Lindsay POV
"You coming with me right now!" Voight orders. I stare at the glass of scotch that was in front of me.
"I told you i ain't going nowhere" i say softly as i reach my hand into my pocket."here,i'm done" i put sown my badge on the counter. He looks at me, clenching his jaw as he grabs the badge.
"I think you've done enough,you should leave!" my mom sneers. Even tho my face was still facing that drink,i could feel Voight glaring at her. She rubs my shoulders and i sigh. He looks back at me.
"This is a big mistake you doing" he says before he walks out the bar. I let out a groan as i hold back my tears.
"Are you ok?" she asks softly and i nod as i grab my coat.
"Yeah. I'm gonna go home now,i'm tired" i kiss her on the cheek before i make my way out.
"Ok,please be carefull. Don't go back on that road" she says in concern. I shut my eyes for a second before i reopen them.
"Just drinks mom,that's all...I promise" i lie,giving her a smile before i walk out. When i ,i was still feeling the need to drink and take something stronger. I didn't hold back myself before i reach for my bottle of Vodka and a small bag of Oxy. I sit down on the couch, open the little bag and smash the pills so i can make lines. I take a big sip from my bottle before i sniff the two lines. I close my eyes as i lay back agaisnt the couch and close my eyes. My mind went back to the last day i spent with Nadia. I smile sadly. That day, we were on our way to eat at her favorite restaurant to celebrate our 4 years anniversary and the new post she got at the office. That day,i was suppose to propose, but then that happened; she got shot in front of my eyes. I was so mad,angry and sad that someone had to take the life of my love away from me,i couldn't cop with this and i still can't. I got back in reality. I clench my fists before i throw everything from the tabble on the floor and let out a scream.
The next morning...
I woke up by a loud knock on my front door. I groan as i open my eyes,holding back my head.
"Ouch,what the hell?" i yelp as i get up,hitting my feet again the table.
"Lindsey! I know you i there, so open this damn door!" i roll my eyes as i make my way to the door.
"Good morning to you too Amelia" she glares at me as she walks past me. I close the door and make my way to the kitchen.
"Is this why you resigned? To get back at your old habits and party hard" she blurts out angrily. Amelia is my ex, but she will always stay a friend to me.
"Voight came to you i guess. And if he sent you to clear my mind, you know your way out" i warn as i pour two cups of coffee. She sighs and sit down in front of me.
"He told me but he didn't ask me to go check on you. I just know that i had to come and check on was pretty mad about what you did tho." she explains before she takes a sip from her coffee. I smile softly because i know she'll always care about me.
"I know you care about me,Am but i'm fine" i lie.
"That's what you said the last time we were together and look where we are now" i chuckle bitterly.
"Don't even go there! What happened between us wasn't only my fault!" i sneer. She rubs her forehead.
"Do i need to remind you that you the one who pushed me away and ended up cheating on me! Every single time someone leave or die,you always turn your back on you friends and family. You don't even think about a solution before you throw yourself on drugs. I kno, i get that you lost her but it's a part of the life, people come and leave for a reason." she blurts out. I laugh and laugh again before i feel the tears in my eyes. She frowns.
"Did you also known i was about to propose?" i propose and her mouth drops.