Knock You Down

Clare comes back to school and find herself torn between the perfect guys she always wanted and the guy who she really loves.

Chapter one. Breathe Again

Song Quote: Out of breathe i am left hoping someday, I'll breathe again.

Clare arrived at Degrassi with mixed feelings. She stood outside the school with a slight sigh. Clare knew she needed to forget all that happened before the break with Eli. She knew she needed to move on. But how could she, when the memories were still fresh, still there burned in her brain. Clare shook her head. She knew she needed to just move on. Before she could think about Eli anymore she heard a familiar

"Geez Clare" Alli said "I thought you were waiting for me?" She smiled at her best friend

"Sorry," Clare apologized "I just wanted to get here early, to get the courage to go in" she admitted

"You don't have to worry. Eli is still in the hospital. You have some time." Alli reminded her

"I can't help it Alli" Clare admitted "I just, I miss how things used to be, you know before"

"Clare," Alli said "You need to move on. There are a ton of cute guys here at Degrassi. I am sure we can find you someone to get your mind off of Mr. Goldsworthy." Clare groaned and rolled her eyes.

"Alli, I am not dating right now. I am not ready. I am just gonna fly under the radar." Clare stated

"Sure, sure you will." Alli laughed

"Whatever, can we just get this day over? And this year?" Clare asked

"Someone is keeping an open mind." Alli laughed and they walked into the building. After Clare and Alli went to their lockers, Jenna and KC came over

"Hey Clare bear, how are you? We heard about you and Eli." Jenna said in her Jenna way. You know the kind of voice that isn't really caring but more of patronizing? That what she sounded like she was happy Clare wasn't in a relationship and she was. Clare sighed. She thought that after Jenna had her baby she would just drop this whole competing thing with Clare. Last year Jenna even stole KC from her. She didn't care about it now... but it still hurt.

"I am doing fine actually. Moved on. It like we were never together." Clare lied. But she wasn't about to admit her problems to Jenna.

"Oh I am proud of you Clare bear." Jenna said and hugged her. It was a fake hug, but instead of making a big deal of it she hugged her back.

"Besides there is this new guy who is totally hot," Jenna gushed

"Really? How hot?" Alli asked

"Like really really hot." Jenna gushed

"And I'm not?" KC asked

"No you are" Jenna said "But he is hot too!" Jenna laughed.

Clare shrugged. No matter how hot this guy was she didn't care. This semester was gonna be all be about her. No boys no dating. Plus she wasn't over Eli and any boy she would date would be a rebound. She wouldn't do that to anyone.

"Are you saying you are not the least bit curious as to what this guy looks like?" Jenna asked they all headed to class

"No not at all" Clare admitted truthfully.

"You wont be saying that once you see him" Jenna winked. As they walked up to the class room Jenna said "There thats the guy!" she pointed to a tall blonde haired boy. She was right. He was very attractive. Clare looked hard at the boy. She swore she had seen this boy before, but shook it off until she heard a loud and very happy

"Clare? Clare Edwards?" the boy was walking towards her. She knew this boy. But she hadn't spoken his name in over two years. The name that flooded to her mouth shocked her. For she could hardly believe he was here.

"Jake Martin?"