Yes I'm starting another one. No you aren't allowed to judge me.
As of this moment, A Stupid Game has been discontinued due to my partner in crime moving. It's not as fun when she's not singing songs about Ramen noodles. If you want to take it over, PM me and all will be well.
Onto the story. Lots of OOCness.
Title came from Florence +the Machine's "Howl"
Chapters will be named after songs. And then the section
No Light, No Light
Section 1: HELL Chapter 1: Blaine
You are the hole in my head
You are the space in my bed
He clouds my frame of mind. I can't breathe. I'm suffering silently, wallowing in my pain. I can't live anymore.
Blaine. He left me.
You are the silence in between what I thought
And what I said
Even though there is nobody around, quiet seems too loud. It chokes me. It is an unwelcome guest.
You are the night time fear
You are the morning when it's clear
I dream of him. Sometimes he's covered in blood. Other times...it's me who killed him. I gave him my heart, and he crushed it.
When it's over you'll start
You're my head
You're my heart
He was mine, only mine. Not His. Mine!
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
They told me I had depression, insomnia, borderline schizophrenia. I say I am heartbroken.
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
No light
Tell me what you want me to say
I need him. We belong together! Why can't he see that! It was me. It was me all along!
Through the crowd, I was crying out
And in your place there were a thousand other faces
I was disappearing in plain sight
Heaven help me, I need to make it right
They said nobody could see me until I was better. I am better. I'm no longer cutting, trying to hold onto the last bit of mortality I had left.
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But, it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation
Some kind of resolution
You want a revelation
Why do people want to leave me? What did I do wrong? Everybody's leaving me!
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day,
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
I want him back. I'll do anything to get him back where he belongs. In. My. Arms.
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
No light
Tell me what you want me to say
We were supposed to grow old together. Have children. Get married. Live out the good old New York City lifestyle.
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But, it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation
Some kind of resolution
You want a revelation
I'm no longer going to be the victim. Blaine is mine. Will be mine.
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But, it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation, some kind of resolution
Tell me what you want me to say.
I Love Him. I'll make sure he never leaves me again.
Sorry for the angst.
Love. Stuff