Summary: Is this puppy love or true love? How would I know if Sasuke snobs me? But wait, then why did he speak to me? Huh! I dont get it! Please help me, guys!!
I can't feel the company of my roommates even though they try so hard to cheer me up. I can only think of my times with him, with Uchiha Sasuke. Since we don't really talk with each other, I consider them hallucinations of mine resulting from liking him.
"Who is this unfamiliar guy in front of me? I'm wondering how he got here since normally, we would compete against similar faces every year, but now..." I said to my teammate as I stare on his face. We were in a mathematics contest even though at our school, I enter the entertainment department. Anyone would wonder finding out why I became the representative of our school, Kyoto Municipal. I don't exaggerate but whenever the whole batch would take the screening for the said competition, I would get the highest score. Plenty of my teachers and friends ask me why I didn't choose the Science and Mathematics Department since I have very superior mind but they didn't know that I love singing and dancing better than studying.
"I heard from my classmate last year that he's going in the same school as hers and a lot of girls like him with that intelligence and...sorry, I think I just make you and myself more nervous." Kawasaki Tona transferred to our school this past summer for some reason and until now, she still has contact with her friends. I don't feel nervous but I want to measure his "intelligence", so I decided to do my best and try to beat him.
I despise him for not being here. I curse him for failing that stupid entrance exam. I had longed for him to be my school mate and I thought that he would want to enter this prestigious school so I took the exam. I tried my best just to pass, I even went to review centers. I spent my savings to commute from home to that place without even thinking that I could pass that test without doing the preparations so well but I thought that he will be impressed to know that I ranked in the top ten or something.
A year had passed since I first met him. Until now, I like him and I heard from a friend that likings disappear in about two years. Since this year is my last year in middle school and if what she said is really true, my crush on him will disappear when I reach high school.
"You will be able to see him after a year again Sakura! I wish something will happen in this year's event, something that you will really enjoy, like being able to talk to him?" Tona is the only one who knows that I like him. She became my bestie ever since she knew my secret. I'll admit, I was so shy that until now, we didn't talk to or greet each other.
"I'm not that obsessed, you know."
"But why did you dump all your suitors after telling me that you like him?"
"I just want to focus on my studies then and they just disturb me every time I read alone under the tree." I always say that as an excuse for doing such things. I even stopped my driver to accept gifts like flowers and stuff because I wish that what will arrive to him is good news. I imagine that from the very start, he already was captivated by me and deciding if he would dare court me so he must've ask for some gossips about me. I wanted that what will arrive to him is that I don't have many suitors so he doesn't need to
compete with many guys for me. How imaginative I am that I forgot that he can get girls everywhere because of his good looks.
"Okay, okay. It's so obvious, girl...anyway, I feel so confident because every year of relaxingly doing this thing, we still win. How boring..." She must've not realized that I try my best to get high grades for better profile. I want to be superior to him; I don't want to be under him. I think that would amaze him that I could beat him. It's hard for me because I can feel the pressure of the mere thought that I was close to losing the last time I participated to this activity because of him, but amazingly, I still got the first place.
I thought he was really good, I was confident that he would pass it because the entrance exam is not a pain at all. It was easier than what I had thought.
A week has passed since I entered this school but it felt almost like years. I expected that we will be closer in this school since we already know each other, well, I said know not close or something. We're not even acquainted; we just know each other's names because of the competitions. I want to feel that I have someone to rely on in times of despair in this place away from my parents and friends.
"Snap out of fantasy, Sakura. Why don't you think of living in this world without other people's presence? You can exist anyway without his existence, just don't feel so depressed. I suggest that you move on and face what is in store for you. We are here to guide you and can't you see? We care for you and we don't want to see you like that. We want to help you...really." Hyuga Hinata nodded at Temari's statement. I don't understand why they do all the comforting and understanding even though we barely know each other. Well, duh, we just had five weekdays spending 24/7 with each other, how can they know something like this? Do they know that moving on is hard and... painful?
"I can't control it...but I really want to cry..." I'm supposed to be excellent in hiding my emotions since I specialize in entertainment but this is the time I can't hide the real me...
"Just pour your feelings this night and promise to not cry again because of this guy. You're beautiful and we'll help you find a cool guy..." Hinata tried to not stutter and amazingly did it.
"I'll try." They hugged me and I felt incredibly good.