Broken Down

Chapter One

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Bella Point of View

I dragged my ass in my house and knew it was way over midnight. I stumbled more then I usually did, because I was drunk off my ass. I used my hands to help guide myself up the stairs to my room. I slipped my heels off, yes I said heels, and put my bag on my desk. I walked down my dark hallway and climbed in the shower, and washed the booze and sex smell off of me. I quickly dried and and marched myself to my room. I pulled out my pill bottle and put it on my bedside table, I was going to need this tomorrow.

The insistent beeping of my stupid ass alarm clock drowned out whatever dream was drifting in my head. I slammed my palm of the off button and swallowed two Advil. I pulled on my clothes and smiled, I looked like a slut and I liked it that way. I was wearing red short shorts, over black leather leggings. I wore a black spaghetti top with leather on top, with a motorcycle jacket over it so I didn't get cold. I pulled on my red peep toe pumps that screamed fuck me now, and put on my Alice in Wonderland heart necklace. I teased my hair, and lined my eyes with thick black lines.

I grabbed a bottle of water as I walked out my the door, waving to Charlie on my way out. I pulled my truck into the parking lot at school and sighed. After the Cullen's left I was empty. I got up one day and went to Seattle. I somehow got into a bar and ended up losing my virginity on the sticky bar wall, with a guy I never knew, never will know, and hopefully never will see again. It hurt but I've been told that's what happens to most people when they lose their virginity. After that I used my pre-paid cellular device and called up my fuck buddies when ever I didn't feel like going to Seattle and have bar sex. After losing my virginity I had gotten many fuck buddies. Mike, Jake, Paul, and Eric were on the list. I had done it with Quil twice, and Embry three times.

I looked like a whore and I'm proud of the whore status in my life right now, because without it people would see the emptiness in my eyes, and would be able to easily see my shattered soul. Booze numbed me for a little while and sex made me feel better, but those high from sex fades, and the booze only lasts a little while before I need more or I'm passed out. I know Charlie must hurt so much from this, but it was this or... I don't even know really, I don't know if I would have killed myself yet, but there's always the possibility that I would get over the pain of the Cullen's, and move on with my life.

But I don't think that will ever be able to happen.

I walked through the halls and as usual everyone looked at me. I smiled and flipped my hair over my shoulder and smiled a sexy grin. My heels clicked on the tiled hallway floor, and I could feel my short start to ride up in the back. I "dropped" my pen, and bent over slowly making sure everyone in the hall behind me got a nice view of my ass. I picked up my pen as a teacher walked down the hall behind me. I straightened up as waited by the door to my first period class.

School was such a drag.

After school was over I called up Jake and told him to pick up Paul, bring some lube, and met me where I wanted to fuck this time. I waited in the cab of my truck as Jake's car pulled up. I smiled and stepped out of my truck. Paul's pants tightened noticeably as his eyes racked up and down my body. I unzipped my jacket and threw it in my cab. I smiled and walked up to the door. Jake and Paul were right behind me. Paul kicked the door shut after we walked in and Jake's hot mouth was on mine quickly, Paul's hands foundling my breast. "No, not here. Upstairs. I know where." I murmured against his lips.

I walked quickly upstairs, and made my way to the place I wanted. I pulled my shirt up over my head and pulled a condom out of my pocket. I threw it at Jake as he walked into the room. My shorts and leggings went down together. I stood there in front of them both in black lacy bra and thong. Jake and Paul stripped quickly, and Jake rolled the condom on quickly.

This wasn't my first threesome. The first one with Jake and Paul though. I had one with Jake and Mike once, Jake was always in front. Jake laid on the white carpet, and I straddled him. If you knew the way I fucked there was no foreplay. I angled myself to wear Paul could get in my ass, while Jake was in my wet pussy. He rubbed lube on my ass hole, and some on his dick and pushed his way into me as Jake plunged deep into me. I threw my head back and moaned as I rode Jake, and Paul slammed in my ass. Paul's big, hot hands cupped my breast, and pinched my nipples. Jake's hands were on my hips, my left hand was on Jake's abs, my right was fingering my clit.

