SHERIDENS' STORY...

Right now I must be the luckiest girl in the world!

It hadn't always been like this though, the last few years of my life have taken a lot out of me and from me.

But right now, right this instant! life was amazing for me, Sheriden Lloyd.

I was in the arms of my beautiful boyfriend James, he is an amazing person and he loves me for everything I am.

James is in the boyband and the tv show Big Time Rush, we have been together for a whole year today.

I have never been so in love with anyone in my life, I've come close to it twice, but right now right here I realise that all the bad shit that has happened to me has led me to be with James.

He is my life... and I would do pretty much anything for him.

The start of James' and mine relationship was difficult, but only difficult in the eyes of the public. The public only see and hear things they want to, and to convince them otherwise is a waste of an entire and I are very driven people, we want to succeed from life as best we can, and sometimes that means taking risks.

"Sheriden are you happy?" James asked as I was wrapped in his arms in bed, breathing in his amazing scent.

"I dont think I could be happier, why do you ask? do I not please you enough?" was my reply, knowing full well I had just pleased the life out of him...twice.

he laughed. "no, I dont mean that, I mean just doing the model management?"

I sighed and I playfully rubbed his nipple with my finger.

My own modelling career had been cut short after a skiing holiday resulted in me breaking my back, after some soul searching I eventually started my own model management company, which was and still is a complete success but its own success was its down fall for me.

I had become less and less involved as the company got bigger and more staff came in.

by all means its fun being the boss but I missed the nitty gritty of being hands on with a lot of the things that go knew this, James and I would share everything.

"I am happy, but I feel there's definitely more than that out there for me, I dunno what though?" was my honest reply.

"Well I've been thinking..."

I cut james short."Before another word pops out of that delicious mouth, no i'm not gonna marry you James...yet" I said my words sarcastically but they were very true.

James laughed hard. Almost too hard, I pulled on his nipple until it hurt him."Ow... ow...hahaha..no I didnt mean that either. I was thinking of starting a little something up but I cant do it on my own... I was gonna ask Carlos if he wanted in too" James rubbed his nipple better as he spoke.

"Well what is this little something, it cant be that little if you need three people" I kissed the nipple in a hope of some forgiveness and james pulled my entire body on top of his.

he lay beneath me grinning back up with the most amazing smile I have ever seen, it just never gets old. I could stare at that smile all day.

He gave me the look to say he was gonna get me back, but in a very pleasurable way very soon.

"James!" I tapped his chest to snap him out of his saucy stare.

"Whats the little something?"

he took my hands in his and entwind his fingers with mine. "well... I want to start something big... my own record label. but the money I physically couldnt risk on my own, but with more than me its not... such a big risk"

James had talked about owning a record company many times with me, he always made it sound like it was something he would do when all his other projects had finished. he was due to tour with big time rush soon.

I kissed his hands one by one "James I'm not being funny but I have more than enough money to risk, If you wanna do it then do it, I'm serious about us, money isn't an issue" I moved his hands to my breasts.

"I will gladly take your breasts Sheriden" he laughed "But I really wanna do this properly. you know... start it up from my own back, I dont want your hand outs... just a little help. I want your business mind. obviously I can't give it 100% at the moment with the band and everything, and I think you would be the perfect candidate for the job"

"So what are we talking here? just the label and rent recording time from a studio?" James now had my business head reeling.

"The label and a studio" James narrowed his eyes at me as he spoke, trying to gather my judgement on his maybe next adventure in life.

"shit James that is a ton of cash your talking about. on a very big risk... do you know how hard it will be to find, let alone get a decent act signed up without losing a load of money first, I mean a studio alone with mixers and control room and..."

"Sheriden...shhhh" he pulled me down towards him for a small kiss. "its gonna be a lot, I know but having our own studio gives us more freedom and I've already racked up a complete price with an actual place, control room, voice booth, drum booth, mixers...the lot"once again James had delivered the goods, he knows what he wants and its pointless in telling him otherwise.

"what figure?" I asked, defeated.

"1.5 million" he replied, my eyes almost popped out of my head

"Fuck James! are you planning to have your studio built in a palace?"

"no but thats with a fully equipped studio, a place for rehersing, instruments... shit Sheriden, im not talking about a tiny room built on the back of my house, im serious about doing it properly" he turned me back on to the bed beside him.

"maybe it would be better to start small baby, music is the hardest business to crack thats all im saying James, your gonna end up 3 million down before you know it"

"no WE wouldn't end up 3 mil' down coz I was hoping if I had you on board it wouldnt be a flop, we can do this" his optimism astounded me.

james was one of those few people in life that was pretty good at anything he tried, cooking, singing, dancing, acting, boxing ... sex. you name it, james was the master of all he touched.

"so you want 500 thousand each from me and carlos in the hope we dont end up losing a million each 6 months down the line?" my eyes now narrowed as I lay on my stomach looking up at his adonis face.

James looked me in the eye thoughtfully before he responded to my sceptical view."yeh" was the simple response he gave with his American smile, then rolled me on to my back with one gentle swift move of my arms and climbed on top of me.

"okay" I replied with a giggle as our noses touched. clearly arguing with him was pointless as he was going to do it anyway.

"okay?" he questioned with a glint in his eye and kissed me on my lips.

I kissed him back as my agreed response and james worked his way from my lips to my jaw, then my jaw to my neck. I was in heaven... I ran my fingers along his arms, beautiful strong arms that could easily lift kisses trailed along the sides of my chest, sending goose bumps over my body, james' hand held my waist, gently circling his fingers on my bare skin. his kissing reached my stomach, I let out a small moan of pleasure at the anticipation of not knowing where he might go next.

he placed both his arms underneath me and pulled my face back level with his own, he nuzzled his face in my neck, his fingers ran down my thighs.

"I love you" he said just as he ran his tongue down the side of my jaw. then his tongue left my jaw to go lower down my body. feeling james' tongue pleasing me was almost too much to cope with, my vocal chords had a life of there own now, waves of pleasure coming over me. to add to my pleasure james teased me with his fingers, his touch inside me made my insides throb for him.

I really was the luckiest girl in the world right now