person to do, the term 'Coming Out' is taken from the phrase 'Coming Out Of The Closet' where many gay men spend their lives because they are scared of how their family will react. Unless your family have brought you up believing that being gay was perfectly fine, you'll never know how they would react, some families take it so bad that they are pushed away from their family, this is usually because their family see it as wrong and use Christian terms such as 'Adam and Eve' or are just prejudice, this can be a heart breaking thing for the person who has come out and many cases become so bad that they lead to suicide. However, many families except their children for who they are, and are not as closed minded as others, this book is to help young boys and men to understand that no matter how they feel about themselves, they shouldn't keep it a secret no matter how hard it will be for them.

Ron sighed loudly, how depressing he thought, he knew he had feelings for guys but he was yet to 'Come out of the closet' It was his best kept secret, he had never thought about telling his family, the thought that they would throw him out had never crossed his mind until reading the paragraph about 'Coming Out' he had never thought that people would kill themselves because of being gay or straight. He read the last line, they shouldn't keep it a secret no matter how hard it will be for them Ron repeated it in his head over and over again, before turning to the next chapter.

Does the boy you like, like you back? Does he have to ask you if you are okay or can he tell by how you act? Ron thought about it for a minute, Harry knows when I am upset he never has to ask, he just asks why I am in a mood, but that just means we're good friends. Has he spent time trying to find a girlfriend or does he prefer to hang out in your company? Ron stopped reading and looked to the ceiling as if it would give him answers, Cho has made it obvious she is interested, but Harry has never made any point in returning it Ron thought, and we are always together.

"What have we here?" The voice of Draco Malfoy snapped Ron out of his thoughts, he quickly tried to hide the book but it was too late with in seconds of snatching the book was in Draco's hands.

"Give it back Malfoy," The words sounded so much more confident when he heard Harry say them in their first year, but Ron saying them sounded weak and pathetic.

"I always knew you were gay," He laughed darkly, "But looks as though know one else caught on,"

"Shut up," Ron said, but what was the use, Malfoy was right.

"Wait till precious Harry Potter finds out your gay, his little side kick a bum fucker." Malfoy was smirking non stop, laughing at how flustered Ron was getting.

"Don't say anything." Ron was pleading now, "Please Draco."

"You know I will tell every one, get ready to come out of the closet weasel." Draco laughed and walked of, throwing the book back at Ron.

Ron sunk lower into the chair that he was sitting in, he picked the book that had fallen to the floor and stared at it before putting it in his pocket quickly before walking out quietly.

0x0x0

Harry was sat in the common room, this time joined by Hermione who had came back from her lesson before Ron had returned from the library.

"So he just left?" She asked, after Harry had told her how he was acting.

"He was asking really weird questions, and I didn't know how to answer so I tried asking him what the hell was wrong, then he told me to forget it and said he was going to the library." Harry sighed.

"Questions, what sort of questions?" Hermione asked, as she began to worry about her other best friend.

"Like waking up one day to realise that everything you've known and felt wasn't how you really felt, but the feelings you now have being wrong," Hermione looked puzzled as Harry tried his best to word it properly, but failed. "I'm worried, I mean we've never had any sentimental talks before, but I think he was trying to really open up."

"Don't worry about it Harry, I'm sure when he is ready he will come out and just say it." Hermione said and put a hand on Harry's leg reassuringly. The portrait hole opened and Ron walked in, he saw Hermione and Harry together and walked closer to them, the book tucked away in his pocket.

"Alright," Ron said, as if nothing was wrong. "Sorry about earlier Harry."

"Its okay." Harry lied, "We should get ready for our next lesson." He sighed, their next lesson was care of magical creatures with Hagrid.

"Yeah, I'm just going to grab my books." Ron said, and walked up to the dorm room where Dean and Seamus were playing a game of exploding snap.

"Hey Ron." Seamus smiled.

"Hi." Ron replied, thinking that when every one found out would they still say hello to him or even talk to him. He put the book under his pillow discreetly before grabbing the book he needed and Harry's before walked down stairs.

"Thanks," Harry smiled as he handed him the book, Ron smiled back and walked in front of his two friends, knowing that Draco would tell them soon and he would be walking alone soon.

They walked out to the fields where Draco and his friends were sat laughing, Ron shuddered at the sight of them and took a deep breath.

"Weasley," Draco laughed and stepped closer to the red head and his friends, "Read anything interesting lately?" He asked, a small smile creeping on his lips.

"What's he talking about?" Hermione asked, looking from a very pleased Draco to a distraught Ron.

"Nothing," Ron lied, and Draco laughed.

"I wouldn't say the problems your having deep down are nothing Ronnie." Draco smiled an almost sincere smile.

"Problems, Ron what is he talking about?" Hermione asked.

"Yeah Ron, what am I talking about?" Draco laughed. "Haven't told them yet, maybe I should tell them, Its only right that they know."

"Your a sick bastard you know that Malfoy." Ron said, his voice shaking. "Tell them go on then."

"Tell us what?" Harry asked, staring at Ron.

"That your little side kick is gay." Draco said loudly, every one looked at Ron who went white.

"Well done Draco bet you feel like a real man don't you." Ron said glaring at the blond.

"Bet you'd like to feel a real man wouldn't you." Draco laughed, causing Ron to go red he raised his fist and smashed it into Draco's face.

"Then I wouldn't fucking touch you would I." Ron said before pushing past the crowd of shocked faces and storming up into the castle.

0x0x0

Harry stared at Malfoy and then at Ron who was now running back into the castle, he contemplated following Ron but then thought he might not want to see any one.

"Your such a bastard!" He shouted at Malfoy who was now standing up holding his bloody nose that he was sure was broken. "How could you do that?"

"Easy. Like that." Draco said, "Now we all know what a fag Weasley is." Draco smiled at a few disgusted Slytherins, even a few Gryffindors looked horrified at the news about Ron.

Resisting the urge to punch Draco, Harry followed Ron's foot steps to the castle, he walked up the stone steps to the Gryffindor common room, he saw Ron sat in front of the fire, tears pouring down his face.

"Your going to need some ice for your hand." Harry said softly, as Ron looked up at him. "Pretty impressive punch."

"For a gay guy you mean?" Ron mumbled, and Harry sat next to him.

"No," Harry said firmly, "Its true then?"

"Yes."

"How did Draco find out?" Harry asked curiously, and Ron pulled a book out from his pocket.

"I was reading it in the library, when he saw it and put two and two together." Ron said, and Harry flicked through the pages.

"So have you got a boyfriend or something?" Harry asked.

"No," Ron laughed.

"Have you ever?"

"No." Ron sighed again. "Any more questions?"

"Just one." Harry said, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't know how you would take it." Ron sighed, "And because I wouldn't know what you'd do when I told you it was you I liked." Harry blinked before standing up and leaving. Smooth Ron, real smooth.