Arcane: Hi guys! I'm going to try and write a truly sad story. This relates to what I am feeling and I wanted to try and put my feelings into words so I you guys could understand .-. There is a reason why I haven't posted very much and I hope you guys will read this with a heart. I've been crying about this for awhile and I wanted to share with you my experience I guess :/ So enjoy I guess... I'm going make a NaLu fanfic and fit it to my situation so sorry if its OOC... enjoy I guess... I don't own Fairy Tail or any of it's characters...

I listened to "Here With You" from Mirai Nikki while making this One-shot. You should too by ~ishter-kun~ One amazing heck of a pianist. I'm a huge fan! He plays beautiful pieces on the piano.

I Hope You Realize, Natsu Dragneel..

"Ne, Levy-Chan... Haven't I been hurt enough?" Lucy whispered.

"Oh Lu-Chan..." Levy-Chan whimpered.

This was not the first time that Lucy Heartfilia had broken down and lost her way. As she sat there nestled in the arms of her best friend, she wondered. What was there to live for? She did everything for her boyfriend. But now, her boyfriend was being whisked away from her by another girl, and all she could do was sit there and watch.

"Lu-Chan you don't need that jerk Natsu-Kun! You're too good for him!" Levy-Chan tried to cheer her up.

Lucy just nodded her head numbly. But all she could think about was the pain that rested deep in her heart.

"Ne.. Levy-Chan... I haven't done anything to deserve this right? Haven't I been put through enough? Haven't I cried enough? I'm tired of crying. I just want to go to sleep and forget all of this... Is that so bad? I don't want to hurt anymore..." Lucy said brokenly.

"He... He once told me that he wouldn't know what to do without me... but he has Lisanna right? Ne... do you think he would care if I died?" Lucy said as her voice cracked.

"To be honest... no... I'm sorry Lu-Chan.." Levy-Chan answered hesitantly.

"...So when he finds me dead.. the joke will be on him right?" Lucy smiled bitterly.

"D-Don't think like that Lu-Chan! Please you still have me, and Gajeel, and Lily, and Mira, and Wendy, and everyone in the guild!" Levy-Chan panicked.

"I'm fine! Just a little depressed! I won't do anything stupid I promise." Lucy smiled sadly.

"L-Lu-Chan... I have to go home now.. but please.. don't think like that. Everything will be fine. You don't need that jerk!" Levy-Chan said, her voice shaking.

"Thanks..." Lucy mumbled sadly, too lost in her own despair to pay attention to her dear friend.

Levy-Chan left silently, throwing a last look to her friend Lucy, who just sat on her bed, leaning her head on her knees, with a pink pillow covering her face, hiding all traces of her tears. Piles of tissues sat on the bed next to her. Levy-Chan silently made a prayer.

Kami-Sama... why have you cursed my friend so? She doesn't deserve this. What has she done to deserve all of this pain and tears? Please if you are there and you are listening, help her. Please Kami-Sama I'm begging you to help her.

Then Levy-Chan left. Lucy slipped a hand under her pillow and pulled out a crisp picture. It was of her and Natsu, on their first date. He had his arm around her shoulder and was kissing her cheek while a a dark red blush had started to blossom upon her cheeks.

Happy had taken that picture of them. Of course the sneaky little cat would. Before all she had to do was look at this picture and she'd sleep easy. But now, all it brought her was pain. Her heart ached. Natsu had told her he loved her and not to worry.

-Flashback-

"N-Natsu.. I-I don't like that Lisanna girl! H-How do you know she's telling the truth? You don't know anything about her!" Lucy stuttered.

Natsu stopped walking. "She says she's cutting herself! She told me she wanted to die! LUCY. WOULD YOU HONESTLY LEAVE SOMEONE LIKE THAT?!"

"N-No..." Lucy said, on the verge of tears.

"Exactly. I'm only trying to help her. I still love you Lucy, with all my heart. Trust me on this. Don't be jealous." Natsu answered before leaving to talk to Lisanna.

"N-Natsu..." Lucy cried as she sat down onto her legs and held her hands to her chest.

-Next Flashback-

"Lucy! I'm disappointed! How could you even think that way?! I told you I only loved you! After all this time you still can't trust me?!" Natsu yelled.

Lucy flinched backwards. "I'M HUMAN NATSU! YOU CAN'T EXPECT ME NOT TO BE JEALOUS! This isn't even about trust anymore!"

Lucy had started to sob. Natsu had a look of regret. "Lucy... don't cry. More than anything I hate to see you cry. I'm sorry. But Lisanna needs me. Gray already asked her if she loved me. He said she does but she said that she understands we are dating and won't interfere."

Lucy looked doubtful but put on a smile. Natsu smiled back at her.

Gray just didn't tell you what he thought... Lucy thought bitterly.

-End of Flashback-

Lucy hiccuped. She had always had problems with panic attacks. Remembering it made it worse. She couldn't breath and continued to gasp as she cried. The sobs racked her entire body. She just sat there and rocked herself.

"Natsu.. Oh why N-Natsu why..." She sobbed to herself.

Even though.. Natsu Dragneel, you whispered sweet words to me.. is it enough to heal this wound? Is it enough to heal all this pain that you and Lisanna have dealt me? Is it enough to dry all the tears that I have shed? Is it enough to heal our bond? Is it simply enough to rebuild this trust? I don't know anymore. I don't know anything anymore. Can I blame you for this? Just please hurry and realize... I will not be here forever, waiting for you to realize your own mistakes. To realize all the pain and tears you have caused me. To realize that, even after all of this, I can still love you. And to realize, that you have done this to me. I hope you realize it soon because this pain is drowning me. Its burying me deep and soon, I'll be too deep or you to even reach me anymore. I hope you realize this Natsu Dragneel. I hope you do.

Arcane: This ends my little sad one-shot .-. Hope you guys enjoyed. Review? And also... I thank all my readers who continue to support me. So thank you. Review and let me know what you think?