Hello readers! I just had another appifany. This one was telling me to write another story on Eclare. But this one is a little different. In this story Eli and Clare broke up when he left for colloge at University of Montreal. The day after he leaves Clare finds out she is pregnat at the age of 17 and is going into senior year. Clare ends up giving birth to a baby girl amed Scarlet Marie Goldsworthy. 5 years later when Scarlet is in kindergarten, Clare and Eli meet again. Who knows what could happen? So that is basically my summary that I couldn't fit in the little summary box. Any way you probably hate me for keeping you from the story. So here is the first chapter of my new story Broken Home.
Broken Home
Clare's point of view:
Today was Scarlet's first day of kindergarten. They grow up so fast don't they? Scarlet is my little girl who is 5 years old. She is probably the cutest little girl I've ever seen. I'm not saying that because she's mine or that I'm biast but because she looks exactly like her father. And it breaks my heart every day to know that she will probably never know him. Scarr's father is in deed, Elijah Goldsworthy. The boy who broke my heart 5 years ago. The boy who I fell in love with, and is still in love with. But he will never know that because he left. When he ended us I was heart broken. He truly was, and still is my real first love. Scarlet looks just like Eli but she has long curly hair. Scarr is 5 years old. She is about 4 foot 1. She has jet black long curly hair, big green eyes with long brown eye lashes to frame them, she has a cute little nose, olive skin, and her father's trade mark smirk. She has in fact, seen pictures of Eli. But she is stubborn and insists that he looks like her, not the other way around. I cry every time I tell her about our teen age years. Because it shatters my heart. She just hugs me and then tells me that I'll always have her. I even read her parts of my diary ( appropriate pages of coarse) Just so she can get the full effect of what he was like. Scarlet is probably the best thing that has happened to me. But I can't just dwell on the past and Eli. No I can't I have to move on. But it's really hard when you're raising the boy you love's child. She even acts like him and dresses like him. I need to move on or I'll be alone for the rest of my miserable life. I've kept in touch with Adam, Fiona, Drew, Alli, Jenna, and KC. I know what you're thinking. Why KC? Well I've learned to forgive and forget what happened during feashman year. He has also been helpful during my pregnacy. All of them were and still are with raising Scarlet. Jenna has a little boy about one and a half years older than Scarlet named Jacob. They are best friends. We always joke on how they are going to get married. The girls have tried to get me to go out and date, but who wants to date me? Who wants to date a 22 year old with a child who is 5 years old. Answer this question for me. Do you? That's exactly the point, you probably wouldn't want to, now would you? I would be surprised if you did want to. But it would have to be love wouldn't it? But I guess that's why people say love is unconditional. And it's true. You can't help who you love, now can you? I found out I was pregnat with Scarlet the day after Eli left for University of Montreal, leaving me behind with his child, who he will never meet.
It was September 1st and I was woken up by a screaming 5 year old jumping up and down on my queen sized bed.
"Mommy get up it's my first day of kindergarten! I can't be late!" Sacrlet said screaming like a little kid on Christmas morning. I rolled over to look at the clock. It was 6:30 in the morning but Scarr didn't start school till 8:15. I Got out of bed and picked her up, then spun her around.
"Is my baby girl ready for her first day of kindergarten?" I asked her.
"Yeah!" she screamed.
"Well lets go get you dressed." I said taking hold of her small hand. We walked into her romm which was painted lavender, and walked over to her closet. I opened up the doors and she picked what she wanted to wear. She picked her new black skinny jeans and I picked out her new purple v-neck and teal tank top. I had to fight her on the shirts since she hates color but I won her over by promising to take her out to ice cream when I pick her up from day care at 4:45. She then put on her new black converse and went down stairs to watch some t.v.. I walked down stairs and saw Scarlet watching Sponge Bob. I walked into the kitchen at seven o'clock and fixed Scarr a bowl of Fruit Loops and a glass of orange juice.
"Put your dishes in the sink." I told her as I was setting her food and drink down.
"Okay mommy. I will." With that I walked up the staircase to my bedroom. Once I got In my room I picked out my clothes. I chose a black with white pin stripes, pencil skirt with matching blazer, and a crimson silk shirt. I then walked into my bathroom. I turned my water on and peeled off my clothes. When it was warm enough I stepped inside. I sighed out of contempt when the hot water hit my skin relaxing the muscles in my shoulders. I then did my routine for the shower and stepped out. Once I was dressed I went back into the bathroom and did my hair and make up. When I was finished it was about 8:00. I quickly put on my gray ankle boots and went down stairs to find Scarlet putting her Nightmare Before Christmas lunch box in her back pack.
