Disclaimer: Don't own RENT.
A/N: Somebody suggested a series. I liked the idea.
It's Valentine's Day. I brought you a present, love. I left it for you this morning. Actually, I left a dozen for you this morning.
It's just me and Mark today. Me, and Mark, and some alcohol, and we're going to party like it's 1991. Like it's 1991 and we're successful men without dates. But secretly I'll be partying like I'm with you. You're always with me, baby, whether you like it or not.
Mark's on Buzzline. He's funny as hell, you'd love it. "This morning, on Buzzline, we're introducing you to a whole new fad- fanny packs." Heads will roll. Pretty sure yours just did. You've always had the best taste of any of us. You always will. None of us are getting any more fashionable. Except for that leather coat. That leather coat will never get old.
Roger's with Mimi. Not downstairs. In the hospital. Actually, it's more like Mimi's with Roger. They're helping each other get better. To be honest...I'm really worried for them. They're not quite as crazy as they used to be. Roger wrote you a song. It's beautiful. Mimi's trying to get his mood up so he'll play it again. She's got your spirit. I think you gave it to her when you- when you left.
The apartment seems colder without you. I left the curtains up. The ones you made out of Joanne's shower curtains and ties. They make me laugh, even still. They sort of add to the atmosphere. Plus they remind you that you'll never be completely gone.
You aren't here to remind me to take my AZT anymore- well, at least not physically. I hear your voice every morning. "Honey, take your pills." So I keep up. I manage. I'm doing okay. Mark says I'm doing better than him, but I know he's just being nice.
I'm learning how to drum. I can see why you loved it so much. I'm not halfway as good as you, but I'll try. I'll never be quite as good as you.
I talked to Maureen yesterday. Apparently she's filming something for COPS. They seem to like her in leather, so they're keeping her on for a few more. It's a riot. Joanne's taken to carrying a clipboard around with her. In my opinion, they're both psycho.
My students found me smoking a few weeks ago. Didn't end well. I'm trying to lay off, I really am. But it's hard. It's real hard. Luckily, I still got my job. Somebody up there likes me, and I think I know who.
I had to go see Benny about a month ago for monetary reasons. He and Allison have another dog. It's a crazy ass yapper, that's what it is.
We're partying. Mark just broke out the Stoli. It's your favorite kind. Wish you were here, my darling. Wish you were here.
We're partying, but I want to go back to see you. I want to make sure that my somebody up there, my Angel, got her dozen roses.
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