Disclaimer: i am not Hussie so Homestuck is not mine.
Ugly
Your name is JANE CROCKER and you
are
a
COMPLETE IDIOT.
You're staring at the words on the screen and it's like you're not even aware of typing anything; you're too dumbfounded by your own idiocy to really comprehend it. Not only did you just tell Jake English that you had no romantic feelings for him whatsoever (even though you really, really do.), you're even encouraging him into the arms of Dirk Strider, your apparent rival.
That isn't to say you don't care for dear Dirk. He's your friend, too, after all. Yes, you definitely care for him. And, certainly, you don't hate him at all or anything silly like that. How can you? That'd be ridiculous.
Almost as ridiculous as hating being 'just friends' with Jake English.
Haha, as if that were possible! You are so totally cool with this change of events! Definitely!
What pain? There isn't any! Because at least you're friends, right? The friendliest of friends, there are no pair of friends who are more friendly with each other!No, who are you kidding? You are an idiot. You are so stupid.
Your name is Jane Crocker and you are currently curled up in your father's chair, crying at your own stupidity, and responding to Jake with short, one-word answers.
It hurts too much.
But that's okay. Because you're friends with him.
Never has such a supposedly-nice word felt so ugly.
Never have you felt so ugly.
So very, very ugly.
Your lips curl into a smile, but it's tight, strained, and maybe just a little bit unnatural.