You Found Me

Disclaimer: I of course own nothing besides my own ideas, everything else is the amazingly creative Shonda's doing or The Fray's beautiful lyrics.

This is going to be a set of one shots set to The Fray's self-titled album. This idea wouldn't leave my head one day so I just decided to run with it. This one's written in both of Arizona's and Callie's POV, Arizona's is written in normal font and Callie's is in italics. This is a missing moment from episode 5.19. Hope you enjoy! =D

One. Syndicate

"Baby close your eyes, don't open 'til the morning light,
Baby don't forget, we haven't lost it all yet."
- Syndicate, The Fray

"What happened?" I ask Calliope as she takes everything in.

"He gave me an ultimatum. Go back to Miami with him or he'll cut me off." She swallows audibly. "So I cut him off. I cut him off." I can see the pain in her eyes.

"Are you okay?" I already know the answer but I ask anyway.

"No, I don't think, yea, umm, no." The tears are now forming in her eyes.

I instinctually take her in my arms. I can feel her tears on my shoulder as I stroke her hair trying to calm her. I can hear her sobs. I can feel her pain; I hate seeing her upset.

I lift her face off my shoulder and smile at her. "It's okay. We can go back to your place and curl up in bed and go to sleep. Sound like a good plan?" I keep smiling through the pain.

"Okay, can we do that now?" She says through her sobbing. I could see a slight flicker of happiness in her eyes but it was soon gone.

"Sure, Calliope. We can go as soon as we get changed. Do you want me to meet you in the lobby or I can come with you if you'd like?"

"No, it's okay. I'll meet you in the lobby in ten minutes." Calliope unwrapped her arms from around my neck and starts for the door.

She doesn't make it two feet away before I grab her hand and pull her close to me. "I'm proud of you." I say with a smile as I let go of her hand. She returns the smile and I can see the happiness in her eyes and it doesn't disappear instantly, it twinkles as I kiss her forehead before she makes her way out the door.

Once I'm sure she's gone my eyes well up with the tear I've been holding back. It was true. I was proud of her. She wasn't the newborn I thought she was; she was an amazing, beautiful, caring, strong woman. In the few weeks I've known her she's evolved from this woman who was afraid of the world and of being hurt but now, now she was able to stand up to her own father and stand up for herself. I was extremely proud of her for that considering I know how hard it is to stand up to your parents and tell them about yourself.

As I entered my apartment I feel Arizona's hand on the small of my back guiding me. I smile slightly at her touch. I throw my keys on the counter while Arizona locks the door. Thankfully Christina was on call tonight.

"How about we get into something more comfortable and curl up in bed?" Arizona asks, I know she's trying to cheer me up.

"Yeah, sure." I reply lifelessly; I'm tired of keeping up appearances. It kits me all over again, my eyes start to fill with tears again.

"Hey, hey, it's okay." I feel Arizona's hand on my own. "After you we get changed we can talk if you want. I'm not going anywhere."

"I'd like that." my voice is now more lively because I know talking to her about it will make me feel so much better.

Without letting go of her hand I lead her to the bedroom and head for my dresser. I let go of her hand and pull out my favorite pyjama pants and an old t-shirt for me and a pair of sweatpants Arizona had left here and my old college sweatshirt that I know she loves for her.

After getting change we crawl into bed and I feel Arizona's arm wrap around my waist. I can't help but pull myself closer to her.

"I can't believe I did that." are the first words to come out of my mouth.

"It was very brave of you, Calliope. I could tell how much your father means to you." she whispers softly as if she was trying not to wake me.

"He's supported me my entire life. I didn't even have to pay for med school." The tears are starting to well up in my eyes again. "He didn't want me to worry about anything. He just wanted me to think about being a good doctor. How can someone who's supported me my whole life act this way, my own father?"

"I know, I know. But sometimes they come around. It's a shock to him, like I said earlier you've been with men your entire life but things change. And change is good. You have to wait for him to see it that way." I can hear the concern in Arizona's voice now.

"But some don't, right?" I didn't want to have to face this but I knew I had to. "What if he never speaks to me again?"

"Most of the time they do, Calliope. They realize that the times have changed and that their children can be out and still are happy. Just focus on that okay?"

"It's like Erica all over again only a hundred times more personal I mean he's my father." I pick up Arizona's hand that is around my waist. I can help but start to play with her fingers. I need something to distract me.

"I know it's hard. I know. It'll get better."

"You don't know that! Every single time I try to be myself around somebody or I try to do something for myself I get bit in the ass for it." I snap. The words shoot out of my mouth before I can stop myself.

I throw Arizona's arms off me and jump out of the bed in frustration. The tears continue and the sobbing starts, "I'm sorry." I manage to spit out through my sobs.

I run to the bathroom slamming the door behind me. I have to run from her, before I ruin her. She's perfect and I can't taint her with my wallowing. I just can't. I lean up against the sink and try to stop sobbing but I can't; the tears and erratic breaths keeping coming.

I hear a strong knock. I don't even get a chance to tell Arizona to go away before I hear the squeak of the door. "Arizona. I'm" I don't get to finish my sentence before she cuts me off.

"Calliope." I turn around to find her only two feet behind me with a comforting smile on her face, just once glance is enough to bring my sobbing to halt. "It's okay, there's no need to say you're sorry."

She takes my hand and tries to lead me back to bed. My resistance falters and I follow her. As we lie back down in bed there is a silence filling the room until Arizona breaks it.

"I'm proud of you for being yourself. I know you. I know that you try to push everyone away when you're upset. But you're not pushing me away because I'm not going anywhere. I can promise you that." Arizona places a kiss on my temple to seal her promise whilst pulling me into a comforting hug.

I can't believe how lucky I am. What did I do to deserve this breath taking, compassionate, woman who likes me for me?

"There is a need for me to say I'm sorry and I am, I truly am sorry. I definitely shouldn't have snapped at you like that, after everything you've done for me I don't even know how I could have that to you." I apologize as I roll over to face Arizona "But I can't help but try and push you away. I don't want to get so close then miss by a quarter of an inch. I don't want to get to involved and then get my already shattered heart broken into even smaller pieces."

"I understand, but you have to trust me. If you let me, I'll hold your heart in my hands and protect it with everything I have. Don't worry about anything, not tonight. Just close your eyes, baby. You haven't lost everything, not Mark, not me. We haven't lost it all." And with her compassionate loving words entering my mind I drifted of to a peaceful sleep still embraced in Arizona's arms.