I was getting so close, and Paul was getting pretty jerky back there. The door to the room we were in banged open, as Paul grunted with his release. All of our eyes looked at the person the entered the room. Paul stood quickly and jerked his pants on, grabbed his shirt and ran out. Jake did pretty much the same except saying sorry as he pushed me off. I sighed and pulled my leggings on over my thong, And ran my hair through my hair.

"What are you doing here? Have a guilty mind?" I hissed and I pulled my shorts on.

"No, yes, kind of. I missed you." I smirked and pulled my bra on, my top slipped over my head quickly.

"If you missed me and loved me then you wouldn't have left. You broke me when you left all of you guys left." I said I know the Cullen's could hear me. "Did you like me being a whore in your floor, Edward?" I asked as I pulled a bottle of whiskey out of my bag. "Because after you left I had to have something to make me feel, sex and booze baby that's what makes me feel better. I am a whore and I feel horrible. I truly have nothing to give you now because I lose my virginity up against a dirty bar wall with a guy I don't even know. I have like seven fuck buddies and I drag my ass in my door well past midnight, because I can't face Charlie with my empty eyes, and shatter soul." I downed the rest of the whiskey, and walked out of the room, I wasn't in the state that I could drive. I grabbed my jacket out of the cab and walked into the woods.

"You hurt me Edward, and I really wish you wouldn't have, because I have changed and I wish that I was Bella again but I will never be her again. I'm the Bella fucking Swan the high school slut." I felt his hand on my shoulder. "And Edward that's better then being the girl that killed herself because the one person the she will ever truly love left her, because she wasn't good enough." I shook off his shoulder and stumbled into the woods, I could find my way back, it's only a couple miles. I pulled another bottle out of my purse, I'm glad I got these before I left. I downed the rest of that and walked through the woods a little more before I pulled my shoes off and and carried them with me. My stomach was twisting and turning. I puked on the nearest tree, my tummy heaved a second time and puked again. I walked a few more steps before I sat down against a tree and went to sleep.

Edward Point of View

I after she told me she would rather be a whore then the girl that killed herself because her boyfriend left her, my heart broke even more. I followed her through the forest, I was in the trees above her. She smelled horrible, the booze and sex changed her smell. She smelled like so many different guys, I didn't care then she was sleeping around, or that she was drowning herself with booze, I cared that I had broke her I had made her do a one eighty and change everything that was her.

Just so the pain of me being gone wouldn't hurt her as much.

After she passed out on the tree I picked her up in my arms, and zipped up her jacket, I even draped my unneeded jacket over her. I ran to her home and started to walk at a normal speed when I got on her street. I walked up to her house and knocked on the door. Charlie opened the door and looked at me then at Bella in my arms. Her opened his arms and hugged me tightly avoiding his sleeping daughter in my arms.

"Oh Edward, I'm so happy that your back maybe now she won't at like this anymore." I carried her up and laid her on her bed and looked at Charlie.

"I'm so sorry I left, I wish this wouldn't have happened."

"How did you find her?"

"We decided to come home, and once we got to out house here, she was in my room with two guys, umm... Doing it." Charlie slapped his forehead.

"She started to yell at me and told me everything that has happened since she left, she downed to bottles of whiskey and marched herself into the woods avoiding her car at all cost. I followed her in the woods I know the woods well and I didn't want her to get lost. After she pasted out I carried her here." I walked to the bathroom, and got a wet rag. I wiped her face and took the two jackets off of her. "Do you want me to change her clothes into something more comfortable?" Charlie thought it over and eventually said yes. After I put her in sweat pants and a tank top I walked down stairs.

"Do you want me to drive you home?" I shook my head and said by. Charlie really wanted me back in Bella's life. I wanted to be in her life too but would she really want me to be in her life?

Okay so do you guys like my new story? Like my other good stories this was a very random idea that popped into my head. I'll have chapter two up soon, please leave me many reviews. And once again Bella's outfit is on my profile.