"Ready to go?" I asked. Scarelet just nodded. I walked into the kitchen grabbed my keys, brief case, and an apple and was out the door. On the drive to Degrassi Elemantary School I could tell she was excited because she couldn't stop moving in the back seat. I pulled up and Scarlet hopped out of the back seat. I rolled down the windo so I could say something to her.
"Scarlet!" I yelled out the window.
"Yeah mom?" She asked.
"Be nice to the teacher, okay?" I then saw her smirk which meant she was up to no good.
"I'll try momma. Bye." She said before turning around and walking into the crowd of crying parents to reach her class room. Now, off to work! I work in a publishing agency called Writer's Block publishing. Ironic name isn't it? So basically what I do is read a little bit of someones book and if it's good I send it in to get published. Supposedly I have a lot of meetings today. One is supposed to be really big and it's at 1:00 a half hour after my lunch break ends. I parked my black Range Rover and walked into the building. It was buzzing with people. Once I was in my office my assitant walked in my office and gave me some work to look over for my first meeting. Time flew by fast and as soon as I knew it it was 12:30 when my assistant Katherine walked in.
"Here is the material for your next meeting, Miss Edwards." She said handing me a little packet of paper.
"Thank you Katherine." I replied with a smile. Once she was gone I started reading. This supposed book was called Ocean Eyes. I then opened up the packet and did my job and started reading it.
Ocean eyes. She had ocean eyes. They were as blue as the sky and always held curiosity. Gosh, she was beautiful. And for the rest of her life she will always brought sunlight to my world, while I probably brought darkness to her's. She was beautiful. Her Blue eyes, curly hair,perfect curves, and her flushed cheeks from whenever we got close. But I was the one who ended you ask? Well only god knows. Too bad for me I don't believe in him and probably never will.I don't believe in him because I have been chewed up and spit out by this cruel, cruel does this so called 'God' repay me? By kicking me when I'm down. So you wanna know why I ended the best thing that has ever happened to me, do ya? Well let me tell you. I guess I was scared. I was scared for many reasons. One reason was that I was a year older and was leaving for college, leaving her to go to high school to finish her last year. I was scared of what was going to happen to us, being so far apart. I was scared that she would forget me and find someone else. Someone who is her age. I thought she was going to dump me anyway. Compared to her, I'm a piece of shit. So to keep my heart from getting broken from her, I broke hers. Little did she know, that it broke mine to do that to her. And I ask myself what could have happened if I didn't break up with her for my own selfish in securities. I promised her I wouldn't go anywhere, and she did the same thing...and kept that promise. Where as for me, I didn't. She depened on me, and me on her. She was my rock and I was hers. But why did I have to screw up the only good thing that has happened in my life? Because I was scared. She said I could tell her anything but the one thing I didn't end up telling her...ended our relationship. I didn't tell her I was scared Why did I have to be so stupid? Now all I do is wallow in self pity remembering the good thing that I ended. Not her. I remember the first time we made love. It was amazing and romantic. She gave me her purity ring after. I put it on a chain and wore it. I still wear it. But it makes me felt like a total douche bag thinking about what I did to her and her fragile heart. She let me in but, somewhere along the way I closed the door. Now when ever I think of her I drink whiskey, and drown in self pity. Why did I do that to her. She was my true love. And I was hers. So why do that? Because I was scared. That's why. I regret it every day. I regret shattering her heart. I regret leaving her heart broken and in the cold. But I don't regret meeting her. And I don't regret falling for her. But every single day I ask myself this. What would have happened if I didn't cause all that pain in her ocean eyes?
What I just read was amazing. I just felt the emeotion of the writer in every word they wrote. It even reminded me a little of how Eli's and myself relationship. It was good while it lasted. I really felt for this writer. They really know how to write and they speak from the heart. I could tell this book was going to be a best seller and I was going to own a copy. This for sure was going to get published. I just couldn't wait till I met the author. Then my secratary entered my office.
"Clare your 1:00 is here. And he is hot, just so you know" she winked at me.
"Okay please send them in. tell tem to knck before." Mary my secratary then walked out of my office. I wonder what the author is like. They are really talented and I would like to get a chance to help start their career. Suddenly there was a knock on my door interupting my thoughts.
"Come in!" I answered. In walked someone I thought I would never see again. Why is he here? Adam didn't tell me he was in town. He looked at me and smirked.
"Edwards." This can't be happening to me.
How was this as a start? Did you like the material that Clare had to read? I basically thought that up off the top of my head. It was kinda hard to write because I had to put myself in Eli's mind frame. So did you like it? Want me to continue? Review and let me know please.