Where The Heart Is

James never learned to let\go

(like you)

you could have taught him, e.a.s.i.l.y

but you didn't, my dear

because you liked his ~laugh~

{careless and free and oh-so-young}

you liked that he didn't know defeat

(like you)

didn't know everything b-r-e-a-k-s

like you

(even him)

oOo

Peter never learned to be/lie\ve

(in himself)

you never told him

he was worth something, too

(in you)

because -{secretly}- you liked it

he never d.i.s.a.g.r.e.e.d

(because you were royal)

never stood up against you

(because he was not)

and wasn't that sign enough?

his f-r-i-e-n-d-s-h-i-p wasn't to be trusted

(neither was yours)

oOo

Remus never learned to f_i_g_h_t for himself

(afraid of eyes turning away)

and you never showed him how

because, really, that doesn't make it any e.a.s.i.e.r

(people might see him for what he is)

you liked the [idea] of him

beingsafe and stayingwhole

(he never was)

but you've been blind, my dear

(gentle hearts can be b/r/o\k\en, too)

and you did it yourself

oOo

Lily never learned to give up

(isn't that her d˅o˅w˅n˅f˅a˅l˅l)

and you never forgave her

for getting her ~fairy tale~ ending

(only she doesn't)

prince charming and a perfect little baby boy

(who never gets to live in a castle)

and defeating the big bad evil

(only at the cost of her life)

but you never believed in fairy tales, my dear

(and less in happily ever afters)

oOo

you never learned how to live

(you could only s-u-r-v-i-v-e)

you can still feel your ~wings~

can't you, my dear?

f.r.e.e air and the s*t*a*r*s you might have reached

someday – not today – never

but you have been like Icarus

too h^i^g^h, too f.a.r, too bold

and you laughed

(catch me if you can)

when you should have kept your head d˅o˅w˅n

(but that's something else you have never learned)

and you've never been good at hiding

(Peter could have taught you)

oOo

they're all g.o.n.e now, anyway

little fifth-wheel-Peter

(trickyrat)

and perfect golden Lily&James

(didn't you ~promise~ they'd be safe?)

and left-behind-Remus

(true to them, after all)

and you,

far-too-obvious Sirius

(notsoloyaldog)

oOo

you wish you'd just go m.a.d

because innocence is ever so f/r/a/g\i\l\e

(and you were never ~innocent~, my dear

were you?)

and you can't even r-u-n

(no running from yourself)

like you always did

(you're haunted, aren't you

hunted by your fears come t.r.u.e)

people say you're i.n.s.a.n.e, my dear,

but you're not

(you only wish you were)

oOo

do you remember [home]?

(home is where the heart is

but you never had a heart, don't you know?)

only black blood

and a h.o.p.e.l.e.s.s constellation of

rebelliousstubborndifferent

recklessbravebrother

traitormurdermad

runninghaunted

dead

and [home] died that halloween

a l-i-f-e-t-i-m-e ago

(and somehow you did, too)

Soo, I tried my hand at freeverse for the first time. Liked it? Or Not? Reviews are appreciated.

Thanks for reading.